Took MC today. Sigh~ kinda guilty taking MC again. Getting migraine attacks again. Doctor ask me to relax and just do my best in everything i do and nothing to be stress about. Be Happy - that's what he told me.
But i can't. There's too much things to do too little time to spare. I wanted to do so many things. Oh yah~ gonna plan for the cable ski trip soon i guess. Haha~ if not the next time round when Marc contact shifu n i m around ah .. i think he gonna question me abt that. Hee but abit troublesome for a gal to plan rite. Cause i dun even noe when my menes will come. Duh~ Anyway i will still do my best to plan. Hoping to be around 11march? I think that date shld be safe! Gonna check with julie n phoebe dear abt that!
Hmm.. one more sport on my schedule. Now bro gave me his tennis racket! hek hek hek can start ask han quan lau pa to ask his friend abt the rate le. Hmmm maybe this to be put on the week after cable ski?
Yupz, this week is another lecture week - presumming it to be another boring lecture yeah. Alright, Thurs will be mid term exam n sat project submission - sigh~ Cath had done most of the proj. I'm such a lousy project partner.
After lecture on Sat will have to rush home to get change n celebrate Grandpa's 80th birthday!!! Weeh~ so happy for him! But too bad ... no 4th generation yet. Bro is only 25 this yr n the eldest grandson. Haha so the eldest grandaughter is only 22 this yr n ta-dat --- that's me lar. Duh~ Neither am i getting married soon. Hmmm dunch even have a partner yet, not to tok about marriage huh. Well~ i dun plan to get married young too. Perhaps earliest would be 27? haha .. unless i manage to get a rich guy? But i dun really wanna depend too much on a guy financially. Gotta stand my feet! Who knows one day he left u? Who knows he threaten you with $? Who knows he will not flirt since he is so rich? Rite rite ... haha ...
Back to the topic of being Happy ... how to be happy again? Hmmm .. Well~ who will be satisfy with things in the 1st place? We are always seeking for a better life so on - at least for me, hur hur hur!
Hmmm .. wonder wat will dragonfruit's reaction be if he knows that i like him .. haha .. neh not gonna disclose it further .. my heart is still searching ... perhaps another fruit will come by soon .. haha .. wonder wat fruit would it be? Banana? Pineapple? Chi-gu? Mango? Durian? Rambutan? Orange? Kiwi? Apple? Strawberry? Cherry? Mangosteen? hmmm ... Honeydew? i wonder? hehe ...
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, February 27, 2006
More photoblogs!!!
MIS lecture was boring as usual ... tsk tsk tsk we decided to play with HQ's new phone - N70 during lecture break ..
Myself n ah meow with lau pa behind ... hek hek hek i like this pic
Yupz .. another nice one .. the joyous us with car ..
Err .. a candid shot by lau pa when i think shifu was suaning me again .. yupz toking about being spokeperson for coke .. duh ..
haha .. i like this .. Lecture had gone superly boring .. n car is falling asleep in class so shifu make me drew these 4 pics .. haha .. with all related to mahjong! YEah~ n this is "qing fai"
haha .. television??? definitely not i draw one lar ... my television does not look like this .. this look more like oven! hhaa .. k k .. accordingly to shifu this is "bai ban"
so u see 2 elephants??? one big and one small?? yupz n there's a construction cap? haha .. tada - this is "da xiang gong"
This is easy! "hong zhong"
Coming to the end of the class .. Car manage to steal a styrofoam plate from the buffet outside the class .. haha .. so each one of us drew something on this plate n this is how it look!
Yupz .. another one ..
Lastly, wanna wish vonny all the best for this r/s n i can see how blissful u are now! Glad that u are happy now yeah gal .. enjoyz!
yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, February 26, 2006
1 down! Finally ... MIS assignment 3 is done. Yupz.
Like i promise .. i shall have photoblog today.
Our swensen gathering with francine ...
they are a lovely couple but Yvonne had decided to love me too ...
Look at the DRUNKEN PRAWNS ... yummy ...
The more we get together .. together .. together ...
the girly girls ...
Fu - Lu - Shou
Happy Birthday to you .. Happy Birthday to Aileng .. Happy Birthday to you ...
I wish ...
The sisters! From left: Vic, Jace, Leng, Jo n Myself
Missing: Wei n Isabelle
Kissing Leng-Jie
Yup .. that's the latest pic for now ...
