Oh mine! Oh mine! ... I am having a Korean Lecturer for International Trade! Gosh~ this is sooooo coool~
Last term we have one from india n another from china ... the previous term we had both from aussie!
So cool~ I'm looking forward to my next lecture!!! which is tomorrow! .. really!!! I jolt down lots of notes this time! ... Hopefully able to get a D for this unit .. yah~ n pray hard they will not be practicing risk scaling on us!
Haha a candid shot!!! See he is so cool n serious during break time! .. gosh~
yourstruly crapped @ Friday, September 30, 2005
Yuppie~ Exam is finally over! Well~ still not too bad, though i was kinda last min in my revision. Yah~ as usual lots of grumbles from me. Have been very grummy for the past weeks. Keke~ vonny had been bearing with me for last week. Haha~ same for piggy..
Papers were not too bad. Really gotta thankx Boon. Adrian n Jason man! .. Haha~ if not for Adrian shi fu nagging at me to do my tutorial worksheet 3, i would not have practive on binomial. Yah~ n definitely got to thankx boon for teaching me wat's all abt the byer's theorem on the very last min .. if not i really dunno when to apply the theory! Oh yah n definitely Jason for teaching us during grp discussion.
Hmm .. On Sunday managed to find an excuse to go out! Haha~ told piggy that i gonna get some stationery so i can pass him kimage card. But ended up accompany him to cut hair when i'm suppose to go home after my purchase. Yeah~ bleah .. Piggy really look great after the hair cut!!! n like i told him maybe it will sweep away all bad lucks! Yeah~ n guess wat Giodano had called him n express interest in sponsoring him n best of all was that he didn't even contact them!!! Haha~ so those who are facing difficulties ah .. maybe try cutting away ur hair! keke
Finally got to do some paid OT. Yah~ those this paid OT thingy had been commence for quite some time, but because of my exam i didn't do it. So for yesterday n today i have work 12hrs each.. it wasn't that tough lar.
Hmm .. Tmr will be Fracine last day. Sigh~ my buddy gone. After tmr, dunno who to consult abt my cases le. Sigh~ Jean .. hmmm she is still considering .. shelby confirm leaving in 2wks time .. sigh~ then my team will be left with Nur Engracia n myself. This is sad~
1st bloggers are being arrested for commenting on race in their blog. N now students are suspended from sch becas of their negative comments on their teacher ... This is really ironic, isn't it? Well~ are pple being praised for commenting on the positive words they had put in their blog? Did the teachers actually praise the students from commenting nice things abt them .. or even say a Thank you???
Wat has the world become man? Pple are just basically practicing on selective memory. Basically they let those negative comments to affect n provoke themselves. However, those positive comments only last for a few seconds. N i wonder do this pple actually thought of thanking their students when rec'd good comments???
Why not just make use of this comment to improve oneself? Pple nowadays ... sigh~ has forgotten the teachings of our forefathers ... aren't we thought in school to accept comment generously .. n to learn from feedbacks from others???
Well~ anyway .. some pictures taken during our SP fire drill yesterday ...
SP staffs gathering at the field at Somerset MRT Station
haha .. taking photo during the assemble .. (Idah, Nur , Francine, me, Jean n Vonny )
A little bookmark made for piggy~ keke .. nice hor???
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, September 29, 2005
I'm tired! I'm sleepy! I need a break from everything!
I feel that i will break down any moment.
Sigh~
Boss still have not approve my leave for Fri n Monday despite the fact i showed him my exam schedule. This is sick.
I dreamt that i'm flying. Really~ i am flying happily. I just float in the air ... flying through the woods. N yun is my senior. She taught me how to fly properly n trained my stamina. I feel so light in the dream. I
Then i told vonny abt my dream. She gave me a serious look. She said i am too stress and ask if i have any toughts of suciding. Duh~ definitely not. She said i'm seeking "lavana" - jiu gao jing jie. Really i'm too stress. I just want a break from everything. I want to leave this country n relax. I need the sea. I want to shout out loud.
Hai~
Piggy sponsorship planning wasn't going very well. Both Topshop n Levis had rejected his proposal. Hmmm hope he will be able to work a way out. He's been working so hard in it. I have confidence in him. He will be able to suceed in one way or another. But can't blame the companies too. I'm mean this is a close door event, which is just for NTU. However if the case is to something that is more open n able to gain free publication, i believe the companies will be more than willing to sponsor.
