Tell me what to do? I'm lost!
Am i giving myself too much pressure? I don't know.
What i really want in life? Working for passion or working for the road is planned for me?
I don't know.
Boss said my body language is telling her that i am unhappy. Yes, seriously i am. But who can i tell?
I am in a confused state of mind. What i really want after i graduate? Should i contd to search for a job which can pay me 2.5k? or shld i contd with this job which guarantee me an advancement? I know that boss has plans for me, but how should i go about telling her? I dun wan to do sales? I dun like to meet targets? Arghhh~ but that's not exactly true. I've been in sales and the feeling of meeting the quota being set is great! Is really a sense of achievement and definitely feels much better when see the pay rolling in. Sigh~ but the stress is there, is scary. Every morning being bombarded which questions which you have not thought of. For example, what is this guest here for, why staying in this category of room and not the other, what is his designation, is this his 1st trip or will he be coming back, etc. It's a pressurizing moment every morning. No, this quests are not just post to the sales pple, we coordinators must know as well...
I understand that she is doing this for the good of us, knowing ur customers that u are able to cater to their needs and create a need for them to stay with u. But it's not an easy task. Yeah, who say is easy being a sales person. Aren't i like challenges like this? I never get defeated rite? Why am i so scare this time?
Reasons being that i know i need to make a choice. A move that will set my future. I can't bump around like the past. I need to settle down in one job and not job hop. But is this really what i want now? Working in a hotel?
The feeling is ... arghhh ... i've already established relatonship with the bosses and the customers and somewhat i understand this industry, and i dun like the feeling of restart everything again. Pple is telling me that this is one industry which i can stay onto, becas the IR is coming up. It would beautify my resume when i can add that in, telling i am in the hospitality industry when IR is there...
Tell me, what should i do. I've broke down many times on this issue. I am moodless to do anything. I am not as meticulous in my job as before, nor talking about productivity. I am slower and taking my time now. Other issues apply, which i have complaint before.
yourstruly crapped @ Friday, January 26, 2007
Sigh~ what a disappointing act.
Met out with Francine, Von, Keagan, Engacia today for dinner. Yucks! Now i understand why Jean dun like the svc in PS Swensens!
Our order took quite some time to come. The chicken bake rice become fish bake rice. We clarify with the waiter and he insist is fish baked rice. Hey, doubting your customers taste bud izzit? Nvm, we reassured him that it is fish and not chicken. Tootz, we are no small children dunno how to differentiate chicken and fish k.
Anyway, the cheese sucks. It's not cheezy at all, instead it taste starchy! Really starchy and gluey! Eeeeekks... nv visit PS Swensens again k!
Next, the waiter tried to serve us food. After asking us who is eating fish baked rice, we pointed at Yvonne. Guessed what, he put the plate and Jean's and expect Jean to pass down to Yvonne who is sitting 2 seats away!!! Hey we pay for service tax k!
Then, we ask for our Volcano to be served. Damn it, never did i know that it took at least 30mins for them to prepare the ice creams! It take the 2nd chase to have our served. And mind you, it is 15mins after the 2nd chase! What else, the presentation of the Volcano is lousy as well, the smoke isn't coming out at all! Perhaps we shall call it an extinct volcano!
Anyway, i swear i won't be stepping into this branch again. Bugis Swensens is much better! No wonder Keagan had said it is normally empty becas it is the last choice of people's mind!
Finally, the disappointing act. Saw someone familiar in a shop and guessed that particular one saw me as well. Anyway, i only saw her side view. And as i was talking to von and jean, this is the description i had from them: this someone walk to her friend and whispered, gesture to them and shooo .. left the shop putting a face. Well~ if that's what von and jean had saw, i guessed i really got nothing much to say, but only disappointed... perhaps a friendship really to an end. Not everyone is lucky like to me have a friend going to the same kindergarten, primary, secondary and poly. And normally someone like this would be your bestest friend of all, because you both had went thru' that much.
Yupz, we had been in the same CCA since primary school till Poly. What's more we stayed only a couple of blocks away. We were close, very close indeed, we bathed together even in Secondary school days. What causes this friend-ship to drowned? Search me? I have no idea and would not like to elaborate further. Action had surfaced its meaning and i got nothing to say. If someone would like to behave this way, let her be. This is her life yeah?
Sweet.... he look so blur ... keke
Vonny say he look charming in this ... u think so? Haha ... nope he still looks blur
yupz, lucky is on guide duty ... hhaa
Baaaaa waaaaa .... Boooooo
yourstruly crapped @ Friday, January 12, 2007
It's 2007!
A new year which many are waiting for. Hmmm for me? Well, nothing much, I dun see the need as much as i had few years back. Yupz, back then i am always hoping for a new year a new start. But now, i guessed life is still good with him around.
Previous posts, i had been saying that i still think of my ex and so on. But now, as time passes, i guess things have changed, my feelings too. I am seriously touched by his willingness. He is always there for me, giving up his stuff for me and my family. I mean at this century is hard to get a guy who can be filial to his parents and to your parents as well. Yupz! He helped up my parents at the satay stall during the 1st day of 2007 with no complains at all. For all these he did is for the love he had for me.
I mean there is no need for him to do all these, he can alway go out with his friends and enjoy his time but NO, he stayed with me and my family. Always there to take care of my parents. Asking them if they are thirsty or hungry, asking if they need his help, etc. I am touched, really. I teared.
Yesterday, we went to my grandma's house and visited my parent's stall again. My dad ask him if he can help up during CNY and guessed what? He agreed! Yes, he did without thinking twice! Omg! And i will be in Genting with my mum, bro and other relatives. I guessed i have met him. With no regrets, i think even if he proposed to me now, i will agreed! All his actions are making me to wanting to getting married soon! Really, i wish we can start a home soon.
But before all these can come, we ought to have our financial stable. Yah ... sigh~ money money money.
Anyway, waiting for him to turn 27 so that he can apply for the pilot course. Wee~ i am all out for this. Not air steward yeah!
Oh yah, My New year resolution is to get my driving license! Yesh, and it all started yesterday.
Mango accompany me to SSDC yesterday to register for my Basic Theory! Weeee~ mango i wanna buy a car by end of next year ok ok ...
yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, January 07, 2007
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