25th November 2006 - Doris big DAY!
Seriously, this is my 1st time seeing such a beautiful couple! Really! Both Micheal n Doris are so compatible!!! ... Pretty n Handsome! Awwww ... sweet!
Looking at the new couple marching in, makes me feel like getting married too. The feeling is just so heartwarming! It's awesome! U just feel happy for this couple!
After the wedding, we went to ONS - One Night Stand! Great! The music is nice, really! The band was not too bad! The crowd is good! After that, we proceed to Atticus! The song is good, rather i should is FANTASTIC! But, they are mainly ang mohs, yesh, tall n big ang mohs! Arghh~ taking up so much of the dance floor. Well~ really tired to blog about what's going on, picture will tell the rest when i post the next time round. Really tired. Ouch! My feet hurts! Wearing 3 inch heels to club isn't a good idea at all!
My inner voice: "relax relax ... batam only wat ... so what not the 1st time rite? Why so difficult to say out? Damn it lar, everytime say ur friend ur friend ... ur friend not my friend lar .. biatch .. blading say ur friend, bintan say ur friend, movie say ur friend, batam say ur friend, learn jap class also say ur friend, end up all is the same friend who i also noe since primary sch. Duh~ relax relax .. nothing to be agitated about... people just isn't as good life mah .. so scare u 'steal' away her friend mah ... bleah .. i'm being sacastic .. ok .. i noe .. my managers also say so .. haha .. i m very 'nia' - bitch .. haha ... i got attitude one hor .. haha ... anyway .. mummy is rite lar .. since they can't bother i also can't lar .. u want to contact me then contact .. dun wan then dun wan lor .. no point holding on to things/persons/relationships which the other contact refuse to carry on with it rite? neh .. enough of acting cute lar ... i never say out though ... but i think u are getting worst from last time ... becoming more act cute with that voice of urs .. its er xin de lor .. at least friend X is better than before lor though she used to be more dramatic in the past lar ... but at least i think she has mature and at least not acting cute le lor ... yucks ... the acting cute action n voice is really er xin lar .. come on behave like an adult lar ... pass 21 liaoz leh .. " - msg meant for my venting again ...
Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday! Yuppie another day then can see mango again! Finally he'll be back from his biz trip at Thail! Talking about thail! I wanna go there too! Jean got nice pretty and most importantly cheap dress there! like 5sing dollars only??? 8dollars for a pair of heels???? 5dollars for a wocoal alike bra??? n many more! I can't wait for my graduation so that i can spend my leave on overseas trip!
That's all really need to bath now!
yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, November 26, 2006
A post of the past events ... yupz, basically it's picture blog time!
15th November 2006 - 5th Month
Yupz, a heart shaped blueberry cheese cake for him ... Thanks shifu for the recipe! Who say i cannot make cake? Hey, once a failure but a winner in the future ok.
Mango with Blueberry! Oh ya ... guess what? celebrating our 5th month having my little sister by our side? hek ... anyway .. so we got 3 person sharing the cake .. but i only managed to eat 2 slices ... the whole cake was gone the next morning!
17th November 2006 - my birthday
Finally it's my birthday ... officially 22 now! Having our celebration at Ichiban in Suntec! Yummy yummy we order lotsa food!
Look at our table!!! guess how much had we both order?? haha .. Salmon, mushroom butter soup, toufu salad, shishamo, salmon skin, chicken omeltte, salmon cheese sushi, fish egg sushi, scallop sushi, green tea ... er did i miss out any? These amount is for just the 2 of us!
Well those who know me well enough. Do u think i will eat all??? Hahaha, of cas not! I just wanted to have a taste of everything! So ta-da ... again i cannot finish my portion at all!
Yupz, so as my partner for dinner .. of cas he has to finish it. Hahah~ his principle is not to waste food!
18th November 2006 - Motor Show & MOS
his favourite
mine favourite!
Just a sweet little post before setting off to MOS ...
Car n me ...
Uncle and Auntie trying to be YOZ again ...
19th November 2006 - With the girls
my last birthday celebration for this yr with the gals ...
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, November 23, 2006
How should i start?
Now, i'm officially 22 - er not a very good sign though. I still miss my poly days. Yes, it's still the best, and Yupz, that is wat school pride and paraphernalia shall comes about!
