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I'm really confuse with everything now ... after that nite, i start to miss him more. I was thinking of him the whole day at sentosa. This sudden kind of miss really hurts me alot ... i'm bring pain n hurts to the 3 of us. Why am i so insensitive to them? Is this feelin just becas of guilt? Is it like wat adrian said, it's the after effect, it will be alright???

But the fact is i have hurt piggy. He is such a nice guy, why i can't i bring myself to love him as much as i love the other? He has plan the day out to be a romantic one, but i ruined it. I avoid looking into his eyes, i avoided him.

Piggy is hurt now. i noe it. Senior ask me to stop calling him or msg him, he needs time to heal. Yes, i noe it is for the interest of piggy. But it is not fair. ALright, life isn't fair at all!!!

Watever it is, i dun wanna tok abt r/s anymore!!! Nt this 2 yrs in my life. I shall get my deg n move on with life.

I nv be able to handle well in r/s. I'm just suck at it. Always causing trouble n hurting pple. Last yr was like that. This yr also. Maybe i should just be a nun like wat angie said.

The feeling is just so tricky. Eric is rite. I just yearned for a man's love. I need someone to be there for me.

Yesh, the fact is i am selfish, self-centred. I want a man to be there for me but refuse to be there for him.

I'm nothing in this world n does not worth a man's tear!!!

yourstruly crapped @ Monday, May 23, 2005