Well~ basically i bought 2 pairs of earings n a bag - yah to destress. I am always spending $$ when i'm stress. Keke~ that's Retail Terapy - like wat vonny said. Felt much better after these impulse buying.
Sigh~ gotta buck up for my studies. My eyes really buffy now. My head is spinning n i feel light .. my body seems to be floating as i walk. This is definitely not in my dream.
Anyway, piggy gonna get a new hairstyle. Haha ~ must be nagged by senior. Well~ i wonder how he will look like in his new hairstyle. Wonder wat style is he looking into. Haha ~ maybe cut his hair will shove off those bad lucks n he will be able to get his sponsorship thingy done in no time. It's just another week time to Oct n that's his deadline.
Yupz ... this friday might be going to ah kee jie jie's house to stay overnite. Since she has a study room n ask me to go over to revise. At least i won't get that destracted over there n still can sleep with little sara. yeah ...
Oh yah ~ not forgetting to blog about my sat! I went study with my classmates. Yah~ Not too bad at least manage to understand something. Haha~ but somehow all of us gave up trying to solve a couple of questions. Yeah~ we really dun understand those questions though.
After that, went to meet NRA peeps to watch the final of the Suntec Dance. This year was much better than last yr. Especially in the solo cat both open n below 12. Woah~ the kids are really great. Look at how li' Kimberly shake her butt!!! n li' Shareen do his moonwalk!!! Gosh~ they are really good n potential. The open was good too. At least this year not that crappy huh.
Well~ the Grp cat was fantastic too. NRA Lush was hot!!! Gosh~ look at those sexy legs. Yupz n SW also sent a team. OMG .. Daniel was in the grp too.. basically i recognise 3 instructors from SW in that grp. Haha~
Not Forgeting to congras Allegra who will be getting her show soon.
Some pics of me n little sara ...
My sleep eyeeees ... n cutie sara
Man~ i m fat!!! ... sweetie sara
li' Sara making funnie face
Angel!!! yeah~ it's been almost a yr i have not see her
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, September 22, 2005
Arghh~ 1 more week to exam.
Wee~ got nice food to eat today!!! Yeah~ ICE CREAM!!! Yum yum. Keke ... n choco foteu ... so nice ... n cosy environment! Thankx to senior yah .. ha ha we managed to find the place ... xie xie ni ...
Yah ... thankx guys for those encouragement words ...
Then as for today onwards .. gotta work on my studies .. one more week to go only .. jia you jia you ...
But gonna finish reading my shopacholic 1st ...
yourstruly crapped @ Saturday, September 17, 2005
It's the last day of our Group Effectiveness course, well not too bad. Ha~ my main purpose is to go there to day dream n relax n definitely to escape from cases. Arghh~ tmr gonna go back to work. Oh man~ n there's counter duty.
Anyway, took some pics with vonny during the course, ta da ~ take a look yah...
say cheese~ .. ha ha notti us not listening ... look we are wearing the same top !!!
Haha~ look wat vonny is doing??? thinking of her *biscuit*
yup yup ... they are having some negotiations while we both happily taking pic
Outside of our training room .. ke ke ke
alright ... gonna class .. ciao
yourstruly crapped @ Friday, September 16, 2005
Yuppie, tomorrow will be going on course! Yeah~ that's the best part of it. Definitely i can daydream during the training tomorrow! Yeah baby~ wee
Oh yah, vonny say gonna bring me makan porridge tmr!!! Haha~ with her will nv get fat! Ke ke always Weight Cautions! Hmph! Arghhh~ Senior said i look chubbier now! Not to deny the fact, this is really bothering me! I want to loose weight. I want to loose these extra pounds off me. Hmph~ anyone got good idea, tag on my blog k. Ke ke
Sigh~ anyway just got back my Decision Making results. Ewww this is sucks! Guess wat 26 pple out of 59 peeps failed both paper 1 n 2!!! Gosh~ this is scary. Well~ as for myself, ha ha i am on the line hur. Really on the line. Better buck up for my final. Hmm Promo still the best. Keke Better keep up on my promo n get a D for it! Go baby Go for it!
So rite now, gotta get a rest before start revising on my work. I am all drained out from work. Really~ i cleared 2 1/2 cases today! This is killing me!!!!
