Have you wonder which celebrities you ressemble? well~ check out this website:
http://www.myheritage.com/ . This is really interesting ... hek hek .. see i do look like jappie hur hur hur ...
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, July 11, 2007
It is so bored staying at home and nothing much to do. With my situation now, close friends have notice and see the sudden increase of acnes around my mouth.All these while, knowing that i am diagonis with hormone discorder / imbalance but have yet doing any research on it. Only get to understand my condition from my gynae. Since I am bored and have difficulties getting my afternoon nap, I decided to do some research on it and understand my condition more. So here, a direct quoted from the website: http://www.girlshealth.gov/body/pcos_educators.htm. Basically, I am suffering from PCOS - Polycystic Overy Syndrome. So after reading on, I hope people will stop asking me why is there a sudden growth of pimples on my face and such. I understand my condition and trying to live on a positive side of it. It would help if questioning stop for it does make an impact on my emotion and feelings. Thank you. =) Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) is the most common reproductive endocrine disease among women of childbearing age. Although this condition has not received much publicity, it impacts many young women. In fact five to 10% of teens and young women have this diagnosis. The most common symptoms are irregular periods, weight gain, acne, and excess facial and body hair. The severity of the symptoms varies from girl to girl. Most young women are generally distressed with how the symptoms impact their life and self esteem. Having an understanding of this disease, the etiology, current trends in medical treatment, and the important role of good nutrition and exercise will help you to support teen girls with PCOS. What is PCOS?
Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a hormone imbalance that can cause irregular periods, unwanted hair growth, and acne. The name “Poly”, meaning “many”, and “Cystic”, meaning “cysts”, refers to the fact that those with PCOS may have enlarged ovaries that contain many very small cysts. These small cysts also called follicles develop in the ovary but the eggs are only rarely released. The outer wall of the ovaries thickens giving the ovary a polycystic appearance. These cysts are not cancerous and do not need to be surgically removed. It is not uncommon for girls with PCOS to have normal appearing ovaries but still have an imbalance in their hormone levels. Generally, symptoms of PCOS begin during the teenage years around the start of menstruation and can be mild or severe. The extent of symptoms and their severity varies significantly among young women. What most doctors will agree on is that young women with this disorder have irregular menstrual cycles and they have higher than normal levels of androgens (male hormones) in their blood.
What are the signs of PCOS?
Young women with PCOS commonly have one or more signs.
Some of the most common signs include:
1) Irregular periods-periods that come every few months, not at all, or too frequently
2) Hirsutism-extra hair on the fact or other body parts
3) Acne
4) Weight gain and/or trouble losing weight, and in some cases, obesity
5) Patches of dark skin on the back of the neck and other areas, called “acanthosis nigricans”
6) Infertility or impaired fertility due to irregular periods or lack of ovulation
Other less common signs/symptoms may include:
1) Hair thinning (on the top of the head)
2) Skin tags under the armpits or neck area
3) High total cholesterol and/or low HDL “good cholesterol”
4) High blood pressure
5) Pre-diabetes or in some cases, diabetes
Can you tell if a young woman has PCOS?
If a teen or young woman you know has two or more of the above symptoms, she could have PCOS. There can be other reasons for these symptoms and therefore only a doctor can tell for sure. If the young woman is distressed about the symptoms she is experiencing, you can suggest that she see her primary care provider. While she is waiting for her appointment, you can advise her to keep a log of her menstrual cycles and symptoms. She should bring the log with her when she meets with her provider. After an initial evaluation is completed, she may be referred to an adolescent gynecologist, or an endocrinologist for further testing.
What causes PCOS?
PCOS is caused by an imbalance in the hormones secreted by the pituitary gland that in turn affects the ovaries. Many girls with PCOS also have higher than normal levels of insulin from the pancreas. PCOS usually happens when the lutenizing hormone (LH) levels or the insulin levels are too high, which results in extra testosterone production by the ovaries.