Yippee so happy! Car jioing to go Sentosa next sunday!! Haha~ can sun tanned! Yeah yeah yeah n Volley Ball! ...
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, February 23, 2006
Sigh~
Read thru' 2 of my friend's blog n decided to call it off a day. Shall not cont'd reading anymore. Read Leng's blog - her past posts .. sigh~ i believe money will always pose as a common prob in relationship. Hence, i stil stay put on my stand that, i.e. to find a bf with stable carerr - the least, hopefully his pay is higher or at least on par. Yupz, this is definitely one of the criteria i'm looking for. Maybe that's why i m seeking for older guys? haha ..
Read Julie dear's blog. Hmmm .. i thought to myself, what will i do if my beloved ones fall sick. Cry? or Put on a strong front? Sigh~ Cancer though is a common sickness these days but how many had actually survive from it? The number is little - very few.
I had love ones die from this illness, i m scare - m afriad to be it's victim as well.
Just struggled thru my MIS proj.
I hate myself now. I have been relying too much on people. It's time for me to stand on my feet once again. Where is the me who was determine n stubborn gone to? I mean stubborn / determine to get things done. Someone who sees an urgency in getting things done n not wat i m like not ... being lay back - a slacker - waiting for free ride! I hate it .. i dun wan to behave this way. I want to be ME ... the LEADER! Not a follower! .. i used to be LEADER in getting things done but why am i such a looser now .. waiting for spoon feeding???
Just imagine if shifu did not send me his finished project? N now he is out! Wat the hell will i suffer thru'??? Sigh~ enough is eough .. how long more will i wake up!!!
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Stress!!!
Woke up early, dragging myself to work again. Having nauseas feeling since morning. Haven't got this panicky feeling for a long time - the last time was in Poly when there's always projects submittiong n exams. Yah, I am stress... feeling the pressure once again. This thurday got to submit assignment 2, n saturday to submit MIS project 1. Next Thurs would be BE mid term n Sat for BE project! Hell~ n i haven't started on my BE revision. Our project is like only 1/4 done! Arghhh~ .. i m scare. Cas for both project i m doing the compilation. I am afraid that i m not able to deliver the end product by due date. I m afraid that i will not meet the grp standard. I m afraid that i will pull their marks down. I m afraid ...
All these build up my stress level - there's stress from work as well. My cases are like never ending! WHy??? WHy m i always getting cases which i cannot close on the spot. Why m i getting cases which got to go thru the management? Why m i getting so many sh*tty cases? Why?
I am having discomfort stomach the whole day. I feel like breaking down. I haven't cry for quite a while. Perhaps i really need to cry my heart out one day - once again, to release the stress in me. I wish he is here for me. I wish i am able to hug him. I wish ... sigh~ that adds on to the stress level i m facing now ..
After lunch, i went back to office, clearing as much cases as possible, cas tmr i will be going for a grooming course. Anyway, half way thru my work, i decided to listen to some JY's song for comfort. True enough, i finally manage to concentrate on my work n clear wat i need to clear.
Meet up with my gals to celebrate Aileng's birthday! An early celebration. Finally we got to go KTV together. Yupz, after about 3yrs of planning? Ok .. we are all bz pple. Haha~ but really enjoy my time with the gals. Screaming our heart out .. spoiling the songs! haha it's real fun.
Happy time does not last though. So we sang till 11 plus and gary drove us back. Hmmm ... I miss u gals. Shall make our Thailand trip come thru ok. Shall use the money from govt in May k! Will upload the phoeots again .
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Hmm~ i m all alone at work this morning! Engracia, jah is online morning leave. Jean n ima not here the whole day! .. i miss jean!
Managed to clear a bit more of my cases. Sigh~ hope the list will not get any much longer! Oh God . plurleesee ... i dun wanna repeat history, going back to times when i got so many cases pending.
Boss seems ok today. Haha~ but again i have many cases which need to see him. Sigh~
Lately, i have been thinking of dragon fruit. Have i really start fallen for him, i ask myself. Somehow i really dun wish to know the truth. I am more coward than b4. I dun wanna loose another friend. I m afraid history will repeat. Yesh now, i shld be happy that i have a bunch of good friends. I dun wanna drift away from them just like wat i had been thru with the NRA.
