shanice aka xin

2007-07-11T19:29:00.000+08:00

Have you wonder which celebrities you ressemble? well~ check out this website: http://www.myheritage.com/ . This is really interesting ... hek hek .. see i do look like jappie hur hur hur ...

http://www.myheritage.com

2007-06-08T16:42:00.000+08:00

It is so bored staying at home and nothing much to do. With my situation now, close friends have notice and see the sudden increase of acnes around my mouth.

All these while, knowing that i am diagonis with hormone discorder / imbalance but have yet doing any research on it. Only get to understand my condition from my gynae.

Since I am bored and have difficulties getting my afternoon nap, I decided to do some research on it and understand my condition more. So here, a direct quoted from the website: http://www.girlshealth.gov/body/pcos_educators.htm. Basically, I am suffering from PCOS - Polycystic Overy Syndrome. So after reading on, I hope people will stop asking me why is there a sudden growth of pimples on my face and such. I understand my condition and trying to live on a positive side of it. It would help if questioning stop for it does make an impact on my emotion and feelings. Thank you. =)

Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) is the most common reproductive endocrine disease among women of childbearing age. Although this condition has not received much publicity, it impacts many young women. In fact five to 10% of teens and young women have this diagnosis. The most common symptoms are irregular periods, weight gain, acne, and excess facial and body hair. The severity of the symptoms varies from girl to girl. Most young women are generally distressed with how the symptoms impact their life and self esteem. Having an understanding of this disease, the etiology, current trends in medical treatment, and the important role of good nutrition and exercise will help you to support teen girls with PCOS.

What is PCOS?
Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a hormone imbalance that can cause irregular periods, unwanted hair growth, and acne. The name “Poly”, meaning “many”, and “Cystic”, meaning “cysts”, refers to the fact that those with PCOS may have enlarged ovaries that contain many very small cysts. These small cysts also called follicles develop in the ovary but the eggs are only rarely released. The outer wall of the ovaries thickens giving the ovary a polycystic appearance. These cysts are not cancerous and do not need to be surgically removed. It is not uncommon for girls with PCOS to have normal appearing ovaries but still have an imbalance in their hormone levels. Generally, symptoms of PCOS begin during the teenage years around the start of menstruation and can be mild or severe. The extent of symptoms and their severity varies significantly among young women. What most doctors will agree on is that young women with this disorder have irregular menstrual cycles and they have higher than normal levels of androgens (male hormones) in their blood.

What are the signs of PCOS?
Young women with PCOS commonly have one or more signs.
Some of the most common signs include:
1) Irregular periods-periods that come every few months, not at all, or too frequently
2) Hirsutism-extra hair on the fact or other body parts
3) Acne
4) Weight gain and/or trouble losing weight, and in some cases, obesity
5) Patches of dark skin on the back of the neck and other areas, called “acanthosis nigricans”
6) Infertility or impaired fertility due to irregular periods or lack of ovulation

Other less common signs/symptoms may include:
1) Hair thinning (on the top of the head)
2) Skin tags under the armpits or neck area
3) High total cholesterol and/or low HDL “good cholesterol”
4) High blood pressure
5) Pre-diabetes or in some cases, diabetes

Can you tell if a young woman has PCOS?
If a teen or young woman you know has two or more of the above symptoms, she could have PCOS. There can be other reasons for these symptoms and therefore only a doctor can tell for sure. If the young woman is distressed about the symptoms she is experiencing, you can suggest that she see her primary care provider. While she is waiting for her appointment, you can advise her to keep a log of her menstrual cycles and symptoms. She should bring the log with her when she meets with her provider. After an initial evaluation is completed, she may be referred to an adolescent gynecologist, or an endocrinologist for further testing.

What causes PCOS?
PCOS is caused by an imbalance in the hormones secreted by the pituitary gland that in turn affects the ovaries. Many girls with PCOS also have higher than normal levels of insulin from the pancreas. PCOS usually happens when the lutenizing hormone (LH) levels or the insulin levels are too high, which results in extra testosterone production by the ovaries.
For a more detailed explanation, take a look at the figure below:

-> The pituitary gland in the brain makes the hormones luteinizing hormone (LH) and follicle stimulating hormone (FSH).
-> After getting the signal from the hormones LH and FSH, the ovaries make estrogen and progesterone, the female sex hormones. All normal ovaries also make a small amount of the androgen, testosterone, but the ovaries of a girl with PCOS make too much testosterone.
-> High levels of insulin, secreted by the pancreas, can also cause the ovaries to make more of the testosterone hormone.

Why do young women with PCOS have irregular menstrual cycles?
Having PCOS means that a young woman’s ovaries are not getting the right hormonal signals from the pituitary gland. Without these signals they will not ovulate regularly. Their periods may be irregular or absent.

-> Normally the menstrual cycle starts when the brain sends LH and FSH to the ovaries. A big surge of LH is the signal that tells the ovaries to ovulate, or release a ripe egg.
-> The egg travels down the fallopian tube and into the uterus. Progesterone from the ovary tells the lining of the uterus to thicken.
-> If the egg isn't fertilized, the lining of the uterus is shed and the menstrual period will start.
-> After the menstrual period, the cycle begins all over again.

The PCOS cycle shows where the menstrual cycle stops just before ovulation. As a result, girls with PCOS may ovulate occasionally or not at all so periods may be too close together or more usually, too far apart. Some girls may not get a period at all.
-> With PCOS, LH levels are often high when the menstrual cycle starts. The levels of LH are also higher than FSH levels.
-> Because the LH levels are already quite high, the surge that sets off the chain reaction causing ovulation does not happen. Without this LH surge, ovulation does not occur and periods are irregular.

What types of tests will a doctor do to diagnose PCOS?
Generally a young woman’s doctor will ask her a lot of questions about her menstrual cycle and her general health and then do a complete physical examination. She most likely will need to have a blood test to check: her hormone levels, blood sugar, and cholesterol. An ultrasound test to check the uterus and ovaries may also be obtained.

Why do young women with PCOS get acne and/or extra hair on their body?
Acne and extra hair on the face and body can happen if a young woman’s body is making too much testosterone. All women make testosterone, but with PCOS, the ovaries make more testosterone than they are supposed to. Skin cells and hair follicles are extremely sensitive to the slight increases in testosterone found in young women with PCOS, which contributes to excess hair growth in areas such as the upper lip, chin, sideburn area, chest, and stomach.

What causes the patches of dark skin in young women with PCOS?
Many adolescents with PCOS have higher levels of the hormone, insulin, in their blood. Higher levels of insulin can sometimes cause patches of darkened skin on the back of the neck, under the arms, and in the groin area. This condition is called “acanthosis nigricans.”

Will PCOS affect a young woman’s fertility?
Women with PCOS have a normal uterus and healthy eggs. Many women with PCOS have trouble getting pregnant, but some women have no trouble at all. There are new options available including medications that aim to lower insulin levels, which stimulate ovulation. Girls with PCOS should talk to their primary care provider even if they are not interested in becoming pregnant right away. Their doctor will explain the current medical therapies that are available. Reassure the young woman that good nutrition, weight control in girls who are overweight, and reducing insulin and glucose levels may induce normal ovulation, improving her fertility outcome. Remind her that medical treatment is constantly moving forward.

Is there anything girls with PCOS can personally do to help themselves?
While there is no cure for PCOS, it can be treated. A healthy lifestyle that includes nutritious foods and daily exercise can have a profound and positive effect on the endocrine system, particularly in cases when a young woman is overweight or obese. Studies have shown that losing even five percent of body weight in overweight and obese women with PCOS can eliminate some of the symptoms associated with this disorder. Although there are some young women with PCOS who are either underweight or average weight, some find that they gain weight easily, so for them daily exercise is a way to be proactive about their health.