Helpppppp ....
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Monday monday blues~
1st thing to do when reach office is to check my email ~ yeah man ... flooded with emails. Then had a meeting with our AM regards on our unhappiness on the unfair treatment we are getting as a corres staff apart from the counter staff. Yah yah yah, bombarded him with stuff. But i was too lazy to give my comments. Duh~ this guy just dun understand it ... kept saying that he n the management will be looking into the case but that's not an answer we want... dun he get it? Looking into the matter is diff from Getting something done on the matter. But heck lar .. i wasn't paying much attention in the meeting though. My stomach was so hungry ...
Har~ stupid me, forget got counter duty today. Anyway, serve the counter for most of the time - as usual. Yeah~ then met this funnie customer. Duh~ after serving him .. he came to salute to me!!! haha so funnie, then said sorrie to me cas he was loud to me just now. Yah man~ anyhow raise his voice, as if i owe him $$. Haha anyway, was a funnie customer.
Hmmm.. yipee helped Piggy to get the marcom number of wingtai, just hope they manage to get the sponorship from Topshop. Yeah~ Piggy jia you! They really put in alot of effort!
Oh yah, then reached home switched on msn, guess wat!!! Senior is online .. finally got to tok to her.. we haven't been chatting much since n finally got to catch up with her for at least a while. Kee we are gals after all rite? Yah~ Hmph! She say i'm chubby!!! Hmmm i dun deny i really am! But i think i at least lost some weight as comapared to earlier this yr ... I was like er can't even fit into Levis jeans size 27 lor, then after much endurance of dieting (having salad everyday with mel during those ctb's days) ... i finally maange to slim down after a mth n got myself into size 25!!! ke ke .. since senior like that say .. think i gonna go on diet even more le .. anyway my digestion isn't very good ... wat's more .. i'm gonna stop my pills soon ... OCt will be going for my check up .. hope everything will be fine .. yah~ must stay happy then illness will go away..
ke ke .. ~ had fun chat with senior .. ke ke she really make my day .. though it's nite already .. ha ha ..
Oh yah .. was walking to the MRT station with vonny after our OT n it was rainy heavily ... gosh~ i nv knew i was actully scared of lightning! Duh~ i mean i am living this past 20 yrs of my life n i dun remember i was scared of lightning ... anyway both of us were having our hands covering our ear as we walk towards the station .. ha ha so funnie ... kinda embarrass though but i think i gave out a few short scream when i see the lightning too .. ke ke ..
Alright ~ i promise i will be good .. n i will be .. gonna start my revision for promo today .. so meanwhile shall wait for piggy's daily sms ..
*smile*
yourstruly crapped @ Tuesday, September 13, 2005
IT's Sunday, n Guess wat ... finally got a chance to stay at home!!! No one's birthday ... yeah finally .. but sigh~ next week got to attend another n go ah kee jie jie 's new house for moon cake festival... hmm i miss li' Sara ... yeah
Alright~ went for Nur's class today, oh yah finally got to attend her class huh... it's like always i go shc's not teaching n relieved by another instructor. Er not saying others not good but i prefer Nur, she really liven up the class, yeah.
Hmmm ... 2nd day of the 2mths ... yah rec'd his msg last nite .. yah whenever my phone start ringing really bring me joy! but somehow when it appears it's not him .. arhhhh i just heck any replies .. OK i was bad .. i noe .. N finally at 9.28pm! I knew it will be him! I knew it, n ta-da ~ it's finally his sms .. hmm yah he's being bz with unions .. alright i understand how bz he can be .. hmmm i was once in a committee too hur hur hur .. but having meeting doesn't mean u can't enjoy .. ha ha well~ esp me who always go out of point .... ke ke ke so i hope the meetings did bring him some laughters! Yah ... n hopefully the sponsorship is going smoothly .. yah
Hmmm but he nv reply me after i replied him .. anyway kinda expected yeah .. dunch wanna ask too much .. can't be too demanding rite?
But this really bothers me though .. i feel that he is being forced to send me an sms everyday .. but sigh~ i dun wanna ask him to stop too .. i mean since he suggested this .. just let it be .. but still ... i'm feeling akward abt it .. hai~ he's not even my bf n yet doing such thing ...
