Yupz, NRA finally got out 1st championship in the funkamania!!! So proud of u guys, so proud of being part of NRA ~ i'm so touched!!!
Well~ still relaxing during these past days, enjoying my break. Yesterday went to mich's 21st bday. then on fri went to edwin kor kor's gf 21st (my cousin's gf bday). Yeah~ so happy, finally manage to learn abit of majong during weini's bdae (my cousin's gf). Haha~ hmm it's nt that difficult after all, just need to really think n plot.
Did nothing much this weekend ... just relaxing n relaxing to get a peace of mind, doing some reflections of 2004. Finally, i've step into 2005 n i'm so glad abt it. There's too many things happened in 2004 which i dun wanna to be reminded off, if only i can wash away the memories of 2004... sigh~ be it the happy or sad times .. i want all to be wash away ...
sigh~ i'm getting sick of living already, why am i so afraid of life now? is age catching with me? sigh~ the determined. confident, bubbly, playful hx is lost n will nv be back ~
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, January 31, 2005
Finally... finally ... finally ... my short break is here. 28th n 31st jan is my leave day. Need to get some break before going back for sales again. Not planning to go anywhere, just wanna get some break from wat i've been doing n do some reflections. wo zhen de hen lei le ...
Last weekend, went to m'sia (patuk pahak) for some temple visit. Dunno wat inspires me to tag along with my nanny's daughter ... so my 1st visit was to the Tua Pek Gong Temple, did some praying then went for some funtune telling. Actually, it's much more of asking advice in life. I was nv keen in such thing nor do i believe in it, until this very day, it makes my doubt my beliefs n thoughts.
The funtune teller of Tua Pek Gong, 1st advice to me was to let go of everything/relationship. He said,"wat has past has past, stop thinking abt it" N mind u, he told me all these without even read my palm's line nor did i choose any pocker cards. He gave me many advices n keep biding round the circle, asking me to let go ... i dun believe it ... i cried~ i was kinda shock, he knew everything, he knew my thoughts, my burndens, wat i've gone thru ... it's just soooo unbelievable ...
Next, we moved on to the Tong Zi temple. Again, seeking for advice. I got my 2nd lecturing here. Tong Zi, again advice me to let go~ dun think abt it anymore. He lectured me on my temper - my short temper n stubborness ... which is the main cause of my previous relationship... he then went into details to me as in how it all started n ended ... he is telling me more than what i noe (some things which i hide myself into n does nt want to believe in it) but he is telling me ...
Sigh~ i just want to lead a simple life ... love n to be love ...
yourstruly crapped @ Friday, January 28, 2005
Another week has finally past .. i'm looking forward for the day, the day when i can go back to sch to start studying again!!!
This is a real challenging week! Everyone in Dual is fighting for Champion. All our sales were so close. Besides, our top sales queen, Serene has went on leave *tsk**tsk* .. so everyone has the equal chance to be the Champion. Hur hur hur ... my sales no is there, but my amts is always so small as compared to the rest. Nvm, this coming week will be better!!! yeah~ it's prorated week, so gonna work extra hard. Hmmm, gonna work harder for this last few mths of my stay here, earn more b4 i go... keke
Oh yah yah, my junior from my Sec sch CCA - jenalyn, will be working in citibank too!!! so excited!! but she is nt in my team, she's in Dual 2. Hmmm.. but we are still in the same room.. haha who noes.. maybe she will sit opp me .. yeah~ so happy to meet old friends ..
Yupz, this coming Sat 22nd Jan, i'll be going m'sia for a one day tour .. hmm go temple n pray, hope my sales will go
high high high into the skyyyyyyyy .. haha
Chinese new year is ard the corner, but somehow i dun feel the atmosphere, the joy of it anymore.. i'm lonely, bored, "faking to be happy" .. i dunno who i am anymore, sigh~ i want to gain back the happiness i used to have ... so i hope the new lunar yr will be a better one for me .. smooth journey in watever i do ... hopefully i will be less stubborn this coming new year, yeah~
Yeah yeah, i love today Nur D D dance class .. cool .. love it love it love it ...
