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Got thru the interview for the Singapore Power Supply, n have to go down on wednesday for my 2nd round. Sigh~ somehow, i'm not quite excited at all? Dunno why, i'm just moody, moody n just moody. I want the sea, e sea breeze, the sky, the air, the sand, the sun, i want to be out at the beach, yesh alone at the beach, sun-tanning n relaxing - yups i want to be in somewhere where there's no one is ard - perhaps just my dog to be my side will do. yeah? Well~ this few days, lucky had been sticking to me, no matter where i go he just keep sticking to me, regardless of who is calling him. Hmm~ perhaps he is just too use to my pressence at home for all this while.

Mummy will have to go down for the Prettiest Mum Competition this thursday. Har~ i manage to persude her to go - secretly sign up for her - keke ...

How i wish i'm able to learn to "hate", perhaps if i can hate like my friends do, i will not be feeling so down all these while? Sigh~ just wanna a get away from all these ... somehow i thiink i need to work, the feelings is just not rite! this is only the 3rd week n i'm feeling so uncomfortable without work?? Gosh~ n not even concentrating on my studies, which my mid term exam will be like anoter 3wks away? Well~ tmr better start on my Dive Advance theory, if not this saturday will sure frunk the test.

some results from the psychology test on the net ... quite true ..

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform, but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have un-admitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliché 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

yourstruly crapped @ Tuesday, April 19, 2005