Haha~ UWA mates, using school for example would be a more positive reserach rite? Instead of Singapore and paraphernalia. Duh~ we knoe the answer ourselves, but need reserach as a back up .. haha.
Alright, the eve of my birthday wasn't good at all!
Lunch time, mum called to ask me help my sis to pay her accumulated phone bill!!! WTH, my birthday still have to help in such task??? My 21st birthday, ang bao come also give some to daddy, bro and sis. N mind u, i paid for all the food and etc k!
Next after lunch, back at work! my BOC group booking have not been keyed in the system despite giving them like a week ago! Damn it, n this is like what my 6th time going to lie to the customers about the bookings, pretending i am bz, in the midst of sending, blah blah blah! Hey, it's not what i wan k. Those who knows me, if i wanna get a task done, i will make sure it is done well! Arghhh~ but the prob is the other dept is taking their time! So no choice but to inform jessica to get her to chase them again. I am just a coordinator, so my words may not be effective enough. N this is definitely not ur attitude talking to me just because u are more senior! In the 1st place, keying the booking is ur job k, sending the confirmation is also ur job. We sales co have our own set of duty and dun take us for granted because we always give in and help u all to send out confirmation during ur bz moments. This is not for a long term duty k. We do have phone calls coming in asking for reservation, but did we ever trsf the call immediately to ur dept? No k, we help to handle such calls too. If u really wanna draw a line betwn both dept then fine, next time whatever call comes we just simply trsf to ur dept! U are bz, so are we k. U are just required to key in the bookings and send out confirmation. On our hand, when there is a payment issue, the finance want us to assist them, when the booking not guarantee ur dept want us to assist u, when there's customer complains in other dept, we have to assist also, on top of all these, we have to make sure at the end of the bookings everything runs smoothly! So with all ur slow action, we are the ones surfering k. We have to rechecked on the bookings made, we have do monthly report, we have to reply emails, we have to have you recusite on ur stocks, we have to attend to our manager's emails, we have to attend to the customers, we have to do entertainment, we have to do the welcome letters, we have built relationship with the guests, we have to haunt for new accounts, we have to do sales biltz, we have to do telemarketing, we have to do the competitors analysis, etc. We have a wider job scope than u k, and that's make a reason why we are sales co and not rsvn clerk. No i am not complaining on my job! I just wan you all to be more responsible, it's that simple rite? If on our end we are trying our best to satisfy our customer, on ur end u shld do ur job well, becas everything start from ur end! without the rsvn made, we can't cont'd the further steps!
Argh~ yes, it's very bad, now the Director get to know the situation we sales co are facing, and all the time they are thinking that the rsvn staff very poor thing but now becas the 4 of us really can't endure anymore, we break down. Alright lar, only me k.
Finished work late, met up with engracia, tracy and boey for KTV session. Haha~ alright, it's been a long time since i sing. It's still a happy moment lar. Yupz, but another spoiler came!
Reaching home, in the train, thinking i may end the nite happily but at 12mn, a msg came saying it's urgent to call him! So what, i called lar, no it's not a birthday greetings but a complain - i.e. quarelling with my sis again! Arghh~ if u guys cannot get along then break lar, what's so difficult abt getting well with each other. Afterall, u both chose to be together rite? So since u choose to be together then why always complain about each other?
If u think she is getting too much, controlling your life and u really cannot get along with this life, then why hold on to this r/s. Think of the long term!
Then if u feels that he is working too much, neglecting u. THink about it, he is working k! At least he mind to work, and if u really cannot tolerate his workaholic behavior, then why are u holding to this r/s too? just break la, everyday quarel!
Damn it, u guys quarel then quarel lar, why always involve me in! I need my sleep too k, i have my own probs k, 1st thing in the morning quarel, last thing before sleep also quarel!
Hey, please do that somewhere else n not in my room where i am trying to get my peacefull sleep. I have a long day too k.
Come on my birthday, things were better but lotsa loads to handle. Just when i am about to leave the office at 8pm, here comes a call telling me that there is changes to be made in the welcome letter! Damn it. i had completed everything and about to bring down the letters! So what, i have to redo everything and this delay another half hour of mine! I am suppose to be leaving early! But i am still stuck in the office at 8pm!