Hmmm yupz i'm still waiting for my phone to peep ... hmmm waiting waiting waiting ... i wonder .. are we going to carry on this way till the 2mths dateline? When am i able to see u again? When? When? When? Ask him out? Neh ... i dun dare to .. seeing so shag on Friday .. i rather him to stay at home n get more rest .. sigh~ this guy always pushing himself so hard .. it's not easy to ask him to stop n get some life! He just love getting stress .. yeah like wat he used to say ...
Just read thru' wat senior sent me the last time when we just broke up .. yah .. if only it's 4mths back .. sigh~ there's so many things i wanted him to noe ... i nv forget u .. the feelings is always there .. but i nv have the courage to face u all again .. i dun wan to see u hurt again .. i was then still confuse .. but i really regret abt the break up .. the feelings was so true after that .. i realise how hurt i was when i lose u .. n like wat senior said .. i decided to throw u away .. sigh~ i was hoping u will initate the patch or anyting .. but perhaps u are hoping i better off without u .. but nv am i .. i've been waiting each passing day ... until ur birthday .. i realise i really miss u alot alot ... i tot i may be able to hug u ... but nv .. we become so stranger on that nite of ur birthday .. did not tok much or anythign .. tot u will ask me to stay awhile n tok when we walking to get a taxi so that i can go home ... but we just parted within 5 mins of seeing u ... anyway .. i hope u will really get some sleep .. stop pushing urself so hard ... hai~ i noe there's no point writing so much here ... cas u'll nv read my blog .. like wat u had said before .. " i dun believe that i need to read ur blog in order to noe u better" but piggy ... i want u to noe .. i wan u to noe that i'm not someone who can just tok out everything to u ... i can only express better thru writing ... piggy ... i miss u ...
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, September 12, 2005
My 2 days course for Personal Effectiveness had finally end. Well~ it's really a Great course! The trainer really reads alot n i believe i learnt quite alot from him. He really can read one's character n personality just starring into our eyes. He was so rite abt me. Hur hur hur ... N as usual we did our self test, n guess wat i think i have changed quite alot compared to last time. I used to like taking leadership roles leading the pple, n i value responsibilities greatly, but like wat Zai had said, i am someone who dislikes given responsibilities. And i think he is really rite. Loving responsibilties was my past, n i kept asking why am i becoming so slack now, So i finally noe the ans, I dun like to be reponsible anymore! I m who i am now, the times had changed n i am not who i used to be. But i believe slowly i will gain back the "responsible me" ha ha ha ... rite now back to Maslow Hirechy of Need's i m still in search of my social needs ... ke ke ke
He said, there is nothing impossible - I M Possible... n he reminded me of that. Suddenly, i feel my esteem is coming back to me. I feel that i am regaining my "power". I will be GREAT n i knew it. He also said that if u think it is not possible then it will nv be possible, but if u think it is possible n u can do it, u CAN do it. N there's nothing as "i will try" but only "i can" or "i cannot" .. so which one?
Hmmm, gonna thankx Zai for teaching me all these again. I think i will start reading up those books which he recommended..
After chatting with Lynette on thurs nite, i finally find some encouragement to ask him out. But again i still not sure abt tht. But during Zai class, after he said "I M Possible" .. ha ha that build up my courage within n decided to sms him. N guess wat??? He agree!!!
Gosh~ this is exciting huh. The clock goes tick tick tick, n my heart beat races .. Suddenly, i feel like drawing back. I wanted to cancel the date. Arghh, but i keep thinking of watever Zai had said, so i decided, since i've already taken the 1st move why wanted to draw back. N i cont'd to step forward each time n slowly i will reach my destination.
Finally i got to meet him at ard 7pm, yeah he's late for an hr. Gosh~ but i'm cool abt it. Haha~ not angry at all, kinda unlike me. Anyway, we ate at Cartel after walking ard Marina Square for quite some time. Haha n i met Elvis there. Yah ... so we share our food. He got no appetite to eat, hmm bothering by his sch stuff. He ordered Softshell crab, prawn n fries set, while me ordered Ice cream waffle n Oreo Cheese cake. .. yum yum .. ke ke .. but i can't eat much, my gastric is acting up again, just force the food down lar.
After eating, we went down to explanade to chill up. Sat by the side ... facing the sea (or rather river). Enjoying to the breese blowing into my face. But i dare not to tok ... i just wan to enjoy this moment with him - having him by my side.