What are the treatment options for girls with PCOS?
The most common form of treatment for PCOS is the birth control pill. The doctor may prescribe birth control pills because they contain the hormones that her body needs to treat her PCOS. The birth control pill may be prescribed continuously or cyclically. The birth control pill works by:
1) Correcting the hormone imbalance
2) Lowering the level of testosterone which will improve acne and lessen hair growth
3) Regulating her menstrual periods
4) Lowering the risk of endometrial cancer (which is higher in young women who don’t ovulate regularly)

Are there any other medications used to treat PCOS?
Yes. Metformin is a relatively new medicine which helps the body lower the insulin level. It is particularly helpful in girls who have high levels of insulin or have pre-diabetes or diabetes. It is necessary for a young woman to have her kidney and liver function checked before taking this medication. Since this medicine isn’t appropriate for everyone, it is important to encourage a young woman to ask her doctor whether this medicine is right for her. Because a young woman may ovulate while on this medication, she will also need to use birth control if she is sexually active. Alcohol should be avoided when taking metformin. Some young women may be treated with both metformin and birth control pills at the same time.

What about treating excess hair growth?
Treatment is individually based. Options may include bleaching, waxing, depilatories, spironolactone, which is a prescription anti-hair growth medication, electrolysis, and laser treatment. A young woman may require help finding a local salon that provides high quality, cost-effective services that will help her to choose the right option.

Are there any special treatments for acne associated with PCOS?
There are various ways to treat acne in general, including the birth control pill, topical creams, oral antibiotics, and other medications. These treatments are not necessarily specific to PCOS. Studies have shown that when insulin and glucose levels are controlled and ovulation resumes, acne and other skin conditions may improve greatly.

What about weight loss plans?
Losing excess weight when someone is overweight may reduce some of the symptoms of PCOS. It is often beneficial for a young woman with PCOS to talk to her doctor or nutritionist about healthy ways to lose weight and increase her exercise. Following a nutrition plan that helps manage insulin levels may help girls with PCOS manage their weight too.It also keeps the heart healthy and lowers a girl’s risk of developing diabetes. Encourage the young woman with PCOS to:
1) Choose nutritious, high-fiber carbohydrates instead of sugary carbohydrates.
2) Balance carbohydrates with protein and healthy fats.
3) Eat small meals and snacks throughout the day instead of large meals.
4) Exercise regularly to help manage insulin levels and her weight.

Is it normal for a young woman with PCOS to feel concerned about her health?
When a teen or a young woman is initially diagnosed with PCOS, she often feels confused. It is a difficult diagnosis to comprehend and the symptoms are distressing. Girls may also feel frustrated and/or sad if they are having a hard time losing weight, dealing with acne, excess body hair, and menstrual irregularities. When a doctor takes the time to explain what PCOS is and offers treatment options, a young woman may feel relieved that at last there is an explanation and treatment for the problems she has been suffering with. Having a diagnosis without an easy cure can be difficult. However, it is important for girls with PCOS to know they are not alone. Finding a doctor who knows a lot about PCOS and who they feel comfortable talking to is very important. Keeping a positive attitude and working on a healthy lifestyle even when results seem to take a long time is very important too!

Is there anything else I should know?
It is important that girls with PCOS follow-up regularly with their doctor and take their medication. The prescribed treatment will regulate her periods and lessen her chance of getting diabetes and other problems. Because young women with PCOS have a slightly higher chance of developing diabetes, her doctor may suggest that she have her blood sugar tested once a year or have a glucose challenge test every few years. Girls who are on hormonal pills to treat PCOS and who smoke should receive counseling on smoking cessation.

2007-05-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

So much so saying of resigning, Yes, peeps, i have tendered on 7th May 2007 and 6th June 2006 would be my last day of work in Orchard Hotel. After one year of working here, there is definitely no regrets at all. The colleagues are nice and guess they would be what i will miss after leaving this big family. Let me proudly present to you who these peeps are in the famil of Sales & Marketing Department:

-> Ms Alice Ee (my DOSM - Director of Sales & Marketing. She is one great successful woman who has big dreams for this hotel. From her, I have learnt to look at the world in a different angle and apply marketing in a different way. I will always remember what she said during those morning briefings. Things such as, demand may not be there, as a sales person you are there to create the demand, to trigger the demand and subcausiousness of these people... Definitely, she would be my role model to learn from. For those who does not know, she was once a receptionist in the hotel but knowing what she really wants in life, she make her way up the corporate ladder and has become who she is today. Between, she is also the mentor of many of those mentioned below.)

-> Ms Macy Cheng (my DOS - Director of Sales. Well~ what I would say that she is one woman who is optimistic in life. Someone who you can confide in and earn priceless advice from)

-> Ms Jessica Khoo (my ADOS - Assistant Director of Sales - Corporate, and also who I am assisting. Definitely, I have learnt lots from her, but well, I am still weak in many ways. I teared and get emotion easily which is what i really Really need to learn from her. I got to be firm and not get bullied easily, that's what she had taught me. It's a pity that I will not be assisting her though I wish i could assist her longer but time is precious, I cannot let it flow as it is. I need to grad hold of my time and use it wisely. Many had seen and assured me that she dotes on me alot, which is why I tell myself that I am luckier compared to the rest of the coordinators. I am careless and she knows but she never scream at me for doing things wrong. She will only nag at me and remind me to be more careful next time. What's more, she is always afraid that I am overloaded and will do her own proposals and contracts.)

-> Mr Louis Cheng (my ADOS - Assistant Director of Sales - MICE and Travels. He is one great boss too. Always patient and fatherly. Oh yah, he loves to recycle paper too, always loading recycled paper into the machine, =))

-> Ms Portia Low ( my Senior Sales Manager and who I am assisting too. She is another manager who does not scold as well. See, I am a lucky coordinator! Most of time she is clearing her own email, proposal, and contracts too. Well~ she is like Jessica, but messier on her desk but neater on her administrative work. Haha~ anyway, I will definitely miss those times we hang out.)

I shall complete the rest of the manager's descriptive in my other entries. Otherwise, you guys would get bored soon.

So much so, I did not realise that so many things have happened to my friends, till Nette and Engracia was talking about Vonny's blog. Sigh~ girl cheer up yeah. I understand you are going through a hard time now.

It is definitely not easy to be strong but nobody say it is impossible yeah. You are nice girl and always putting your family infront of yourself. But, sometimes, we ought to understand that we need to be selfish to gain the best out of the better. Chase your dream, for Nette's post on 21st May had written the factual of life. We are young and so we must dare to dream. Only when you have the courage to dream, you will then move a step closer to your dream yeah?

When the time is up and you feel that you cannot move on further with this job, it's a sign. A sign telling you to move up with life.

People passes by our life, we all lead a unique life and no one has the same. We can't possible live our life to suit others, ending up suffering and no one would understands why. Don't give up your hope, girl! Always remember this " YOU WILL NEVER KNOW UNTIL YOU HAVE TRY IT" and "THE BIGGEST REGRET IS WHEN YOU REALISE IT IS TOO LATE TO TRY IT or rather YOU STILL HAVE NOT TRY IT"

I have struggled for the past months and broke down several times for the past months. Finally. i have picked up the courage to move on to chase my dream. I believe you can do it as well!

Ah Nette, ah Von, JIA YOU!

2007-04-21T09:15:00.000+08:00

Gosh~ 5 days of mc .. arghh~ not very nice but doctor don't allow me to go back to work. She wants me to rest more at home and monitor my fever, making sure that it does not come back. Sigh~ anyway, i am down with torstenlatis (not sure how do you spell it), but it's a throat infection which causes high fever. Yupz, I was down with high fever for the 1st three days and the fever never reduce until i got my 1st injection on my butt! Ouch ~ it's painful yeah. Sheesh~ three injections on one week!!! 1st was my cervical cancer prevention injection and the other two were on my bum! And i got 7 medicines to take! Yucks! Anyway, i am brave. No tears from the injection. Haaha ~ alright some wining when dear came over on monday to give me padadol.

