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Oh yes .. i did ask for an enlightenment in my previous post .. nv expect God to ans me this fast.


Met adrian, hanquan, lix, n cath for project today. Would like to apologise to everyone for my suky attitude today. Only lau pa knows why .. having too many things rumbling my head .. lau pa .. thanks for encouraging me to persuade my passion .. a passion which i have buried in me for a long time .. a passion which i chose to ignore .. a passion which i chose to hide from .. running away from ..


Definitely i am not in the mood of doing proj ... can't take any nonsense today .. sorry.


I have been thinking of the same things while on my trip to meet them. Was telling myself .. if only he was here to help me decide again .. to give me advise ... those were the days .. always supporting me when i'm leading .. waiting for me to finish my proj in sch till late nite .. till the library closes .. helping me to complete my proj till dawn while allowing me to sleep by his side .. why? i dun understand why are u treating me so nice in the past .. i m so stubborn .. so childish .. so petty .. why are u tolerating my nonsense in the past .. why ...


Just when i was staring out in the air .. a familar soul walk past .. yes it's him! finally i got to see him .. though it's from afar .. though not face to face .. but i'm happy to see him again .. though it's just a few sec .. but i'm happy .. NO i dunno if i really m .. all of a sudden my heart shatters once again .. time seems to pause for me .. everything seems to stop .. i dunno why .. but i m really shock when he walked past .. my heart seems to stop for a few sec .. it took me some time to wake up .. thinking i was dreaming .. yes it's him .. definitely it's him .. he is wearing the same outfit .. track pants n black shirt! .. nv did i tell him that i like to see him in black plain shirt .. it makes him look more shuai n man ..


I feel like hiding myself in a corner again .. i wanna cry .. but i gotta put on a strong front! yes i need to do my proj ..


Proj discussion soon ended but i have no idea wat we had actually discussed .. seriously .. though i've tok many things but i dun remember wat i had discussed ..


We went for dinner at billy bombers .. fighting away my tears .. so much so i wanna be a coward to run home to sob in my pillow ..


Went to the new shopping complex opp of bugis - Trendy Zone ... well~ not in the mood to shop either .. my mind is just wondering away .. hoping that he will be nearby once again .. my eyes is wondering every where .. inserach of him ..


dunno how to explain my feelin now .. i just dunno how to react to it ... serious .. i dun have the feel of missing him .. i dun have the feel of loving him .. i dun have the feel of wanting to be with him .. i dun have the feel of wanting to talk to him .. i dun have the feel of wanting to hug him ..


perhaps above are all false .. perhaps i am running away again .. i dunno wat i'm really thinking about ..


i m glad my stubborn tears has decided to flow down my cheeks once again ..


putting a smile everyday it's not easy ..

yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, March 12, 2006