For a more detailed explanation, take a look at the figure below: 
-> The pituitary gland in the brain makes the hormones luteinizing hormone (LH) and follicle stimulating hormone (FSH).
-> After getting the signal from the hormones LH and FSH, the ovaries make estrogen and progesterone, the female sex hormones. All normal ovaries also make a small amount of the androgen, testosterone, but the ovaries of a girl with PCOS make too much testosterone.
-> High levels of insulin, secreted by the pancreas, can also cause the ovaries to make more of the testosterone hormone.
Why do young women with PCOS have irregular menstrual cycles?
Having PCOS means that a young woman’s ovaries are not getting the right hormonal signals from the pituitary gland. Without these signals they will not ovulate regularly. Their periods may be irregular or absent.
-> Normally the menstrual cycle starts when the brain sends LH and FSH to the ovaries. A big surge of LH is the signal that tells the ovaries to ovulate, or release a ripe egg.
-> The egg travels down the fallopian tube and into the uterus. Progesterone from the ovary tells the lining of the uterus to thicken.
-> If the egg isn't fertilized, the lining of the uterus is shed and the menstrual period will start.
-> After the menstrual period, the cycle begins all over again.
The PCOS cycle shows where the menstrual cycle stops just before ovulation. As a result, girls with PCOS may ovulate occasionally or not at all so periods may be too close together or more usually, too far apart. Some girls may not get a period at all.
-> With PCOS, LH levels are often high when the menstrual cycle starts. The levels of LH are also higher than FSH levels.
-> Because the LH levels are already quite high, the surge that sets off the chain reaction causing ovulation does not happen. Without this LH surge, ovulation does not occur and periods are irregular.
What types of tests will a doctor do to diagnose PCOS?
Generally a young woman’s doctor will ask her a lot of questions about her menstrual cycle and her general health and then do a complete physical examination. She most likely will need to have a blood test to check: her hormone levels, blood sugar, and cholesterol. An ultrasound test to check the uterus and ovaries may also be obtained.
Why do young women with PCOS get acne and/or extra hair on their body?
Acne and extra hair on the face and body can happen if a young woman’s body is making too much testosterone. All women make testosterone, but with PCOS, the ovaries make more testosterone than they are supposed to. Skin cells and hair follicles are extremely sensitive to the slight increases in testosterone found in young women with PCOS, which contributes to excess hair growth in areas such as the upper lip, chin, sideburn area, chest, and stomach.
What causes the patches of dark skin in young women with PCOS?
Many adolescents with PCOS have higher levels of the hormone, insulin, in their blood. Higher levels of insulin can sometimes cause patches of darkened skin on the back of the neck, under the arms, and in the groin area. This condition is called “acanthosis nigricans.”
Will PCOS affect a young woman’s fertility?
Women with PCOS have a normal uterus and healthy eggs. Many women with PCOS have trouble getting pregnant, but some women have no trouble at all. There are new options available including medications that aim to lower insulin levels, which stimulate ovulation. Girls with PCOS should talk to their primary care provider even if they are not interested in becoming pregnant right away. Their doctor will explain the current medical therapies that are available. Reassure the young woman that good nutrition, weight control in girls who are overweight, and reducing insulin and glucose levels may induce normal ovulation, improving her fertility outcome. Remind her that medical treatment is constantly moving forward.
Is there anything girls with PCOS can personally do to help themselves?
While there is no cure for PCOS, it can be treated. A healthy lifestyle that includes nutritious foods and daily exercise can have a profound and positive effect on the endocrine system, particularly in cases when a young woman is overweight or obese. Studies have shown that losing even five percent of body weight in overweight and obese women with PCOS can eliminate some of the symptoms associated with this disorder. Although there are some young women with PCOS who are either underweight or average weight, some find that they gain weight easily, so for them daily exercise is a way to be proactive about their health.
What are the treatment options for girls with PCOS?
