Sigh~
Read thru' 2 of my friend's blog n decided to call it off a day. Shall not cont'd reading anymore. Read Leng's blog - her past posts .. sigh~ i believe money will always pose as a common prob in relationship. Hence, i stil stay put on my stand that, i.e. to find a bf with stable carerr - the least, hopefully his pay is higher or at least on par. Yupz, this is definitely one of the criteria i'm looking for. Maybe that's why i m seeking for older guys? haha ..
Read Julie dear's blog. Hmmm .. i thought to myself, what will i do if my beloved ones fall sick. Cry? or Put on a strong front? Sigh~ Cancer though is a common sickness these days but how many had actually survive from it? The number is little - very few.
I had love ones die from this illness, i m scare - m afriad to be it's victim as well.
Just struggled thru my MIS proj.
I hate myself now. I have been relying too much on people. It's time for me to stand on my feet once again. Where is the me who was determine n stubborn gone to? I mean stubborn / determine to get things done. Someone who sees an urgency in getting things done n not wat i m like not ... being lay back - a slacker - waiting for free ride! I hate it .. i dun wan to behave this way. I want to be ME ... the LEADER! Not a follower! .. i used to be LEADER in getting things done but why am i such a looser now .. waiting for spoon feeding???
Just imagine if shifu did not send me his finished project? N now he is out! Wat the hell will i suffer thru'??? Sigh~ enough is eough .. how long more will i wake up!!!
yourstruly crapped @ Wednesday, February 22, 2006