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, February 20, 2006
she is sad / disappointed / confused / lost ... sigh~ i understand how she felt .. just hope she will soon walk out of the darkness n move on with life. There will be better guy ahead awaiting for u. Dun worry k .. cheer up!
Come play mahjong with us one day k .. then we can all have fun.
Oh yah, speaking of mahjong. Hmm~ my skills improve le. All thanks to my shifu leh. Haah~ got good shi fu then can have student like me mah rite?
Looks like i'm becoming like jah or rather i have insomia all the while just that i did not realise it. Since secondary sch i have always been putting pressure on my studies. I make sure that i did my best in all my subjects, tsk tsk tsk often i end up in sleepest nite. Though i normally lie on my bed at ard 10pm during those days i will only fall alseep at ard 2 / 3am. My brain is actively thinking of things that happened in the day, thinking of fantasy n all sorts, Yupz i always try to crack why n how math formulas are formed.
Just this morning when i reached home, my body is damned tired n aching (played badminton b4 mahjong). Lying on my comfy bed n again i am thinking things again .. yah mahjong! i'm thinking of strategy like "shi san yao" how to be formed ( i almost had it yesterday) then think of econs project which i am meeting ah cat soon .. thinking of dragon fruit (it's just comfy to have him ard ...) blah blah blah .. kept on thinking ... perhaps that explained why i am always lack of sleep n dark eye rings ..
yourstruly crapped @ Saturday, February 18, 2006
Guess wat... after so long .. this is my 2nd time seeing weijian online after the project superstar. Haha~ n just before that i was thinking when will this guy actually be online again.. cas after the competition he has been so famous n always having fans chasing after him. Hmmm anyway didn't tok lar .. heee i was buzy watching my POT. But i think my eyes really need some rest so gonna sleep early tonite.
They were saying MOS tomorrow nite .. wonder if it's confirm anot. But anyway it will be a buzy weekend again.
Dragon fruit is not online =(
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, February 16, 2006
Was glad that i went K with shifu, car n lau pa (hanquan). Yupz, really dun feel like going initially cos' MIS tutorial 2 not yet done. But after much persuasion from the three of them, haha at last i decided to join them.
Well~ i'm really not in the mood of singing so.. haha .. i made them to sing wat i feel like listening. They are just like "radio" lor .. every songs also know how to sing. Hmmm ... "hey you! jiu shi ni ... " duh .. this song has been rumbling in my head for a day!!!
Wondering wat is dragon fruit doing now .. hmmm ... back to my POT!
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, February 15, 2006
I am thinking him
My heart is closing its doors for him
but I think I would like to have him
Sigh~ confuse. Or rather i am just finding stuff to keep me occupied? Neh ... why is love so bitter when it comes to me and when people are getting "diabetics" from it?
Dragon fruit is cute .. getting to like him more .. Piggy is Mr Nice Man (hao hao xian shen - that's what they call him) and Mum kept asking why i dun want him ... but Starfruit is the one where my sweetest Memories buried with. I know it has past so long and why am i still pondering over it. I really hope i am able to just let go n stop "letting the scenes rewinding in my head" but they are all sweet memories. Perhaps these "sweet memories" had indirectly setup a benchmark in my choices of guys unknowingly. These "sweet memories" is even sweeter than fairy tales. These "sweet memories" is just too good to be true and i believe no other gals went thru those that is comparison to mine. Yah it sound exaggerated but it's true.
No other guys i've known of actually do such sweet things to their gf like wat he had done for me. Yup no one.
I dunno wat is bothering me ... i just want to faster finish my degree ... it's not that i dun like to study .. just one load off so that i can concentrate on other things in life .. u noe .. it's hirechy of life. Gonna move on to the next stage .. i.e. love & security.
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, February 13, 2006
Another nite of mahjong game but this time is at Andy's place instead. Car hasn't recover from her flu.
Yupz, finally got to play badminton, after waiting for so long. Yeah~ but too bad it only lasted for an hour. Shi fu bluffed me - say what he doesn't noe how to play. Dommed! He is good lor ... at least better than me! Hmph~
Haha~ what's new for mahjong? Hek hek hek ah boon the best lar. Always got big cards. anyway i think i am getting a hand of it, but shi fu insist me not to play next time - ask me to sit down n take down notes instead =(. Who say guys aren't naggy???