The most common form of treatment for PCOS is the birth control pill. The doctor may prescribe birth control pills because they contain the hormones that her body needs to treat her PCOS. The birth control pill may be prescribed continuously or cyclically. The birth control pill works by:
1) Correcting the hormone imbalance
2) Lowering the level of testosterone which will improve acne and lessen hair growth
3) Regulating her menstrual periods
4) Lowering the risk of endometrial cancer (which is higher in young women who don’t ovulate regularly)
Are there any other medications used to treat PCOS?
Yes. Metformin is a relatively new medicine which helps the body lower the insulin level. It is particularly helpful in girls who have high levels of insulin or have pre-diabetes or diabetes. It is necessary for a young woman to have her kidney and liver function checked before taking this medication. Since this medicine isn’t appropriate for everyone, it is important to encourage a young woman to ask her doctor whether this medicine is right for her. Because a young woman may ovulate while on this medication, she will also need to use birth control if she is sexually active. Alcohol should be avoided when taking metformin. Some young women may be treated with both metformin and birth control pills at the same time.
What about treating excess hair growth?
Treatment is individually based. Options may include bleaching, waxing, depilatories, spironolactone, which is a prescription anti-hair growth medication, electrolysis, and laser treatment. A young woman may require help finding a local salon that provides high quality, cost-effective services that will help her to choose the right option.
Are there any special treatments for acne associated with PCOS?
There are various ways to treat acne in general, including the birth control pill, topical creams, oral antibiotics, and other medications. These treatments are not necessarily specific to PCOS. Studies have shown that when insulin and glucose levels are controlled and ovulation resumes, acne and other skin conditions may improve greatly.
What about weight loss plans?
Losing excess weight when someone is overweight may reduce some of the symptoms of PCOS. It is often beneficial for a young woman with PCOS to talk to her doctor or nutritionist about healthy ways to lose weight and increase her exercise. Following a nutrition plan that helps manage insulin levels may help girls with PCOS manage their weight too.It also keeps the heart healthy and lowers a girl’s risk of developing diabetes. Encourage the young woman with PCOS to:
1) Choose nutritious, high-fiber carbohydrates instead of sugary carbohydrates.
2) Balance carbohydrates with protein and healthy fats.
3) Eat small meals and snacks throughout the day instead of large meals.
4) Exercise regularly to help manage insulin levels and her weight.
Is it normal for a young woman with PCOS to feel concerned about her health?
When a teen or a young woman is initially diagnosed with PCOS, she often feels confused. It is a difficult diagnosis to comprehend and the symptoms are distressing. Girls may also feel frustrated and/or sad if they are having a hard time losing weight, dealing with acne, excess body hair, and menstrual irregularities. When a doctor takes the time to explain what PCOS is and offers treatment options, a young woman may feel relieved that at last there is an explanation and treatment for the problems she has been suffering with. Having a diagnosis without an easy cure can be difficult. However, it is important for girls with PCOS to know they are not alone. Finding a doctor who knows a lot about PCOS and who they feel comfortable talking to is very important. Keeping a positive attitude and working on a healthy lifestyle even when results seem to take a long time is very important too!
Is there anything else I should know?
It is important that girls with PCOS follow-up regularly with their doctor and take their medication. The prescribed treatment will regulate her periods and lessen her chance of getting diabetes and other problems. Because young women with PCOS have a slightly higher chance of developing diabetes, her doctor may suggest that she have her blood sugar tested once a year or have a glucose challenge test every few years. Girls who are on hormonal pills to treat PCOS and who smoke should receive counseling on smoking cessation.
yourstruly crapped @ Friday, June 08, 2007
So much so saying of resigning, Yes, peeps, i have tendered on 7th May 2007 and 6th June 2006 would be my last day of work in Orchard Hotel. After one year of working here, there is definitely no regrets at all. The colleagues are nice and guess they would be what i will miss after leaving this big family. Let me proudly present to you who these peeps are in the famil of Sales & Marketing Department:
-> Ms Alice Ee (my DOSM - Director of Sales & Marketing. She is one great successful woman who has big dreams for this hotel. From her, I have learnt to look at the world in a different angle and apply marketing in a different way. I will always remember what she said during those morning briefings. Things such as, demand may not be there, as a sales person you are there to create the demand, to trigger the demand and subcausiousness of these people... Definitely, she would be my role model to learn from. For those who does not know, she was once a receptionist in the hotel but knowing what she really wants in life, she make her way up the corporate ladder and has become who she is today. Between, she is also the mentor of many of those mentioned below.)