Yupz, i have finally completed my exams and guess results would be out soon. In a week or two. Somehow, there's this empty feeling within me. Nope, there was no excitement, no happiness or sadness in me after i completed the last paper, not even a sigh of relieve. But the feeling of empty. Yeah, what is my next step? there isn't really a question now compared to freshly graduated in Poly. Rather, my concern is how should i go about building my career as a marketer. I need the chance and opportunity but lady of luck isn't on my side. Am i really gonna stuck in the world of sales? And wasting all these years studying on marketing? At least give me a chance to do what i have studied, to experience out of the book! Arghh~ i am getting sick of waiting waiting and waiting for response of the various companies.

Anway, we went for a dinner at this Japanese restaurant. Gosh~ the food is real nice! It's buffet, free flow of sashimi! Oishi~~~

one last group photo... adrian and i had finally completed our course while the rest still have a couple modules to go .. jia you!

the best pals ...

the three baos!

Pimples have been popping non stop on my face, having a pretty good time i guess. Arghh~ perhaps it was due to the sleepless night preparing for my papers. Caught gastric flu on day before the 1st paper. Wat else, must all these always happen? Every time before the exams definitely i am caught with fever, flu, menses cramp, PMS, etc. What's new!

Back track a little. So what have i been doing for the past days? Well~ basically, I am just lazing around, sleeping and sleeping. Playing my Nintendo DS, yupz that's all. Suprisingly time passes quite fast during these days. I don't feel bored at all and wishes it would slow down a little. My sis has been using the computer more offen for her school work and that's the reason why you are seeing me online lesser. Dear finally came over last nite before his mahjong game with his friends. He mentioned that i have lost a couple of weighs. Arghhh~ from exams till now i have not been eating well. Down with gastri flu, i have to control my diet. And now, i am hit with torstenlatis, more watchful on my food. Yeah, so i am having porridge everyday. But what's good is i get to enjoy mummy's food. That's the best! Nothing beats it.

On the lorry after our bladding exercise ... buddy jia you for your career ok! dun give up! remember our dream. hur hur hur!

Another picture of us ... thanks dude for asking me out for a blade! Yeah~ really enjoy the company from ya. Anyway, please choose a better timing for sun tanning lar. Always choose weekdays which i need to work! Aiyoh.

Well~ little posts on my dear's pic .. well~ he just refuse to take picture lahz. Duh~ nvm i shall get more pic of him during our Thailand trip and really hope i can meet up with da nu ge! But where is he??? I can't get him online how to contact him? Hai~ careless me to lose his number.

Anyway, have a good weekend! I am going to miss my good friend soon. Sigh~ must think of us when in beijing ok! Two years may not be long ... arghh~ i really hate this feeling. But it would be a better exposure for you. So treasure your time there and save enough money for your school fees! Stop your na-beiing ...

2007-03-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

Dear All

Thank you for your concern. William and I are still together and will alway be (i hope so) haha. Alright. The previous post may post as disturbing to some, but i won't be removing it still as it was my actual feeling. By removing it may defeat the purpose of keeping an online journal.

Yupz, I have finally booked my air tickets and hotel reservation for my BKK trip. Da nui ge, i'm coming! Yeah .. so happy!!! Hope you are still there yeah.

Alright, in another 2 weeks time i am officially a bachelor degree holder. Yah? Well~ not mouch of the excitement though, perhaps its due to my poor results. I am not achieving grades like in poly and to be honest i am not putting as much effort as i had in poly too. So who to blame. Well~ but i am grateful that i have managed to complete the course. Definitely a BIG Thank you to my uncle who paid for my school fees. Seriously, if i do have regret for not putting in enough effort? Not too sure about it. I can't weigh my poly grades against my current grades though. Afterall, i was a full time student then with no other burndens like household income, insurance, savings, etc.

I need not worry about all these. But now, i have more than any responsibilities. To say about that, I am a Financial Controller at home. Hah~ what a big name for that. Anyway, it worries me i were to get married and who is going to control and coordinate on all these stuff? Sometimes, i really want to tell my siblings to wake up their idea and stop depending on me to deal with all these stuffs. Can't they use some initiative as well? Sigh~

Anyway, met this really cute, handsome charming model at the Fox fashion on Saturday! Woah~ if only he is mine! OMG! Nett bet you did not regret going with me to the show though you are not feeling well huh. hur hur hur still got touched by the waist! Bleah

Here are the photos ...

the youthful us while waiting for the show ...

my the other half ...

her scandal ....

but ... the reality ...

2007-03-18T20:22:00.000+08:00

For once i thought i was right this time, the only thing which i need to focus now would be my career.

How it all started? 15th March was our 9th Month, you said to celebrate on 16th instead since it's a friday. I am all geared up for it, waiting for that day to arrived. Excited to be out with you again, it's been such a long time since we went out for movie and dinner together. Pretty long i guess in a lover's space.

Finally, it's friday, yeah, the reason why i'm looking for friday to arrive. All anticipated and prepared. I decided to do a little more make-up which i normally don't do full make-up. It's uncomfortable anyway. So for you, i wanted to look pretty. The trouble is all worth it, i packed and brought my clothes to office to change so that i can be well dressed up as well.

Greeted you in the morning. As usual, there is no reply from you. Alright it is normal i told myself. Time past and it's noon, yet i have received any sms from you. So i decided to call ya. Guess you were buzy then, that's why there was no response. Alright, telling myself anyway the date is confirm, we just need to decide the place. We have set the time, didn't we?

So i went for my lunch, keeping my hp close to me, knowing that you might ring anytime. Waited ... soon my lunch break is over. My Hp is as quiet. It's ok, it's only about 2 plus, so i thought just wait till 3 then i will ring again.

Finally, you called. I am so happy that i finally hear your voice for the 1st time. I rattered off. Asking you where are we going to meet, what show should we watched, where shall we dine, where should be go or do after the moive, etc. And so i ended my questions. Your replied, "my mum sprained her neck again". In my heart, i know what you going to say, but i hope that you will say something different instead. Then, there you go "shall we not watched movie today?"

Yesh, that's it. My heart broken into pieces. I am pissed for the second for you made your promise and break it. This is not the 1st time. Why must you choose such an occassion to break your promise? Though you have said to meet on Saturday instead after your work. Shock, to say anything. I decided to hung up on you.

Again, right after i have hung up. I am waiting and waiting. Waited for my hp to beep! Yesh, finally it does in the evening around 7plus. But it's not you.

Since, I have loads of Welcome letters to do, though Jessica had offered to do it for me on Saturday. I decided to stay in office to cont'd to do. Hoping that you might popped by any moment to surprise me. I cont'd to do my letters and other work. The clock strike 12. Guess you will not be coming anyway. Finished my stuff, packed up, it's 12.30am. So headed home, keeping my hp close to my side. Waiting for the good nite message from you. But my phone was silent throughout my sleep.

Waking in the middle of my sleep, checking on my phone, telling myself that i might have missed to beep sound from it. I checked, and went back to sleep and hope again.

Soon, it's time to wake up and meet up with my project mates. Discussing ... time passes, it's around 3.30pm, my phone is still quiet. It's not in silent mode, i have checked. Finally, my phone rang. My face grow again, thinking that you might have called to tell me that you want to meet me after my project. Since, you have said to meet on Saturday after my proj and your work to batch up things. So of cause i am anxious waiting for your call. I have again made the effort to doll myself up so that i can meet you any mintue on your call. Well, the phone call was from Han. Thanks to him, i do not have a lonely nite. Since i received no news from you, i have decided to go blading with him and his friends.

The night breeze was good. Thanks han for accompanying me though you do not what had happened. Well~ at least we have time to catch up.

