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Sigh~ gonna sigh~ again . Sales was so damn bad today. Sigh~ Rejection rate was god damn high. Sigh~ When will i be able to reach the standards like the old bird??? Sigh~ Life izn't the same after the break up with him. Sigh~ Life is nv as perfect as i thought. Sigh~ Am i too depending on him? Sigh~ After reading my dear anne's blog n jolene's blog, i felt so out casted. Sigh~ why am i feeling this way? Sigh~ Just felt that someone has replaced me in so many ways. Sigh~ n that's the fact she did. She had already replaced me in his heart. THERE'S NO MORE ME IN HIS HEART! Sigh~ shld i hate her? I dunch noe. Sigh~ They got Steamboat gathering session at alex place on last sunday or is it sat? Also nv ask me along. Sigh~ Perhaps i'm nobody to them le ba. Sigh~ Is it really my fault? I also dun wan this to happen. I mean i also hope that i can remain friends. But how to? Tell me How? If u are in my shoes!!! Perhaps many of u may disagree with me. But the love is too strong for me to let go of him. The words, the phrase he used to say just runs in my head. There's so many so many phrases i will nv forget!!! phrases like "u gave me the key (to ur heart) le, can i dun give u back?" "who loves u the most? Jon Jon" "dear i very stress ... i miss u ... can i meet u tonite" "dear u are getting more n more beautiful" "baobei good nite" (then help me cover with blanket n hug me close to his heart)... There's so many so many of them i can't bear to just forget!!! i really miss him alot!!! sigh~


~ wo ku le ~

yourstruly crapped @ Tuesday, June 22, 2004