Argh~ my buddy also very good, left me a pile of welcome letters to do.
Enough of all these complains i really wish for a smoother year ahead.
N Kanneth better get our questionaire ready. U had delayed giving us the questionaire for a wk, being MIA ... duh ... lecturer only knows how to talk big these days i suppose. better extend our project date line!
yourstruly crapped @ Saturday, November 18, 2006
Finally NRA had her 1st production! 3 Cheers to everyone who is part of this Big family! Really touched by the efforts put in. You guys did NRA proud! Indeed, the family size is getting bigger and bigger. Once, there was less than 10 guys and only one guy in Sam's batch but now, look!!! We have more guys. Haha~ gals more for you to choose form now.
The event has finally successfully ended. Everything runs smooth except some technicals problem in the midst. especially at the last part when Daphane is singing a song and the pictures are suppose to run at the projector screen, to create the "touched" " emotional" effect BUT the laptop went out of battery and the screen went blank!
Nonetheless, i bet everyone had enjoyed themselves and the friendship bonds would be stronger than ever!
Yupz, met Mr Thomas Tan and Mr Chia Mia Chiang - the Principle of Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Gosh~ he had aged alot! i still remember the last time i met him was during my graduation... sigh~ time passes.
Ann was sitting beside Mr Chia, haha~ so no choice got to face her anyway. Feel so embarrassed seeing her again. Yah, i drop out of the production without informing her, how rude i was rite? Anyway, she is still my role model in life! My inspiration to dance!
Not forgetting to mention about Yutaki! Yupz, he is one guy who i owe to. He is the one who encourage me to dance, to train me privately, a training for me which others does not have - one-to-one training and that time i really feel like crying because he was so strict. But i must thank him, becas he is the one who made me realise what dance is about, and what is the meaning of putting in energy to dance, the power, the different body parts we must use to express ourselves and the lines to be specially particular about when dancing. He is the man!
Seeing all the familiar faces, friends who i had dance and cried with, friends who had shared the happinest and saddest moments with me, friends who had gone thru' the difficult times when we tried to dance and compete in our yr1 time when we had no instructors! Friends ...
The production finally ends 3hrs later, and my emo getting worst ...
Taking the bus, the same old journey, riding at this late hours - when normally our dance would ends. Having the trip alone wasn't good at all, NP might have change much but not the route, not the scenery. Images which had lost long ago start flashing back.
My first and last time dancing with him on the stage was during Yutaki's time. We were dancing to JTL - My lecon. Yup, one of my favourite dance then. That was also one of the widest nite we had in the club house. =) ... The time when we tried to climb over the school gate at nite. The time when you bought me tibits to munch when i was doing my projects in school, and waited for me to finish my project and send me home. The time when you had me to complete my project while i'm asleep in your bed. The time when you scolded me. The time when you scream at me. The time when you speak up for me. The time when we spent in Merichie reservior - me trying to catch the squrriels. The time when you surprises me with the peach cheesecakes. The time when we waited for each other online - waiting for each other to go offline. The time ... there were countless times of memories i wished for and stay true ... but fate does not allow ... we all still have to move on ...
Moving on ... at home now, sitting infront of the computer, eating my cup noodles, i wish i had disappear ... i wish i would not have to go thru' this emo confuse states.
Sigh~ what a bitch i m ... writing on another guy while there is another guy out there embracing me with his love... yet i m yearning for another ...
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, November 13, 2006
I am still too young to understand love?
Hek, search me, my mood really swings. I dunno what I want in life, or rather life of love?
Sigh~ after the failure one relationship, it's really hard for me to fall in love again. Yes, i am having a very nice boyfriend now, always doting on me, showering me with all his love, blah blah blah. But, the more care i am receiving from him, the more guilty I am.
ARghhhh, kill me please!
Reason being, i still look back to the past. Nope, i dun wan to. But the images just pop out. It's a spam! It's a spyware! I bloody need a anti-spyware software or block pop ups software in me!
My birthday is coming, but i am not reserving the actual day to be celebrated with him. I planned with all my friends but him. I am being so unfair to him.