So you finally called closed to meet up asking if i am still angry. Promising me that you will make up on Sunday. Fine, i am rather half hearted now. After my conversation with han, shant' elaborate further.

Anyway, Sunday soon to come. Again waiting is a chore. But still i waited, you finally msged me but the contents in your msg does not pleased me at all. You said " i am on my way to work, and meet up for movie and dinner later" So again, giving myself false hope. Alright, it's wrong of me not to reply u, but really angry and confuse of my feelings now. I was telling myself, i should get myself started on my project, you may pop out any moment. So, yes i have work hard on my project. It's 3pm, your message finally come. Before i have open it i thought you would be telling me that you have finish your task and coming over now. But again, i am wronged. Rightfully wrong. You said you will come by 6pm.

What? 6pm? It's a Sunday evening, meeting at 6pm, what else can we do? Fine, so i gave negative reply anyway, thinking that you will come by straight away. But no, you never did. No reply either. So again, i waited. Telling myself that you might pop by at 6pm despite me telling you that we might as well don't meet. So i get prepared again. Do my necessary house chores. Bathed Lucky had my masked. Finally, 6pm has arrived.

Again, it's another false alarm. You are no where near. There's no reply from you either. So i decided to msg you again, telling you it's 7pm. But again there wasn't any reply from you. So, maybe i should try calling you. I have called and put down. You have called but i am not talking. You msged and ask if i want any dinner but i never replied. Soon your next msged comes, asking if i want to play mahjong.

In my mind, what else can i think of, you have found the next activity to do since you are not meeting me anyway. But you said your mum wanted to play and ask me over to play. Well~ no thanks. Who still have the mood to play mahjond at this state? Isn't it obvious that there is something wrong with us? Can't you feel it? So i have texted and told you that perhaps we should go separate way. Isn't this a big big hint to you that you better come over now or else worst is to come? BUT NO! NEVER DID YOU COME BY OR EVEN REPLIED THAT MSG!!! HURT, I MORE HURT THAN EVER WITH YOU! SO I MSGED YOU THE LAST TIME TELLING YOU THAT SINCE THERE WAS NO REPLY FROM YOU I WILL TAKE THE ANS AS THAT YOU HAVE AGREED TO THE IDEA OF SEPARATION! AND YES, YOU FINALLY REPLIED. AND YOUR REPLY" ok then. Maybe we will take a short period of time to think thru wat actually happened."

Faint! Speechless, sad, hurts, more confused than ever. Always thinking that i had met the right man and may get engaged any moment and our rom and dream marriage has gone down the drain.

With that, effective from today, i have returned to my singlehood life and i shall not anticipate your calling, smsing, appearance. We are now separated and you don't belong to me. Will we be together again. It depends and i don't want to give myself any more false hope.

2007-03-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

Woah ... 315posts till date!

What is blog all about? In technical term, it was a weblog - yeah a web-log for the posting of events, comments, journals for people to comment. However, we have been using it as our daily life journal. A little misuse of the initial idea of a web-log however, truely it does a useful thing.

Many of us have been using it to jolt down our life events which had taken place and shared with friends around. We may not be able to keep in touch every day like we used to, but with this we are unable to get ourselves updated in the happenings of your friends. Well~ it's a nosey job though but "informative" in a sense too right?

Remember me complaining of those girly friends i have. Sigh~ anyway, i am still keeping them close to my heart. Was just reading some of their blogs and the urge of being there for them is strong. Well, like i said it takes two hands to clap. So i decided to give up the idea of leaving a comment behind or what. I do feel of what people think of me though. Yupz, smsing, msning, i have tried, but the cold shoulder received are what i am speechless about. I got no comments. But i do still cherish this friendship.

So if u are reading my blog, i do hope we can meet up some days soon. To you, i wish the best in your health, i understand things aren't working right at your end, but i do hope you are doing well.

To many of yous, cupid may not be working hard, or fate is playing with you. Nevertheless, i do hope you are enjoying every single second with the special some body. I always remember this phrase from someone; zhi shao ni men chen jin xiang ai guo, you were both once deeply in love is what it matters most.

2007-03-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

Omigod! what have i done to my blog. Just wanna do a little edit but .. looks like all the items have been strike!!!

Arghh .. not sure where i have placed my macromedia installation disc! Damit! just let it be lar .. seldom update also. Anyway, Mango is back! Yeah! Finally, missed him so much!

Our latest photo (with my new hairsyle) =) xin fu de xiao nu ren:

Ke ai de lucky (woof woof - see no evil):

2007-03-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a while since i last blog. Haven't been getting peaceful sleeps these days. Yes, the days are nearer and i have decided. Not too sure what the outcome will be, but definitely would not be an easy one. The bosses will not be agreed to my decision though. Some friends have already know and are supportive of my decision. Mum agrees to it and ask me to take my time to find a suitable one. Hubby is there for me and supports me in what ever i do. Thanks dear.

Anyway, guess i need to put down this huge burden within me to walk a longer distance. You will never know without trying it. Hence, this would be the decision i am taking for i have longed for me, finally i am graduating i should work towards my big time dream, to be a marketer. Yah ...

Anyway, it's been 5 days since i last seen him. This feeling really taste awful. Well, though we only meet up during the weekend, the hours of seeing him does not differ, but the thoughts of him on the other island makes me feel love sick. It makes me miss him even more. Soon, friday is coming and hope and it will pass fast for i longed for Saturday when i can hug him again. Dear, jia you, dun give up! Ask you to bring more clothes le, don't want to listen, now fall sick le, how? You ah, dunno how to take care of yourself leh.

I can't wait any longer. SATURDAY please arrive!!!

2007-02-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

Went genting with my family for this CNY. Yupz, haven't been there for a long time with my family. Something different though, just myself, my mum, bro and some other cousins aunts uncles and grandparents.

Well~ everyone used to go up together. Yesh, everyone in the family. Though it was just partial of us this time, but it was an enjoyable time! Really, brought us back to our childhood days. But our turn looking after the kids, hek hek, the games are still the same and how we hope genting will do something about their arcade! change their machine please ... gosh it has been there since we were kid and it is still there.

Anyway, some upgrade for us! Hek hek, this time we found our playgroud at the casino .. yeah~ when the younger ones were sound asleep we were there to roam around .. weee .. it's fun this time! Definitely! haha .. winning money is of cause fun .. hek hek hek ...

Three days at genting .. really miss dear alot ... yupz, no autoroam on my phone so weee~ meaning i have almost break contact with the world .. but keke kor lent me his phone to call him! haha ... just for one time lar

For the past few days, guess i really learn alot about dear ... perhaps he has always been like this just that i wasn't sensitive enough to feel but during the emo days ... i felt it ..

He is always there for me ... giving me what i want and not just what i need ... sacrificing himself just for me ... always me in his mind and never fail to cheer me up ... so glad that the 1st person i get to see was him when i reach singapore .. yup he was there to drive us back .. kekek ...

No words can use to describe my feeling for him ... just glad i have met him ..

2007-02-07T07:31:00.000+08:00

Saw this from Sophia's blog .... A really sweet story ....

Blind
There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.He has always been there for her.She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can seeeverything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "Now thatayou can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked whenshe saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to hersaying, "Just take care of my eyes dear."

Isn't it sweet? Awwww ... well life is just so practical rite? You may get to know a guy, and you really go head over toes about him, but soon you realise all his negative side, all your feelings just change for the worst. Sigh~ why can't we just look into the positive points which the guy has and love him from there? Yah? won't it feel better? Think about it, no one is perfect including yourself. Hence, don't pick on others unless you are so glam and well that he is nothing compared to you. But are you sooo sure about that? How about ur character? Yupz, we women always has a stubborn character, always like to make a big fuss, most of the time petty, but hey have your guy actually loose interest of you becas of that? or are they giving more becas of this? Well~ think.