Sheeesh, i've planned for so much to say. But my mind is blank, i dunno wat to tok abt. Haha so just started some small tok ... the water - high tide low tide .. the boats the sky (no stars ... gonna rain) .. pple carrying lanterns .. haha
Suddenly he asked, " why? anything wrong? u look moody.." Opps, sucks i gave myself away. Arghh~ so i just kept quiet. hmmm silence for a moment. N i cont'd my deep blue see toks .. duh
Then we talk abt senior for a while ... n stop .. i cont'd facing the river looking at the by passing boats. He asked, " u got something to tell me?" ... *silence* i dunno how to speak for a sudden. I dunno how to start. But i noe he knew though Senior nv say anything. I know he noes wat i'm thinking. I just know ...
He held my fingers n i hold on his tightly .. i dun want to let go of them again ... slowly i ly down on him.. n *smile* he hug me from behind. Yesh .. this is the feeling i long for.. i want to stay there, the time will u ever stop for me? Sigh~ he ask me again wat i wanted to tell him .. i just can't get the words out properly. I turned n hug him ... he smells nice .. i always love his perfume but nv did i tell him.
Slowly i get the words out " I miss u ..."
He start toking, he told me things had changed, many things had changed. From the time i walk out, then the major blow in his life .. his granny had left him. Yesh i totally understand how it felt when ur dearest person had left u. It reminds me of my nanny .. i miss her .. she left me when i was 13 .. though i was still young but her departure is still fresh in my head ... so i just lie on him n listen to him toking ...
He ask me to give him .. 2 mths .. he need to sort things out .. finally i manage to clear the air .. looking at his schedule .. i understand how bz he is .. n i dun wanted to push him either .. he is unsure of his feelings now .. his dearest granny left him n his perception of life had changed ... i can see .. he is not as crappy as wat he used to be .. he is more serious in everything now ( not saying that he was not seiours last time) just that he is much more serious ..
Yah .. 2 mths .. he wanted me to promise him that i will be strong if the outcome is negative .. this worry me even more .. i wanted to stay put on where we are now .. i dun want to move on .. i dun dare to face the ans ..
But time is cruel to us ... it's chasing us home .. He needs to get home early to finish up his proposal which went wrong at the last min .. seesh .. we got on to the bus .. n i think i m really tired...
So he walk me to the traffic light, n before i crossed the road, he said he will send me a sms of his life diary each day, it really brighten me up, i feel much better now. =) ke ke ... so before i crossed .. he kissed me twice .. yuppie!
I really hope everything will turn out well for him .. 7 examinable units .. wat's mine compared to his? coping with his sponosorship planning with the unions? ... I will be strong i promise ..
N i will awaits for ur daily smses ...
Thankx for accompanying me for the nite .. i miss u ... i promise this time is not an impulse .. i've thought thru it long before finding the courage to blog my feelings abt u ... before i manage to sms u ... before i maange to meet u again .. all these i have gave thorough tots n sleepless nite ...
Really ... i love ur kisses ... the feelings u gave me ... i nv felt so real in my life ... i will remember ur kisses .. i will remember wat u had said ..
Today is the 1st day of the 2 mths ... i have app. 59 more days to go ... i will wait ...
yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, September 11, 2005
Back from course - Personal Effectiveness
Well~ I would say the trainer is great, but with a student like me not paying attention at all will not show any effectiveness from the course.
My mind is drifting away, it's floating in the air.
Things in my mind:
- DM Project
- Promo Project
- CASES pending
- OVER DUE Cases!!!
- HIM
- HIM
- HIM
- MORE HIM
Arghhhh ... I want to get out of singapore, I want to leave this bloody place. I want to go to the beach!!! I need the sea. I need the Sun, the Wind blowing into my face, the air!!! the sandy beaches!
Gosh~ i can't be tramatised till this stage, can i?
I dun believe this is actually happening!!!
I was feeling so damn tired from my cramp n sick from my illness, n decided to go to bed early.