-> Ms Macy Cheng (my DOS - Director of Sales. Well~ what I would say that she is one woman who is optimistic in life. Someone who you can confide in and earn priceless advice from)
-> Ms Jessica Khoo (my ADOS - Assistant Director of Sales - Corporate, and also who I am assisting. Definitely, I have learnt lots from her, but well, I am still weak in many ways. I teared and get emotion easily which is what i really Really need to learn from her. I got to be firm and not get bullied easily, that's what she had taught me. It's a pity that I will not be assisting her though I wish i could assist her longer but time is precious, I cannot let it flow as it is. I need to grad hold of my time and use it wisely. Many had seen and assured me that she dotes on me alot, which is why I tell myself that I am luckier compared to the rest of the coordinators. I am careless and she knows but she never scream at me for doing things wrong. She will only nag at me and remind me to be more careful next time. What's more, she is always afraid that I am overloaded and will do her own proposals and contracts.)
-> Mr Louis Cheng (my ADOS - Assistant Director of Sales - MICE and Travels. He is one great boss too. Always patient and fatherly. Oh yah, he loves to recycle paper too, always loading recycled paper into the machine, =))
-> Ms Portia Low ( my Senior Sales Manager and who I am assisting too. She is another manager who does not scold as well. See, I am a lucky coordinator! Most of time she is clearing her own email, proposal, and contracts too. Well~ she is like Jessica, but messier on her desk but neater on her administrative work. Haha~ anyway, I will definitely miss those times we hang out.)
I shall complete the rest of the manager's descriptive in my other entries. Otherwise, you guys would get bored soon.
So much so, I did not realise that so many things have happened to my friends, till Nette and Engracia was talking about Vonny's blog. Sigh~ girl cheer up yeah. I understand you are going through a hard time now.
It is definitely not easy to be strong but nobody say it is impossible yeah. You are nice girl and always putting your family infront of yourself. But, sometimes, we ought to understand that we need to be selfish to gain the best out of the better. Chase your dream, for Nette's post on 21st May had written the factual of life. We are young and so we must dare to dream. Only when you have the courage to dream, you will then move a step closer to your dream yeah?
When the time is up and you feel that you cannot move on further with this job, it's a sign. A sign telling you to move up with life.
People passes by our life, we all lead a unique life and no one has the same. We can't possible live our life to suit others, ending up suffering and no one would understands why. Don't give up your hope, girl! Always remember this " YOU WILL NEVER KNOW UNTIL YOU HAVE TRY IT" and "THE BIGGEST REGRET IS WHEN YOU REALISE IT IS TOO LATE TO TRY IT or rather YOU STILL HAVE NOT TRY IT"
I have struggled for the past months and broke down several times for the past months. Finally. i have picked up the courage to move on to chase my dream. I believe you can do it as well!
Ah Nette, ah Von, JIA YOU!
yourstruly crapped @ Friday, May 25, 2007
Gosh~ 5 days of mc .. arghh~ not very nice but doctor don't allow me to go back to work. She wants me to rest more at home and monitor my fever, making sure that it does not come back. Sigh~ anyway, i am down with torstenlatis (not sure how do you spell it), but it's a throat infection which causes high fever. Yupz, I was down with high fever for the 1st three days and the fever never reduce until i got my 1st injection on my butt! Ouch ~ it's painful yeah. Sheesh~ three injections on one week!!! 1st was my cervical cancer prevention injection and the other two were on my bum! And i got 7 medicines to take! Yucks! Anyway, i am brave. No tears from the injection. Haaha ~ alright some wining when dear came over on monday to give me padadol.