Yupz, again, i gonna stress i am lucky to found you ... =)

2007-02-03T01:23:00.000+08:00

Unveiled the truth ....

Angry!!! that's all i can say. Stop your bullshitting and sweet talk to win the heart of little gals. Enough of lies you will get ur karma! Watch out this time, u bastard!

Arghhh~ how could you say all these when u were the one hurting us? How could you!

Perhaps i should show some sympathetic here to let you know that you are being sympatheize.

Yeah baby, at least we know who we love, yupz, you are just a lost little puppy trying your way to find the correct mama. Best of luck, asshole.

Enough said, you will get your karma. Watch your steps, you aren't that lucky everytime.

2007-01-26T10:43:00.000+08:00

Tell me what to do? I'm lost!

Am i giving myself too much pressure? I don't know.

What i really want in life? Working for passion or working for the road is planned for me?

I don't know.

Boss said my body language is telling her that i am unhappy. Yes, seriously i am. But who can i tell?

I am in a confused state of mind. What i really want after i graduate? Should i contd to search for a job which can pay me 2.5k? or shld i contd with this job which guarantee me an advancement? I know that boss has plans for me, but how should i go about telling her? I dun wan to do sales? I dun like to meet targets? Arghhh~ but that's not exactly true. I've been in sales and the feeling of meeting the quota being set is great! Is really a sense of achievement and definitely feels much better when see the pay rolling in. Sigh~ but the stress is there, is scary. Every morning being bombarded which questions which you have not thought of. For example, what is this guest here for, why staying in this category of room and not the other, what is his designation, is this his 1st trip or will he be coming back, etc. It's a pressurizing moment every morning. No, this quests are not just post to the sales pple, we coordinators must know as well...

I understand that she is doing this for the good of us, knowing ur customers that u are able to cater to their needs and create a need for them to stay with u. But it's not an easy task. Yeah, who say is easy being a sales person. Aren't i like challenges like this? I never get defeated rite? Why am i so scare this time?

Reasons being that i know i need to make a choice. A move that will set my future. I can't bump around like the past. I need to settle down in one job and not job hop. But is this really what i want now? Working in a hotel?

The feeling is ... arghhh ... i've already established relatonship with the bosses and the customers and somewhat i understand this industry, and i dun like the feeling of restart everything again. Pple is telling me that this is one industry which i can stay onto, becas the IR is coming up. It would beautify my resume when i can add that in, telling i am in the hospitality industry when IR is there...

Tell me, what should i do. I've broke down many times on this issue. I am moodless to do anything. I am not as meticulous in my job as before, nor talking about productivity. I am slower and taking my time now. Other issues apply, which i have complaint before.

2007-01-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

Sigh~ what a disappointing act.

Met out with Francine, Von, Keagan, Engacia today for dinner. Yucks! Now i understand why Jean dun like the svc in PS Swensens!

Our order took quite some time to come. The chicken bake rice become fish bake rice. We clarify with the waiter and he insist is fish baked rice. Hey, doubting your customers taste bud izzit? Nvm, we reassured him that it is fish and not chicken. Tootz, we are no small children dunno how to differentiate chicken and fish k.

Anyway, the cheese sucks. It's not cheezy at all, instead it taste starchy! Really starchy and gluey! Eeeeekks... nv visit PS Swensens again k!

Next, the waiter tried to serve us food. After asking us who is eating fish baked rice, we pointed at Yvonne. Guessed what, he put the plate and Jean's and expect Jean to pass down to Yvonne who is sitting 2 seats away!!! Hey we pay for service tax k!

Then, we ask for our Volcano to be served. Damn it, never did i know that it took at least 30mins for them to prepare the ice creams! It take the 2nd chase to have our served. And mind you, it is 15mins after the 2nd chase! What else, the presentation of the Volcano is lousy as well, the smoke isn't coming out at all! Perhaps we shall call it an extinct volcano!

Anyway, i swear i won't be stepping into this branch again. Bugis Swensens is much better! No wonder Keagan had said it is normally empty becas it is the last choice of people's mind!

Finally, the disappointing act. Saw someone familiar in a shop and guessed that particular one saw me as well. Anyway, i only saw her side view. And as i was talking to von and jean, this is the description i had from them: this someone walk to her friend and whispered, gesture to them and shooo .. left the shop putting a face. Well~ if that's what von and jean had saw, i guessed i really got nothing much to say, but only disappointed... perhaps a friendship really to an end. Not everyone is lucky like to me have a friend going to the same kindergarten, primary, secondary and poly. And normally someone like this would be your bestest friend of all, because you both had went thru' that much.

Yupz, we had been in the same CCA since primary school till Poly. What's more we stayed only a couple of blocks away. We were close, very close indeed, we bathed together even in Secondary school days. What causes this friend-ship to drowned? Search me? I have no idea and would not like to elaborate further. Action had surfaced its meaning and i got nothing to say. If someone would like to behave this way, let her be. This is her life yeah?

Sweet.... he look so blur ... keke

Vonny say he look charming in this ... u think so? Haha ... nope he still looks blur

yupz, lucky is on guide duty ... hhaa

Baaaaa waaaaa .... Boooooo

2007-01-07T09:27:00.000+08:00

It's 2007!

A new year which many are waiting for. Hmmm for me? Well, nothing much, I dun see the need as much as i had few years back. Yupz, back then i am always hoping for a new year a new start. But now, i guessed life is still good with him around.

Previous posts, i had been saying that i still think of my ex and so on. But now, as time passes, i guess things have changed, my feelings too. I am seriously touched by his willingness. He is always there for me, giving up his stuff for me and my family. I mean at this century is hard to get a guy who can be filial to his parents and to your parents as well. Yupz! He helped up my parents at the satay stall during the 1st day of 2007 with no complains at all. For all these he did is for the love he had for me.

I mean there is no need for him to do all these, he can alway go out with his friends and enjoy his time but NO, he stayed with me and my family. Always there to take care of my parents. Asking them if they are thirsty or hungry, asking if they need his help, etc. I am touched, really. I teared.

Yesterday, we went to my grandma's house and visited my parent's stall again. My dad ask him if he can help up during CNY and guessed what? He agreed! Yes, he did without thinking twice! Omg! And i will be in Genting with my mum, bro and other relatives. I guessed i have met him. With no regrets, i think even if he proposed to me now, i will agreed! All his actions are making me to wanting to getting married soon! Really, i wish we can start a home soon.

But before all these can come, we ought to have our financial stable. Yah ... sigh~ money money money.

Anyway, waiting for him to turn 27 so that he can apply for the pilot course. Wee~ i am all out for this. Not air steward yeah!

Oh yah, My New year resolution is to get my driving license! Yesh, and it all started yesterday.

Mango accompany me to SSDC yesterday to register for my Basic Theory! Weeee~ mango i wanna buy a car by end of next year ok ok ...

2006-12-31T11:07:00.000+08:00

31st December 2006 marks the last day of 2006. Yupz, all had went well in 2006. Like i said in Dec 2005, 2006 would be better year. Definitely it had been. So sam girl, 2007 will definitely be better than this year. I believed you will enjoy more in 2007 yeah. This goes to everyone out there.

Haha~ alright, i was really lazy to blog for the past 1 month. Here my updates, Andy. haha~

09.12.2006 - Dear's cousin's wedding held at Orchird Country Club.
Wooo~ met all his relative from his dad's side. Haha~alright, as his dad is the eldest son, we had the privellege to sit on the VIP table. Hmmm, pressurizing? Hmmm, not really. His relatives are a bunch of nice friendly people! But too bad, i can't speak cantonese and his grandma keep wanting to communicate with me. Haha~ ok, she dotes on dear the most among all the grandchildren i believe. This can be easily seen from her action. Yah~ like holding his hand when talking, putting his hand on her lap and so on. Yupz, dear was brought up by her in his early days, like mine - my nanny!