Yupz, after SW, i went Amore to meet ah ling for hip hop B!!! Gosh~ guess wat??? It's ishi~~ yeah baby .. haha he's still so cute ... but ah ling make a comment that he look like BJ .. hmm "is that the reason u find him cute?" she asked. Well~ she is nt the 1st person who ask me that ... yah ..
Yun today kinda indirectly asking me abt BJ still in my heart ... well~ no comments abt this ... totally forget? neh ... still love him - i dunno ... thinking of him - kinda ... who i like now - nobody ...
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, January 17, 2005
Woooo ~ 1st week of this new year, gonna pass.
5th Jan '05
Yesh~ i finally get my application done for UWA. I got to wait for ard 3-4wks to get the response from there - they are having their sch holidays now. Yupz, and after the registration, i rushed back to NP!!! Yeah~ finally i got the chance to go back to dance. I miss ann's class. Haha, the juniors were all shock to see me back together with small jon. Haha, we were like SURPRISE ... haha from a far, they were like "who are those aliens walking towards us" haha ... i miss these babies so much~ Yeah~ my lau gong wang qin say i had slim down. Allegra also make comments saying i face isn't as round ... yesh~ i've done it ... so happy, gonna work hard for that. hur hur hur ...
7th Jan ' 05
We celebrated Dennis bdae (actual day is on the 9th jan). We went for porridge buffet at suntec. Yum yum, haven't been there for a long time. Haha~ Yeah. We got Dennis a Creative slim 256mb MP3 player!!! The most expensive pressive ever gave huh. Haha.
I'm so proud of myself. haha though it's nt totaly my credit. Melissa n tracy did a part too. Didn't noe Mel actually agree with my suggestiion so easily. Keke~ i was just suggesting to get Den a MP 3 player, since he was eyeing for one for so long... (u noe we both had been accompanying him ard looking for a MP3 player like mths) So get Mel to gather pple to chip in money, including pple like lenz, donald, alv, leon, myron, even our dive instructor luk, n definitely DUAL 1... haha.
Well~ Den cannot believe wat he saw in his eyes. A MP3 PLAYER!!! haha, he still tot some kinki stuff. The nite before we went to get his pressie, we were telling him we are going to get some bras n panties so we dun wan him to follow us ... ta-da he did nt stay for OT. So we set out for our mission. Called him during the purchase, getting him to choose A or B n wat color he likes .. blue or black. Haha n he tot we getting him something kinki n he asked Mel " for top or bottom" ... omg~ wat is he thinking .. haha
In the morning, i quickly placed the wrapped pressie on his table before he came, n start passing ard the bdae card for pple to write. I was telling him he will love the pressie, then Michelle add on saying " it's blue in color' .. haha "with some laces ... nice metallic blue ..." haha .. he was so curious that he open the pressie on the spot ... Gosh~ look at his shock face .. nv did he expect we are giving him a MP3 player .. he was thinking some normal pressie guys offen receive .. either a shirt or pants or some other thingys ...
Yeah MISSION WELL DONE ... good job!!!
Now gonna think of wat to give for Zann's bdae ... cracking my brain ... and also farewell gift to stacia n caleb ... hmmm
8th Jan '05
Hmm, well my sales aren't good this wk, sigh~
Haha, so today, i had the urge to go temple n pai pai (keke ~ so nt me huh). Yupz, so early in the morning, 1st thing is to get stacia to accompany me to go temple to pai pai (pray) for our sales.
GooooosHhh ~ can't believe wat i've done today. haha, i went to get a mp 3 player for my brother. Yupz, 'cas he was complaining of his long journey to be boring n lonely, so got him a mp3 player to accompany thru' the journey. haha, can't believe it rite? i'm such a nice little sister. Well~ didn't feel any pinch in my pocket infact, haha ... instead felt kinda happy. More blessed to give then to receive? Well~ he's my brother afterall rite.
So happy for the NRA. All three grps got into the finals of funkamania. Congrats to all. But sadly, i didn't manage to catch them shaking on stage today - got OT lar, sianz. Early in the morning at work, that dog start barking his way into the room again. Sick of this.
On the 22nd, i'll be going for a 1 day tour to m'sia with ah kee jie jie (my nanny's daughter) .. so happy ... so long nv go oversea le, haha... i love travelling ...