Oh man~ the theme song of "xiao hai bu ben" - "i not stupid too" is sang by JUNYANG! haha ... we were thinking that it might by JJ. Hehee .. looks like he is really doing well~ Gambatez JY! Can't wait for his album to be out soon ... oh yah of cas Weijian's one too .. though i dun buy albums - plueese .. how many still buy these days rite. But i will support my dearie friend - wj .. so definitely will buy. Hmm~ still thinking to get Weilian's album anot. It really sounds not bad but i dun wan those "fan-chang" songs leh ... those songs that was initially sang by others. Haha~ of cas will buy JY's!!!
So V-day is coming ... yesh it's coming .. finally leh .. nope .. not having a date buy at least a break from work. Finally get to go to course yeah.
Oh yah, talking about V-day. Ah boon was saying that he hasn't order flowers for his gf yet. He is really a sweet bf. He is intending to order the flowers and send it to his gal's office. Well~ i do agree with him that there is no point sending the flowers to the gal's house when there's no one there to envy her. Though, it is wat from the hearts that is important. Hmmm
yourstruly crapped @ Saturday, February 11, 2006
CNY seems to be passing very quickly. I have yet gotten any rest since the 1st day of CNY. I getting lethargic easily. Sigh ~ something which i really opt not to say ... perhaps cont'd my pills will also improve my attention span, like wat the sensei told me the other time. My illness will cause me to fall tired easier than normal person. Hmmm ..
Anyway, at least i think i am not as "blur" compared to last term. Hek hek hek, had written down all the impt dates on my date book. Yupz.
So, V-day is next tues huh. Hmmm to be frank i have not celebrate V-day before or rather a decent one with my bf. Haha~ oki that's provided i have one lar. duh~ Looks like my plan wld be go straight home after my course on tues. Yah, better avoid the crowds yeah ..
Oki oki .. just wanna post this pic up. Vonny drew me again .. yupz n i am proud to show this pic .. cas i colored it! yeah~ heee ..
Okie .. shall wash up now and cont'd my "prince of tennis" .. wee .. anime characters always so good looking .. sigh~
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Hiak! I'm officially a mahjong player now! haha~ Had an intensive mahjong training game with car, andy n shifu yesterday. N we played from ard 10+pm to almost 7am in the morning! ... Instead i get more awake each round the game passes. Haha~ Looks like i am addicted to mahjong now. Hooohooo ... We had Mac breakfast n parted ..
Had read some of my friend's blog. Hmmm~ looks like relationship is the topic again - yah it's a never ending topic to discuss. Quality vs Quatity of time spent in a relationship. Hmph~ definitely i'll choose Quality. The time spent together may be short, however, it is important to treasure every second spent together with that special someone. Cause u will noe when this person will leave you. Hmm yah .. so wat if u see each other everyday n yet quarelling? Wat's the point of it if u both dun treasure the time spent together .. duh ..
Well~ had a little debate with shifu on the phone yesterday afternoon, so he was toking about a gal being independence in a relationship. This is yet another issue brought up several times in a r/s i guess. He was telling me that he wouldn't like it if his gf changed to be too submissive towards him, i.e. the gal choose to stop going out with her grp of friends when she is in the r/s with him. Question? Seriously, i dunch really understand wat guys are really thinking about. It's as if we are really stop seeing our friends? U think so. Well~ we may seem that we are always sticking with u, trying to plan a meet up with u n everything. Instead of seeing us as a sticky doll, can't u see the amount of effort we put in to show that We WANT U! We Need U! It is definitely not true that we are giving up our friendships with our fellow mates. Seeing of u is never enough. We aren't like u guys .. dunch u understand. We value the time we spent n we want more (yesh we are greedy, but the fault lies in you - being so irresistable)!!! Duh~ mada mada dane!
We planned our time k ... dun forget that gals are good at multi-tasking. It may seems to u guys that we aren't spending enough time with our friends but the truth is we are closer than u think. We will always priotise the weekend for our boyfriends becas it is the only time when we feel relax, tugging ourselves in your comfy arms. Yesh, most gals do that, weekend is reserved for boyfriend so as we gals knew this basic rule, we planned our ladies outing during the weekdays ... so why guys still say we aren't independent enough??? Define please ..
Mada mada dane.
yourstruly crapped @ Saturday, February 04, 2006
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