At dear's place, waiting for his mum to get ready for the wedding. The rest of the wedding photos is with his mum.

So after the wedding, i parted ways with his family to join my colleagues at Scarelet hotel to prepare for Macy's big nite!

Macy's hen-nite

Woo-hoo, the first hens nite party i ever went to! OMG! It was awesome! Thanks to my siao siao managers! Haha, alright details of the party is confidential but it was really omg! OMG! OMG! haha ... what can i say... it's also my "di yi ci" haha ...

Look, how nice is Scarlet hotel! If i got the chance i would like to come here for a party again! Gosh~ it's really a nice place! Perhaps Orchard Hotel should improved ah. But again, we are targeting at different segment of customers. Too bad ...

Yupz, wearing Macy's erm what's that call? haha ... anyway, really enjoyed this day!

14.12.2006 - Jean's birthday

Despite my buzy schedule, and exam in 2 days time, i still meet up with ah nett, vonny and the rest to celebrate nette's 22nd birthday! Look, it's the three of us again!

Yupz, a group pic! Engracia was not able to make it as this gathering was kinda last minute. hur hur hur who to blame. Birthday gal lar, keep chaning the date!

17.12.2006 - Serene's wedding

So what's next? getting ready for Serene's wedding! Finally, this day had come. Yah, gosh~ she was so so so pretty that day! Hmmm ... being engaged at 21 ot 22? and finally got married this year!

19.12.2006 - Macy's wedding!

2 days after Serene's wedding, it's Macy's! OMG! That was the most grand wedding i ever attend. Everyone came in their most formal dress code. i.e the girls came in their evening gown! Gorgeous! And pictures after pictures on the alley leading to the ballroom.

That's Jin-Mar (haha ... suppose to be zinmar but a customer pronouce her name this way). Anyway, Orchard really has a beautiful toilet, do come and take a look! it's really nice.

Yupz! We were offically let off at 12 by our director to prepare ourselves for the big day! Yupz, we had our last minute shopping for the accessories and stuffs! Yeah!

Omg! Guessed what, we were being served reall shark fin's soup! It's superd! It's not those cheapo ones we normally eat, that was starchy! The one which we had were in herbal soup with abalone in it! OMG! Yummy! What else, we had cod fish each too! It's the size of your palm k! Those who know the price, it's not cheap at all! Then ext we had scarlet! Yummy! Fried scarlet in gravy! Wooshhhh~ i'm drooling again.

What else, she hired the hotel band to her wedding! So yupz, there's life band! Really cool man~ THe course which was the desert! Oh gosh oh gosh~ it was desert buffet that was held in the third ballroom! Oh man~ so so so ... sub-tub! haha ... there's Choco fondue! Yummy!

22.12.2006 - Celebrating Christmas in Office

Look! These were the pressents under our Christmass trees! Yeah man, the presents is overflowing and taking up the walk-way! Haha~ and those are not the complete ones! There are some that were not placed there yet due to space restrictions!

Guess who? Mr Chef Eric (aka Director Eric now!) Wooo hoooo .. he is our Celebrity Chef k, even Mr S R Nathan also know him. Haha... yupz, he is helping us to cut up the turkey at the same time teaching us where to cut first. Haha ... really a funnie chef!

Yupz, we revealed our mortal on this very day and give our blessings to everyone! A really fun time we had in the office! So finally, Ms Sandy Tan will be leaving for India the very next day for her friend's wedding! Gosh~ she will be going over for 2 whole weeks. Hah! So she was mocking at us before she left, and guessed what happened? The siao siao managers and coordinators decided to block her way and dun let her get out of the office! Hahaa, so she ran up and down, playing catching trying her way to get out of the office. But too bad, both the front and back door was blocked! haha ... so finally both side got really tired and let her out. Keke~ She was so tired that she sat on the trolley (from the buffet man) hahaha ... tada~ the above pic spell all! bleah!

25.12.2006 - Christmas at Sentosa with Phoebe and Mike

Poor lucky got to endure the stuffiness in the bag! hahaha .. yups, i bought him there in this pretty dog carrier i have and we travelled by train!

The 1st time i'm bringing Lucky to the beach! Wooosh... he really enjoyed it. Yupz, i have placed in on the rock to take some picture of him and woahla~ he wasn't afraid of the height at all! Infact he is enjoying it! So relaxed!

Yup another pic of him ... adorable rite? Awwww ...

I am a good photographer! Neh... not gonna resize this photo! look~ it is just so artistic and nice rite?The good color contrast of the the Negative mood ... just so pretty!

Finally a sweet photo together again at my uncle's place ....

This shall marks the ending of 2006. I am looking forward to 2007! Really, a year which i can finally start on my career building! I will be graduating soon. FInally and i can start travelling and my leave shan't be confined to just exams only! Yuppie! I can start my driving license. I can maybe start on a 3rd language if i decide to go to the Japanese company? hmmm ... weee~ exciting journey ahead!

Owing a car in two years time, yupz, ROM in say 3 years time? hmmmm ... Dreamming ...

2006-11-26T02:55:00.000+08:00

25th November 2006 - Doris big DAY!

Seriously, this is my 1st time seeing such a beautiful couple! Really! Both Micheal n Doris are so compatible!!! ... Pretty n Handsome! Awwww ... sweet!

Looking at the new couple marching in, makes me feel like getting married too. The feeling is just so heartwarming! It's awesome! U just feel happy for this couple!

After the wedding, we went to ONS - One Night Stand! Great! The music is nice, really! The band was not too bad! The crowd is good! After that, we proceed to Atticus! The song is good, rather i should is FANTASTIC! But, they are mainly ang mohs, yesh, tall n big ang mohs! Arghh~ taking up so much of the dance floor. Well~ really tired to blog about what's going on, picture will tell the rest when i post the next time round. Really tired. Ouch! My feet hurts! Wearing 3 inch heels to club isn't a good idea at all!

My inner voice: "relax relax ... batam only wat ... so what not the 1st time rite? Why so difficult to say out? Damn it lar, everytime say ur friend ur friend ... ur friend not my friend lar .. biatch .. blading say ur friend, bintan say ur friend, movie say ur friend, batam say ur friend, learn jap class also say ur friend, end up all is the same friend who i also noe since primary sch. Duh~ relax relax .. nothing to be agitated about... people just isn't as good life mah .. so scare u 'steal' away her friend mah ... bleah .. i'm being sacastic .. ok .. i noe .. my managers also say so .. haha .. i m very 'nia' - bitch .. haha ... i got attitude one hor .. haha ... anyway .. mummy is rite lar .. since they can't bother i also can't lar .. u want to contact me then contact .. dun wan then dun wan lor .. no point holding on to things/persons/relationships which the other contact refuse to carry on with it rite? neh .. enough of acting cute lar ... i never say out though ... but i think u are getting worst from last time ... becoming more act cute with that voice of urs .. its er xin de lor .. at least friend X is better than before lor though she used to be more dramatic in the past lar ... but at least i think she has mature and at least not acting cute le lor ... yucks ... the acting cute action n voice is really er xin lar .. come on behave like an adult lar ... pass 21 liaoz leh .. " - msg meant for my venting again ...

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday! Yuppie another day then can see mango again! Finally he'll be back from his biz trip at Thail! Talking about thail! I wanna go there too! Jean got nice pretty and most importantly cheap dress there! like 5sing dollars only??? 8dollars for a pair of heels???? 5dollars for a wocoal alike bra??? n many more! I can't wait for my graduation so that i can spend my leave on overseas trip!

That's all really need to bath now!

2006-11-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

A post of the past events ... yupz, basically it's picture blog time!

15th November 2006 - 5th Month

Yupz, a heart shaped blueberry cheese cake for him ... Thanks shifu for the recipe! Who say i cannot make cake? Hey, once a failure but a winner in the future ok.