Sigh~ .. a confused state of mind.
God, please tell me what am i suppose to do? You are driving me crazy. For one mintue you made me crazily in love with him. For the next, you make me loosing interest and feeling.
Lost and confuse ...
yourstruly crapped @ Saturday, November 11, 2006
It's Networking paper tomorrow.
Oh GOD! I did my best. I read the text this time. Pleaaaase help me to pass beautifully, can?
Seriously, i have more mood to revise today and i really mug hard the whole day! BUT, i don't understand what i had really read. I mean Networking is not my strength at all, not to mention about theory stuff to me! Hell~ Really regret takinga triple major with this.
Anyway, it's the prelude of the Superstar today. Lolx, why is there people who are so thick skinned to actually join such competition when they know that they are not up to it?
On the other hand, we should applause for their courage.
Well~ guess everyone remembered the tuition teacher who sang "gu dan bei pan jiu" last yr? Haha~ her singing skill had improved! really, at least not as mono.
Saw a couple of commercial on the Vivo GV cinema! Gosh~ i wanna go there! I wanna try the Goal class! .. dear dear i'm waiting... haha ... rather u are waiting for me lar .. it's me who is bz all the time ... sorry ...
Miss ya, mango
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Guessed i am really at my max.
My results are really getting worst. From term1 till now, every month my marks seems to be getting lower and lower and hopfully i would still be able to survive by end of next Mar.
Sigh~ please enlighten me ... how can i score better? Feeling really a waste of money and time, i should be doing better isn't it? I mean i've been thru these modules or rather most of it and should be good at them. Sadly, i am scoring worst than my poly days ... helpppppp
Really whacked...
Swarmed... i'm swarmed .. i need a break!
yourstruly crapped @ Saturday, November 04, 2006
Was made to come online after school by my dearest lau pa ... yah .. made to remove certain content from my previous post.
Guess i really screw up my market research paper today. Dunno what am i doing, reading all the wrong questions. Take for example, the question asking which is false, i read as true. And this does not appear for one question but to all of those which is asking for false. Sigh~ i'm not in the state of mind to do anything. Really need a break.
A short post today, sitting here all drowsy, the medicine is taking effect. Yupz, with this drowsiness i shall sleep better.
I need my mango ...
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, November 02, 2006
Setting a record!
This is my 3rd posts today! .. yupz, dinner is sumptuous today! ... CRAB! yuppie, after 3yrs of wearing braces, i have not had crab for a long time and finally i can eat all i want today!
Wee~ this is fun.. yeah, eating eating eating ... enough of rattering in this blog ... i had eat all complains away ... yup, they shall be disjested and soon to be sh*t out .. yeah ...
gone .. gone gone to the poo ...
Why am i always got so bother with such missy stuff? hur hur hur ... come on .. life is much better than getting angry with all these ... or why get hurt? is it worth it to feel so emotion for pple who doesn't care for u? and make pple who cares to be worried over you?
Neh .. not worth it .. little Shanice shall live life to the fullest ... yupz .. i am all happy again ..
Lau pa .. i noe u are finding to chance to ask me what happen .. dun worry .. ur daughter is strong .. nothing will defeat her .. she will walk out of her life and be ur happy little daughter again ... just faster get me a lau ma can le .. i dun mind a ***
to be my mama one ..haha
tsk tsk tsk
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, November 01, 2006
The inner voice
Evil: they are just another group of friends
Angel: but they are the one who i grow up with ..
Evil: yah ... but where are they when you need someone to talk to?
Angel: not really .. jo and yun were there after my 1st breakout with jon
Evil: was that their last time? How about being there for you for the past two years .. when u are trying so hard to find back urself?
Angel: *dumbs* but yun was there for the 1st few moments during those times .. jo was aware of it too ..
Evil: so what? did they cont'd to check on u .. asking if u are ok? do u think they care?
Angel: i dun no ... perhaps they are buzy with their own lifes too ... they might have their own problems
Evil: not the case, my dear ... so what if they are bz .. they can easily sms u asking if u are ok ...
Angel: ... ...
Evil: what's more .. they had been to several blading outings and they nv ask u along ..
Angel: .... ...