I tossed left n right, but somehow i can't find the right position at all. Lucky is by my side accomdating to my shifting position n kickings. Haha I still can't sleep!!! but i'm tired! My mind is full of him ... sucks* wth* finally i manage to sleep a little n stupid tots wake me up... duh i wake up to check my hp hoping there's a missed call or a msg left by him... then went back to bed n this cont'd thru out the nite!!! WTF i dun want this i dun it to happen!!! I want to sleep!!! But i can't, i keep waking up to check on my phone! N finally my mind give way n i can sleep but my clock rang! Gosh~ it's time to wake up n get ready ...
DUH!!!
Get prepared n switched on my com to print some notes, n ta-da!! GUest wat!!! Just when i log on, he logged on too!!! Cool~ but nv tok much again .. sianz ... how can he become so cold .. how can be behave so cool~ this is not him!!! I want the old eric back .. not wat version 3 or 4 ... or wat so ever ... u r u .. why keep changing .. ren shi hui pian na ... xin nen? xin ye gen zhe pian ma??? ni wei she men pian chen na mo wu qin????
Wo tao yan xian zai de ni!
yourstruly crapped @ Friday, September 09, 2005
Wasn't feeling good today. Got counter duty. Sigh~
I feel weak all over, my body aching and my hands n feet feel numb. My flu isn't any better. My mind is thinking of someone else. My heart is missing a bit. I dun feel good at all.
My gastric is still as bad. I still feel the cramp n the tension. Arghhh~ I feel like screaming. I want to cry out loud one more time. I want to say how much i miss you.
But, i can't find my courage. I dun dare to face you once again. I am afraid to hurt you again. I am such a coward. I am such a looser.
I am waiting. ... i am hoping ...
Where are u? Why are u drifting away from me since sch starts? Is sch really that bz till u can't even leave me an sms?
I miss chatting with you on the phone. I miss your cracky ideas.
I want you so much ... but i can only surpress my feelings.
Sigh~
I came upon Ariel's blog, n she wrote
'its just like in yr heart, u wanna drink.. peach tea. den u go to 7-11, u noe that peach tea is right there, yet, u'll hesitate, stop, see other choices like green tea, apple tea etc before making your decision to grab that bottle of peach tea.'
Gees, work is still sucky. My cases is forever piling up. When? When can i actually see it goes down? Like the others?
At least something to be proud of myself. Hur hur hur, i did my Promo slides. Hmph! I would say "2 thumbs up gal" haha, looks like shi fu also proud of me.
Alrighty, cont'd to read my shopaholic.
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, September 08, 2005
Senior Not angry ... senior not angry
Oh yah .. got another day of MC .. hai~ feel so weak when on the way to work .. then whole body feel so weak .. so decided to turn back n get another day of MC ..
Hmmm ... then finally one load off .. senior is not angry with me anymore ... perhaps this is wat she said only . hai~ but she sound so serious just now ..
follow my feelings --> advise from senior
hmmm .. but i feel negative of the outcome .. perhaps i think i should just note to do anything ... for the truth always hurt
Wee~ i'm getting the hand of using precision trees ... zheng chong min .. haha of cas with the guaidiance of my shi fu lar. .. that guy who got so many leave to claim .. duh ... haha .. shi fu .. thankx ah .. promo n dm kao ni le .. haha .. me n ah meow sick ... haha .. all becas need to protect YOU!!!
Hai~ my vision is not clear now ... need to rest my eyes le ...
Thankx senior ... =)
Gonna rest now ... later wake up n do promo ...
GAMBATE!!! ... Ah meow n shi fu ... we can do it de ...
Chiong ah ...
p/s: feeling siao .. haha
Hmmm ..
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Opps ... i think i catched a cold ...
My throat is sore now ..
Ouch~ i was having difficulties falling a sleep last nite. Erghhh gastric attack. Hai~ looks like i can't eat much these days, hmmm have a feeling that it was gastic flu ... dunch understand why i keep having gastric flu .. N the best part is i put my medicine in my office!!! n i can't find any pills to pop at home!! Arghhh ..so i woke up at abt 2plus am to boil water ... Glurp n drank down a glass of warm water ... still does not make it better .. but i'm too tired .. so i roll myself into a ball n try to sleep ... n divert my attention to something else n distract myself from the pain ... i'm thinking of him .. i hope i hope ..