Mango with Blueberry! Oh ya ... guess what? celebrating our 5th month having my little sister by our side? hek ... anyway .. so we got 3 person sharing the cake .. but i only managed to eat 2 slices ... the whole cake was gone the next morning!

17th November 2006 - my birthday

Finally it's my birthday ... officially 22 now! Having our celebration at Ichiban in Suntec! Yummy yummy we order lotsa food!

Look at our table!!! guess how much had we both order?? haha .. Salmon, mushroom butter soup, toufu salad, shishamo, salmon skin, chicken omeltte, salmon cheese sushi, fish egg sushi, scallop sushi, green tea ... er did i miss out any? These amount is for just the 2 of us!

Well those who know me well enough. Do u think i will eat all??? Hahaha, of cas not! I just wanted to have a taste of everything! So ta-da ... again i cannot finish my portion at all!

Yupz, so as my partner for dinner .. of cas he has to finish it. Hahah~ his principle is not to waste food!

18th November 2006 - Motor Show & MOS

his favourite

mine favourite!

Just a sweet little post before setting off to MOS ...

Car n me ...

Uncle and Auntie trying to be YOZ again ...

19th November 2006 - With the girls

my last birthday celebration for this yr with the gals ...

2006-11-18T13:41:00.000+08:00

How should i start?

Now, i'm officially 22 - er not a very good sign though. I still miss my poly days. Yes, it's still the best, and Yupz, that is wat school pride and paraphernalia shall comes about!

Haha~ UWA mates, using school for example would be a more positive reserach rite? Instead of Singapore and paraphernalia. Duh~ we knoe the answer ourselves, but need reserach as a back up .. haha.

Alright, the eve of my birthday wasn't good at all!

Lunch time, mum called to ask me help my sis to pay her accumulated phone bill!!! WTH, my birthday still have to help in such task??? My 21st birthday, ang bao come also give some to daddy, bro and sis. N mind u, i paid for all the food and etc k!

Next after lunch, back at work! my BOC group booking have not been keyed in the system despite giving them like a week ago! Damn it, n this is like what my 6th time going to lie to the customers about the bookings, pretending i am bz, in the midst of sending, blah blah blah! Hey, it's not what i wan k. Those who knows me, if i wanna get a task done, i will make sure it is done well! Arghhh~ but the prob is the other dept is taking their time! So no choice but to inform jessica to get her to chase them again. I am just a coordinator, so my words may not be effective enough. N this is definitely not ur attitude talking to me just because u are more senior! In the 1st place, keying the booking is ur job k, sending the confirmation is also ur job. We sales co have our own set of duty and dun take us for granted because we always give in and help u all to send out confirmation during ur bz moments. This is not for a long term duty k. We do have phone calls coming in asking for reservation, but did we ever trsf the call immediately to ur dept? No k, we help to handle such calls too. If u really wanna draw a line betwn both dept then fine, next time whatever call comes we just simply trsf to ur dept! U are bz, so are we k. U are just required to key in the bookings and send out confirmation. On our hand, when there is a payment issue, the finance want us to assist them, when the booking not guarantee ur dept want us to assist u, when there's customer complains in other dept, we have to assist also, on top of all these, we have to make sure at the end of the bookings everything runs smoothly! So with all ur slow action, we are the ones surfering k. We have to rechecked on the bookings made, we have do monthly report, we have to reply emails, we have to have you recusite on ur stocks, we have to attend to our manager's emails, we have to attend to the customers, we have to do entertainment, we have to do the welcome letters, we have built relationship with the guests, we have to haunt for new accounts, we have to do sales biltz, we have to do telemarketing, we have to do the competitors analysis, etc. We have a wider job scope than u k, and that's make a reason why we are sales co and not rsvn clerk. No i am not complaining on my job! I just wan you all to be more responsible, it's that simple rite? If on our end we are trying our best to satisfy our customer, on ur end u shld do ur job well, becas everything start from ur end! without the rsvn made, we can't cont'd the further steps!

Argh~ yes, it's very bad, now the Director get to know the situation we sales co are facing, and all the time they are thinking that the rsvn staff very poor thing but now becas the 4 of us really can't endure anymore, we break down. Alright lar, only me k.

Finished work late, met up with engracia, tracy and boey for KTV session. Haha~ alright, it's been a long time since i sing. It's still a happy moment lar. Yupz, but another spoiler came!

Reaching home, in the train, thinking i may end the nite happily but at 12mn, a msg came saying it's urgent to call him! So what, i called lar, no it's not a birthday greetings but a complain - i.e. quarelling with my sis again! Arghh~ if u guys cannot get along then break lar, what's so difficult abt getting well with each other. Afterall, u both chose to be together rite? So since u choose to be together then why always complain about each other?

If u think she is getting too much, controlling your life and u really cannot get along with this life, then why hold on to this r/s. Think of the long term!

Then if u feels that he is working too much, neglecting u. THink about it, he is working k! At least he mind to work, and if u really cannot tolerate his workaholic behavior, then why are u holding to this r/s too? just break la, everyday quarel!

Damn it, u guys quarel then quarel lar, why always involve me in! I need my sleep too k, i have my own probs k, 1st thing in the morning quarel, last thing before sleep also quarel!

Hey, please do that somewhere else n not in my room where i am trying to get my peacefull sleep. I have a long day too k.

Come on my birthday, things were better but lotsa loads to handle. Just when i am about to leave the office at 8pm, here comes a call telling me that there is changes to be made in the welcome letter! Damn it. i had completed everything and about to bring down the letters! So what, i have to redo everything and this delay another half hour of mine! I am suppose to be leaving early! But i am still stuck in the office at 8pm!

Argh~ my buddy also very good, left me a pile of welcome letters to do.

Enough of all these complains i really wish for a smoother year ahead.

N Kanneth better get our questionaire ready. U had delayed giving us the questionaire for a wk, being MIA ... duh ... lecturer only knows how to talk big these days i suppose. better extend our project date line!

2006-11-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

Finally NRA had her 1st production! 3 Cheers to everyone who is part of this Big family! Really touched by the efforts put in. You guys did NRA proud! Indeed, the family size is getting bigger and bigger. Once, there was less than 10 guys and only one guy in Sam's batch but now, look!!! We have more guys. Haha~ gals more for you to choose form now.

The event has finally successfully ended. Everything runs smooth except some technicals problem in the midst. especially at the last part when Daphane is singing a song and the pictures are suppose to run at the projector screen, to create the "touched" " emotional" effect BUT the laptop went out of battery and the screen went blank!

Nonetheless, i bet everyone had enjoyed themselves and the friendship bonds would be stronger than ever!

Yupz, met Mr Thomas Tan and Mr Chia Mia Chiang - the Principle of Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Gosh~ he had aged alot! i still remember the last time i met him was during my graduation... sigh~ time passes.

Ann was sitting beside Mr Chia, haha~ so no choice got to face her anyway. Feel so embarrassed seeing her again. Yah, i drop out of the production without informing her, how rude i was rite? Anyway, she is still my role model in life! My inspiration to dance!

Not forgetting to mention about Yutaki! Yupz, he is one guy who i owe to. He is the one who encourage me to dance, to train me privately, a training for me which others does not have - one-to-one training and that time i really feel like crying because he was so strict. But i must thank him, becas he is the one who made me realise what dance is about, and what is the meaning of putting in energy to dance, the power, the different body parts we must use to express ourselves and the lines to be specially particular about when dancing. He is the man!

Seeing all the familiar faces, friends who i had dance and cried with, friends who had shared the happinest and saddest moments with me, friends who had gone thru' the difficult times when we tried to dance and compete in our yr1 time when we had no instructors! Friends ...

The production finally ends 3hrs later, and my emo getting worst ...

Taking the bus, the same old journey, riding at this late hours - when normally our dance would ends. Having the trip alone wasn't good at all, NP might have change much but not the route, not the scenery. Images which had lost long ago start flashing back.