Yupz, i have finally completed my exams and guess results would be out soon. In a week or two. Somehow, there's this empty feeling within me. Nope, there was no excitement, no happiness or sadness in me after i completed the last paper, not even a sigh of relieve. But the feeling of empty. Yeah, what is my next step? there isn't really a question now compared to freshly graduated in Poly. Rather, my concern is how should i go about building my career as a marketer. I need the chance and opportunity but lady of luck isn't on my side. Am i really gonna stuck in the world of sales? And wasting all these years studying on marketing? At least give me a chance to do what i have studied, to experience out of the book! Arghh~ i am getting sick of waiting waiting and waiting for response of the various companies.
Anway, we went for a dinner at this Japanese restaurant. Gosh~ the food is real nice! It's buffet, free flow of sashimi! Oishi~~~
one last group photo... adrian and i had finally completed our course while the rest still have a couple modules to go .. jia you!
the best pals ...
the three baos!
Pimples have been popping non stop on my face, having a pretty good time i guess. Arghh~ perhaps it was due to the sleepless night preparing for my papers. Caught gastric flu on day before the 1st paper. Wat else, must all these always happen? Every time before the exams definitely i am caught with fever, flu, menses cramp, PMS, etc. What's new!
Back track a little. So what have i been doing for the past days? Well~ basically, I am just lazing around, sleeping and sleeping. Playing my Nintendo DS, yupz that's all. Suprisingly time passes quite fast during these days. I don't feel bored at all and wishes it would slow down a little. My sis has been using the computer more offen for her school work and that's the reason why you are seeing me online lesser. Dear finally came over last nite before his mahjong game with his friends. He mentioned that i have lost a couple of weighs. Arghhh~ from exams till now i have not been eating well. Down with gastri flu, i have to control my diet. And now, i am hit with torstenlatis, more watchful on my food. Yeah, so i am having porridge everyday. But what's good is i get to enjoy mummy's food. That's the best! Nothing beats it.
On the lorry after our bladding exercise ... buddy jia you for your career ok! dun give up! remember our dream. hur hur hur!
Another picture of us ... thanks dude for asking me out for a blade! Yeah~ really enjoy the company from ya. Anyway, please choose a better timing for sun tanning lar. Always choose weekdays which i need to work! Aiyoh.
Well~ little posts on my dear's pic .. well~ he just refuse to take picture lahz. Duh~ nvm i shall get more pic of him during our Thailand trip and really hope i can meet up with da nu ge! But where is he??? I can't get him online how to contact him? Hai~ careless me to lose his number.
Anyway, have a good weekend! I am going to miss my good friend soon. Sigh~ must think of us when in beijing ok! Two years may not be long ... arghh~ i really hate this feeling. But it would be a better exposure for you. So treasure your time there and save enough money for your school fees! Stop your na-beiing ...
yourstruly crapped @ Saturday, April 21, 2007
Dear All
Thank you for your concern. William and I are still together and will alway be (i hope so) haha. Alright. The previous post may post as disturbing to some, but i won't be removing it still as it was my actual feeling. By removing it may defeat the purpose of keeping an online journal.
Yupz, I have finally booked my air tickets and hotel reservation for my BKK trip. Da nui ge, i'm coming! Yeah .. so happy!!! Hope you are still there yeah.
Alright, in another 2 weeks time i am officially a bachelor degree holder. Yah? Well~ not mouch of the excitement though, perhaps its due to my poor results. I am not achieving grades like in poly and to be honest i am not putting as much effort as i had in poly too. So who to blame. Well~ but i am grateful that i have managed to complete the course. Definitely a BIG Thank you to my uncle who paid for my school fees. Seriously, if i do have regret for not putting in enough effort? Not too sure about it. I can't weigh my poly grades against my current grades though. Afterall, i was a full time student then with no other burndens like household income, insurance, savings, etc.
