Sigh~ today is a cloudy day. I dunno why, but i just feel so moody. Sigh~ i'm feeling guilty n bad. Somehow i feel that i'm cheating on cust by asking them to do the balance trsf. Sigh~ So wat if i hit the target n get commission? I just feel uneasy! immoral! I just feel that i'm a cheated! Hmmm perhaps i'm feeling this way becas of PMS ba. Sigh~ if this feelings cont'd to indulge, perhaps i just got to quit this job and get work in some other line. Hmmm~ well is my feelings stronger? HaHa~ i dunch noe. My heart is still nt racing as fast yet. Perhaps i'm really looking for a subsitute or maybe just too desperate. I'm just dunch get use to single life? OR i am just too dependent? Well, i really hope one day i will be able to step out of this ocean n get my feet on the ground. I am tired! I wan some relaxation. I wan to enjoy life. Sigh~ i wan to get MARRIED n start my memory. hahaha. i'm just thinking too much.
yourstruly crapped @ Thursday, June 10, 2004