Looking forward to tmr for the next yoga class ...
Below are some little sara's pic (
ah kee iie jie's princess)
Isn't she adorable?
yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, January 09, 2005
it's the 2nd day of a brand new yr ... well~ nothing much changes .. life still carries on .. sigh~ keke .. think i was just being too emotional yesterday from my hang over .. hmmm no wander pple say drinking will only make u even more sobber .. now i understand .. but but .. i prefer to be drunk at least for a few hrs .. at least i'll be able to be unconcious for a moment of time n be more carefree ... no worries .. hur hur hur
Oooh ... finally get back to dance today ... yeah~ i love it when there's lesser pple in the class .. but but that cute guy isn't here today .. hmmm only saw him once .. keke .. i feel so lousy in class today, pple all so muscular .. energy like free one .. hai~ me still the smallest in class .. keke .. yeah yeah i love Nur D D class .. with losta rippers huh .. keke .. yeah i want more floor works also ..
Today, went to withdraw money for my parents .. hmm then pay all the utilities (mobile bills, utilities, housing tax, tv tax .. etc) aiyo so many to pay ... now i understand why mummy always say watever we gve her is nt enuff .. hmm .. just paid the rest of my family bills it already sum up to $600 ++ .. this is excluding of wat i paid ... my phone bill, internet n newpaper bill .. already cost me abt $160? hmm .. high expenses ah .. hur hur hur
Yupz, it was my 1st yoga class today ... cool~ feel so relax after that. it really helps u to feel better .. both mentally n physically .. is like so miracle ... after the class i feel so much loosen up n feel better as a person .. yupz definitely will contd to go for yoga ... n wait till my tear on my right thigh muscles get better then i can train on my flexiblity .. keke ..
tmr monday again .. so new yr new mth new target ...
my new year resolutions is to be/have _______ in life
- Happiness 幸福
- Joy 快乐
- Peace 平安
- Stronger 勇敢, 坚强
Wat i wanna achieve for:
- Degree holder
- Slimmer
- To be more groovy, better dancer, to have a dance grp, join dance competitions
- Prettier, cuter, sweeter, charmer ... etc keke oh yah also taller!!!
Wat i want to buy:
- Levis jeans
- Heels
- Track pants, sports bra, Track shoes
- Digic Cam
& lastly .. let there be WORD PEACE! ... lesser riots, war, disasters -- all these are too scary
** if u guys wanna get me any of the item ... hmm i dun mind de ... keke **
gina's bdae ... me, geri, gin, rasidah, mich, yas, bi
X'mas card from my TL .. peggy ...
X-change with my colleagues .. n i got a winnie-the-pooh mug!! so happy .. my favourite disney character ...
x'mas card from stacia ... so sweet of her ...
little gift from .. mr elvis chua .. so sweet of him ...
finally ... my favourite gift of the yr ... from my angel MELLISA ... i love this ... it's so meaningful ...
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, January 03, 2005
010105, i cried again.
Never did i expect myself to cry again. Why am i having these thoughts again n again. I shld be happy that a new year had arrived. Sigh~ i'm just lonely, not getting use to this new chapter of my life.
My dance friends had gathering, but again they had left me out. WHY? again n again they leave me out after that incident. Sigh~ i miss all those gatherings, i miss those funs we had together -- perhaps is becas i had nt been going back for dance, n the drift become further. Sigh~ but who wld like to lead a life like me, working whole day long? NO I DUN!!! SERIOUSLY I HATE THIS JOB!!! I HAD NO LIFE AT ALL!!! I CAN'T ENJOY LIKE MY FRIENDS!!!
Last nite, met up with kath, her bf n another couple, n cindy (kath's cousin). Hmmm, it was quite alrite, dun really feel that left out, though they were like couple couple. But still, i really do hope he is here with me like in 2003.
All of a sudden, i feel like moving out of singapore, go oversea n further my studies, let me get out this place at least for a yr or two. To avoid things which will remind me of him.
I'm such a cry baby .... ...
I'll be 21 this yr ... but will i be able to get to celebrate my big day with a special guy of mine? Hmmm, 11 mths for me hunt for this guy ...
yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, January 02, 2005
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