I need not worry about all these. But now, i have more than any responsibilities. To say about that, I am a Financial Controller at home. Hah~ what a big name for that. Anyway, it worries me i were to get married and who is going to control and coordinate on all these stuff? Sometimes, i really want to tell my siblings to wake up their idea and stop depending on me to deal with all these stuffs. Can't they use some initiative as well? Sigh~
Anyway, met this really cute, handsome charming model at the Fox fashion on Saturday! Woah~ if only he is mine! OMG! Nett bet you did not regret going with me to the show though you are not feeling well huh. hur hur hur still got touched by the waist! Bleah
Here are the photos ...
the youthful us while waiting for the show ...
my the other half ...
her scandal ....
but ... the reality ...
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, March 26, 2007
For once i thought i was right this time, the only thing which i need to focus now would be my career.
How it all started? 15th March was our 9th Month, you said to celebrate on 16th instead since it's a friday. I am all geared up for it, waiting for that day to arrived. Excited to be out with you again, it's been such a long time since we went out for movie and dinner together. Pretty long i guess in a lover's space.
Finally, it's friday, yeah, the reason why i'm looking for friday to arrive. All anticipated and prepared. I decided to do a little more make-up which i normally don't do full make-up. It's uncomfortable anyway. So for you, i wanted to look pretty. The trouble is all worth it, i packed and brought my clothes to office to change so that i can be well dressed up as well.
Greeted you in the morning. As usual, there is no reply from you. Alright it is normal i told myself. Time past and it's noon, yet i have received any sms from you. So i decided to call ya. Guess you were buzy then, that's why there was no response. Alright, telling myself anyway the date is confirm, we just need to decide the place. We have set the time, didn't we?
So i went for my lunch, keeping my hp close to me, knowing that you might ring anytime. Waited ... soon my lunch break is over. My Hp is as quiet. It's ok, it's only about 2 plus, so i thought just wait till 3 then i will ring again.
Finally, you called. I am so happy that i finally hear your voice for the 1st time. I rattered off. Asking you where are we going to meet, what show should we watched, where shall we dine, where should be go or do after the moive, etc. And so i ended my questions. Your replied, "my mum sprained her neck again". In my heart, i know what you going to say, but i hope that you will say something different instead. Then, there you go "shall we not watched movie today?"
Yesh, that's it. My heart broken into pieces. I am pissed for the second for you made your promise and break it. This is not the 1st time. Why must you choose such an occassion to break your promise? Though you have said to meet on Saturday instead after your work. Shock, to say anything. I decided to hung up on you.
Again, right after i have hung up. I am waiting and waiting. Waited for my hp to beep! Yesh, finally it does in the evening around 7plus. But it's not you.
Since, I have loads of Welcome letters to do, though Jessica had offered to do it for me on Saturday. I decided to stay in office to cont'd to do. Hoping that you might popped by any moment to surprise me. I cont'd to do my letters and other work. The clock strike 12. Guess you will not be coming anyway. Finished my stuff, packed up, it's 12.30am. So headed home, keeping my hp close to my side. Waiting for the good nite message from you. But my phone was silent throughout my sleep.
Waking in the middle of my sleep, checking on my phone, telling myself that i might have missed to beep sound from it. I checked, and went back to sleep and hope again.
Soon, it's time to wake up and meet up with my project mates. Discussing ... time passes, it's around 3.30pm, my phone is still quiet. It's not in silent mode, i have checked. Finally, my phone rang. My face grow again, thinking that you might have called to tell me that you want to meet me after my project. Since, you have said to meet on Saturday after my proj and your work to batch up things. So of cause i am anxious waiting for your call. I have again made the effort to doll myself up so that i can meet you any mintue on your call. Well, the phone call was from Han. Thanks to him, i do not have a lonely nite. Since i received no news from you, i have decided to go blading with him and his friends.
The night breeze was good. Thanks han for accompanying me though you do not what had happened. Well~ at least we have time to catch up.
So you finally called closed to meet up asking if i am still angry. Promising me that you will make up on Sunday. Fine, i am rather half hearted now. After my conversation with han, shant' elaborate further.