Sigh~
Oh rite enough of last nite .. n thankx adrian for asking me to draw out my regret table ... duh ... regret table for this ???? if it helps i dun mind drawing out one .. n include my payoff table, my decision tree n std dev. n analyse ... haha
Hai~ like wat Thomas said .. making decision suppose to be easy??? Hmm .. not so .. becas we are always stuck at the cross road delimma.
Oh yah .. i went to watch SUPERSTAR FINAL!!! Omg ... i can't help but keep screaming n shouting!!! Waahahaha .. i see JY!!! Yesh .. n he is just so charming!!! Arghhh .. then Jian was so funnie when singing the Anata .. haha .. sigh~ it's a blink n we had our very own Singapore Superstar ... so fast .. arghh~ n this marks the end of seeing JY again .. Sad ~ ..
Hey hey hey .. how can i forget mentioning abt JJ!!! Gosh~ he is so cool~ ... esp when he was doing beat box .. omg ~ u guys shld be there on life!!! N he is really great!!! *towkow towkow* .. arghh ... into my fantasy dream again ... keke
me n dear before the start of the SUPERSTAR final
Junyang doing his solo .. "Guidian Angel" ... hmmm angel ...
arlighty .. JY turning to face us .. yuppie ..
Me trying to kiss dear .. haha look how happy she was ..
Went to Comex today... Omg it's "People Moutain People Sea" .. haha .. duh ... but it's really crowded .. n people nowadays really noe how to push their way thru .. haha so clever me just stick to those pple who tries so hard to push .. lala .. while me just wait for them to open the path .. haha ..
Arghh~ i'm so tempted to get the Digic Cam ... Adrian dun temp me le .. haha .. We both really hard time making our decision on which digic cam .. the package were just so attractive .. haha .. i end up not buying them .. hmm .. keep telling myself .. "i must save up"
Oh yah .. i've just decided but have not discuss with uncle yet .. i want to go to perth n do my last sem there ... yup .. n that's of cas includes grad there .. hmm .. so now i'm trying hard to save up .. gonna draw out my financial table ...
So i've decided i will save at least $500 each month .. then so i will apply a new account with another bank n i will not gonna touch that account till i'm going to perth ..
Alrighty .. hmmph .. better chase back those money pple oweing me ...
I dun wan go work tomorrow ... both vonny n jean on couse!!! ... i miss them ..
i wish he was here with me last nite ... holding me tight by his side in the crowd ... i wish
yourstruly crapped @ Monday, September 05, 2005
Hmmm ... an interesting day infact...
Keke, end work with a "happening confrontation to our boss" haha ... Well~ yah .. just felt unfairly treated by the company ... good job to shelby, jean n idah. Hmmm, Shelby really end it in a nice n cooool~ manner " well, we would rather not take the $75 counter allowance n not serve the counter" .. hur hur hur .. yah man ... "imagine us throwing money back at them" haha ..
K k k .. so meet up with chris n ling to celebrate Ling's belated bdae. Hmmm .. we ate Sakae haha n tok tok tok .. well~ there's so much to tok abt
"dan-dan" "chun chun" "ben ben" -- the angle is not rite .. haha my face so fat!
haha .. this looks better... but my hair??? hmm sticking out ..
Hmmm .. shared my probs with ling .. (hee ... always there listening to me) ... "thankx ling" ... hmm ..
Definitely i am affected by wat Angel 1 said. I knoe that he is ur kor .. n u respect him alot .. i understand how u feel ... n i really dun wanna pick a fight with ya .... ever since the other time .. we both really did quareled n this bothers him too n also he is the one who brought us back together ...
i hope u will understand .. i only start blogging abt my feelings is becas i tot if i had blog it earlier on .. u will pass the message to him n it will make it more difficult for him ... somehow as days goes by ... after i finally get to see him on his bdae .. i realise how much i miss him .. so i decided to blog abt my feelings towards him again ... anyway if u dun get me .. it's fine ... besides .. i tot u had stop reading my blog already .. so i tot it will be safe to blog abt my feelings ..
Anyway ... since u have already find out .. i got nothing much to say .. i won't touch him k .. n besides i believe u will start telling him abt wat i've blog n everything .. there's nothing to hide .. he should be avoiding my msges by now ...
I dun care wat u think .. but i really hope we can be like wat we used to be ...
"Folks ... i finally manage to get ticket to watch SUPERSTAR ... n yupz gonna skip class tmr .. n i can JY again" Wee
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, September 01, 2005
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