Evil: further to it ... u were having dance classes with yun rite? did she inform you about this? though she did mention that she has been going roller blading with her friends ... yah yah .. her friends ..
Angel: but she might be going with her friends who i dunno
Evil: u really think so?
Angel: sigh~ ... ...
Evil: she say u are so loving with ur bf .. dun need pple to accompany ... but is she aware that u do have ur difficult times that u need ur "sisters" to be there too? further to it .. are they aware of what u have gone thru' .. are they aware of ur everything?
Angel: sobz
Evil: recently they went to vivo city... though it's last min .. does it give them an excuse not to ask u along? they went for bintan trip ... did they ask u along? they have been planning for a couple of trips .. did they inform you ...
Angel: yah they did tell me
Evil: yah rite .. only tell u at the last min when they are already planning ... so what does this action telling u ... it does not matter if u are able to go .. or not .. cas you are not in the mind when planning ... cas u are not important! .. u dumbo .. can u wake up!
Angel: she say this is not friendship is about .. why are u so pity?
Evil: this is not about pity .. ok .. u talk about friendship .. so yesh .. friendship .. why are are included except u??? think about it ... can u just wake up ...
Angel: *still dumb*
Evil: yup .. she is just talking about friendship .. but a friendship also has a measure to it ... a "hi bye" friend .. or is she saying "sisterhood" .. ha ha ha .. bet she is referring to just a mere "hi bye" friendhip! ...
Angel: CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP!!!
Evil: fine fine .. i leave u to think about it .. but dun bear too much hope in this "friendship" which does not last .. u can see .. it is drifting away from you .... u will see .. . u will see ... i will laugh at u ...
Angel: damn it! f*ck off! ..
yourstruly crapped @
This may not be the 1st time i'm blogger about this. But it is really something i wish i can get out of it!
Many of us have friends who we had met since primary school and remained close even now. For me, i guessed this friendship had lost long time ago.
I am only contacted if they need or require me to do something. Otherwise, i am just left out. Alright fine! So what if i have boyfriend??? WTF. Stop assuming that i am happy with my life now and boyfriend is the only person i wish to be with k!
I had done my part to contact u gals and asking you all out. But always i am rejected. What's the reason? Can u gals enlighten me!!! Nevermind complaining here, cause i believe i won't be heard. I Swear.
Shall i make it a point that this is my last blogging about my complains of your gals. and i shall just lead my life without you all anymore. No more sistershood i meant.
You mention that i am always bz with boyfriend, HELLLO ... i stress what about the periods when i am single. Never am i included in you gals activities!
Seriously, i guess this friendship is meant to be forgotten and i shall not interfere with you gals anymore. I shall be stranger to you all and just a "hi bye" friend would do.
My feelings now? Hurt ... really hurt... stop being nice infront of me only and exclude me in all activities and only include me to fill the head count. I'm off!
Back off ... bye!
I have other friends who are there for me and understand me better. Reason is simple, because they care. Not a bunch of sh*ts!
Enough is enough, so what if i'm tearing now. I will take it as fate does not allow me to enjoy sisterhood.
My birthday this year shall be special. Becas it would be the 1st time celebrating without you gals. ANYWAY, celebrating my birthday is just a chore to you all... nothing special.
Ignore my previous posts on these SISTERs. Because the feelings wasn't geninue at all! I'm feel more of an outsider being with them. If "partner" you claims that will is with me where-ever i go, reason is simple, i shan't hide here. It is because i know, if i join you gals for any activities alone, i would be left in my own world. You gals would be buzy chatting about the incidents which you all had and leaving me unknown and speechless, cas i can't add on to anything.
Stop all this bullsh*t saying what sisterhood. Neh, i'm just an "extra" who you gals pity. Will is ask to accompany me in these birthday celebration is becas i noe i would be left out and with him around i noe he would be able to accompany me and there to lend me a shoulder to cry on immediately any celebration.
Never will i ever forget my 19th celebration. Yes, i cried, jon was there to comfort me. He is the only person who noes why i cried on that very day. You gals didn't even make an effort to greet me a "happy birthday". dun even mention talking about celebrating with me.
That's all, i have enough, perhaps i should just make up my mind to delete all you gals contact to reframe myself from contacting you all.
yourstruly crapped @
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