Anyway, Sunday soon to come. Again waiting is a chore. But still i waited, you finally msged me but the contents in your msg does not pleased me at all. You said " i am on my way to work, and meet up for movie and dinner later" So again, giving myself false hope. Alright, it's wrong of me not to reply u, but really angry and confuse of my feelings now. I was telling myself, i should get myself started on my project, you may pop out any moment. So, yes i have work hard on my project. It's 3pm, your message finally come. Before i have open it i thought you would be telling me that you have finish your task and coming over now. But again, i am wronged. Rightfully wrong. You said you will come by 6pm.
What? 6pm? It's a Sunday evening, meeting at 6pm, what else can we do? Fine, so i gave negative reply anyway, thinking that you will come by straight away. But no, you never did. No reply either. So again, i waited. Telling myself that you might pop by at 6pm despite me telling you that we might as well don't meet. So i get prepared again. Do my necessary house chores. Bathed Lucky had my masked. Finally, 6pm has arrived.
Again, it's another false alarm. You are no where near. There's no reply from you either. So i decided to msg you again, telling you it's 7pm. But again there wasn't any reply from you. So, maybe i should try calling you. I have called and put down. You have called but i am not talking. You msged and ask if i want any dinner but i never replied. Soon your next msged comes, asking if i want to play mahjong.
In my mind, what else can i think of, you have found the next activity to do since you are not meeting me anyway. But you said your mum wanted to play and ask me over to play. Well~ no thanks. Who still have the mood to play mahjond at this state? Isn't it obvious that there is something wrong with us? Can't you feel it? So i have texted and told you that perhaps we should go separate way. Isn't this a big big hint to you that you better come over now or else worst is to come? BUT NO! NEVER DID YOU COME BY OR EVEN REPLIED THAT MSG!!! HURT, I MORE HURT THAN EVER WITH YOU! SO I MSGED YOU THE LAST TIME TELLING YOU THAT SINCE THERE WAS NO REPLY FROM YOU I WILL TAKE THE ANS AS THAT YOU HAVE AGREED TO THE IDEA OF SEPARATION! AND YES, YOU FINALLY REPLIED. AND YOUR REPLY" ok then. Maybe we will take a short period of time to think thru wat actually happened."
Faint! Speechless, sad, hurts, more confused than ever. Always thinking that i had met the right man and may get engaged any moment and our rom and dream marriage has gone down the drain.
With that, effective from today, i have returned to my singlehood life and i shall not anticipate your calling, smsing, appearance. We are now separated and you don't belong to me. Will we be together again. It depends and i don't want to give myself any more false hope.
yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, March 18, 2007
Woah ... 315posts till date!
What is blog all about? In technical term, it was a weblog - yeah a web-log for the posting of events, comments, journals for people to comment. However, we have been using it as our daily life journal. A little misuse of the initial idea of a web-log however, truely it does a useful thing.
Many of us have been using it to jolt down our life events which had taken place and shared with friends around. We may not be able to keep in touch every day like we used to, but with this we are unable to get ourselves updated in the happenings of your friends. Well~ it's a nosey job though but "informative" in a sense too right?
Remember me complaining of those girly friends i have. Sigh~ anyway, i am still keeping them close to my heart. Was just reading some of their blogs and the urge of being there for them is strong. Well, like i said it takes two hands to clap. So i decided to give up the idea of leaving a comment behind or what. I do feel of what people think of me though. Yupz, smsing, msning, i have tried, but the cold shoulder received are what i am speechless about. I got no comments. But i do still cherish this friendship.
So if u are reading my blog, i do hope we can meet up some days soon. To you, i wish the best in your health, i understand things aren't working right at your end, but i do hope you are doing well.
To many of yous, cupid may not be working hard, or fate is playing with you. Nevertheless, i do hope you are enjoying every single second with the special some body. I always remember this phrase from someone; zhi shao ni men chen jin xiang ai guo, you were both once deeply in love is what it matters most.
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, March 12, 2007