My first and last time dancing with him on the stage was during Yutaki's time. We were dancing to JTL - My lecon. Yup, one of my favourite dance then. That was also one of the widest nite we had in the club house. =) ... The time when we tried to climb over the school gate at nite. The time when you bought me tibits to munch when i was doing my projects in school, and waited for me to finish my project and send me home. The time when you had me to complete my project while i'm asleep in your bed. The time when you scolded me. The time when you scream at me. The time when you speak up for me. The time when we spent in Merichie reservior - me trying to catch the squrriels. The time when you surprises me with the peach cheesecakes. The time when we waited for each other online - waiting for each other to go offline. The time ... there were countless times of memories i wished for and stay true ... but fate does not allow ... we all still have to move on ...

Moving on ... at home now, sitting infront of the computer, eating my cup noodles, i wish i had disappear ... i wish i would not have to go thru' this emo confuse states.

Sigh~ what a bitch i m ... writing on another guy while there is another guy out there embracing me with his love... yet i m yearning for another ...

2006-11-11T08:52:00.000+08:00

I am still too young to understand love?

Hek, search me, my mood really swings. I dunno what I want in life, or rather life of love?

Sigh~ after the failure one relationship, it's really hard for me to fall in love again. Yes, i am having a very nice boyfriend now, always doting on me, showering me with all his love, blah blah blah. But, the more care i am receiving from him, the more guilty I am.

ARghhhh, kill me please!

Reason being, i still look back to the past. Nope, i dun wan to. But the images just pop out. It's a spam! It's a spyware! I bloody need a anti-spyware software or block pop ups software in me!

My birthday is coming, but i am not reserving the actual day to be celebrated with him. I planned with all my friends but him. I am being so unfair to him.

Sigh~ .. a confused state of mind.

God, please tell me what am i suppose to do? You are driving me crazy. For one mintue you made me crazily in love with him. For the next, you make me loosing interest and feeling.

Lost and confuse ...

2006-11-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

It's Networking paper tomorrow.

Oh GOD! I did my best. I read the text this time. Pleaaaase help me to pass beautifully, can?

Seriously, i have more mood to revise today and i really mug hard the whole day! BUT, i don't understand what i had really read. I mean Networking is not my strength at all, not to mention about theory stuff to me! Hell~ Really regret takinga triple major with this.

Anyway, it's the prelude of the Superstar today. Lolx, why is there people who are so thick skinned to actually join such competition when they know that they are not up to it?

On the other hand, we should applause for their courage.

Well~ guess everyone remembered the tuition teacher who sang "gu dan bei pan jiu" last yr? Haha~ her singing skill had improved! really, at least not as mono.

Saw a couple of commercial on the Vivo GV cinema! Gosh~ i wanna go there! I wanna try the Goal class! .. dear dear i'm waiting... haha ... rather u are waiting for me lar .. it's me who is bz all the time ... sorry ...

Miss ya, mango

2006-11-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

Guessed i am really at my max.

My results are really getting worst. From term1 till now, every month my marks seems to be getting lower and lower and hopfully i would still be able to survive by end of next Mar.

Sigh~ please enlighten me ... how can i score better? Feeling really a waste of money and time, i should be doing better isn't it? I mean i've been thru these modules or rather most of it and should be good at them. Sadly, i am scoring worst than my poly days ... helpppppp

Really whacked...

Swarmed... i'm swarmed .. i need a break!

2006-11-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

Was made to come online after school by my dearest lau pa ... yah .. made to remove certain content from my previous post.

Guess i really screw up my market research paper today. Dunno what am i doing, reading all the wrong questions. Take for example, the question asking which is false, i read as true. And this does not appear for one question but to all of those which is asking for false. Sigh~ i'm not in the state of mind to do anything. Really need a break.

A short post today, sitting here all drowsy, the medicine is taking effect. Yupz, with this drowsiness i shall sleep better.

I need my mango ...

2006-11-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

Setting a record!

This is my 3rd posts today! .. yupz, dinner is sumptuous today! ... CRAB! yuppie, after 3yrs of wearing braces, i have not had crab for a long time and finally i can eat all i want today!

Wee~ this is fun.. yeah, eating eating eating ... enough of rattering in this blog ... i had eat all complains away ... yup, they shall be disjested and soon to be sh*t out .. yeah ...

gone .. gone gone to the poo ...

Why am i always got so bother with such missy stuff? hur hur hur ... come on .. life is much better than getting angry with all these ... or why get hurt? is it worth it to feel so emotion for pple who doesn't care for u? and make pple who cares to be worried over you?

Neh .. not worth it .. little Shanice shall live life to the fullest ... yupz .. i am all happy again ..

Lau pa .. i noe u are finding to chance to ask me what happen .. dun worry .. ur daughter is strong .. nothing will defeat her .. she will walk out of her life and be ur happy little daughter again ... just faster get me a lau ma can le .. i dun mind a *** to be my mama one ..haha

tsk tsk tsk

2006-11-01T18:39:00.000+08:00

The inner voice

Evil: they are just another group of friends

Angel: but they are the one who i grow up with ..

Evil: yah ... but where are they when you need someone to talk to?

Angel: not really .. jo and yun were there after my 1st breakout with jon

Evil: was that their last time? How about being there for you for the past two years .. when u are trying so hard to find back urself?

Angel: *dumbs* but yun was there for the 1st few moments during those times .. jo was aware of it too ..

Evil: so what? did they cont'd to check on u .. asking if u are ok? do u think they care?

Angel: i dun no ... perhaps they are buzy with their own lifes too ... they might have their own problems

Evil: not the case, my dear ... so what if they are bz .. they can easily sms u asking if u are ok ...

Angel: ... ...

Evil: what's more .. they had been to several blading outings and they nv ask u along ..

Angel: .... ...

Evil: further to it ... u were having dance classes with yun rite? did she inform you about this? though she did mention that she has been going roller blading with her friends ... yah yah .. her friends ..

Angel: but she might be going with her friends who i dunno

Evil: u really think so?

Angel: sigh~ ... ...

Evil: she say u are so loving with ur bf .. dun need pple to accompany ... but is she aware that u do have ur difficult times that u need ur "sisters" to be there too? further to it .. are they aware of what u have gone thru' .. are they aware of ur everything?

Angel: sobz

Evil: recently they went to vivo city... though it's last min .. does it give them an excuse not to ask u along? they went for bintan trip ... did they ask u along? they have been planning for a couple of trips .. did they inform you ...

Angel: yah they did tell me

Evil: yah rite .. only tell u at the last min when they are already planning ... so what does this action telling u ... it does not matter if u are able to go .. or not .. cas you are not in the mind when planning ... cas u are not important! .. u dumbo .. can u wake up!

Angel: she say this is not friendship is about .. why are u so pity?

Evil: this is not about pity .. ok .. u talk about friendship .. so yesh .. friendship .. why are are included except u??? think about it ... can u just wake up ...

Angel: *still dumb*

Evil: yup .. she is just talking about friendship .. but a friendship also has a measure to it ... a "hi bye" friend .. or is she saying "sisterhood" .. ha ha ha .. bet she is referring to just a mere "hi bye" friendhip! ...

Angel: CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP!!!

Evil: fine fine .. i leave u to think about it .. but dun bear too much hope in this "friendship" which does not last .. u can see .. it is drifting away from you .... u will see .. . u will see ... i will laugh at u ...

Angel: damn it! f*ck off! ..

2006-11-01T15:48:00.000+08:00

This may not be the 1st time i'm blogger about this. But it is really something i wish i can get out of it!

Many of us have friends who we had met since primary school and remained close even now. For me, i guessed this friendship had lost long time ago.

I am only contacted if they need or require me to do something. Otherwise, i am just left out. Alright fine! So what if i have boyfriend??? WTF. Stop assuming that i am happy with my life now and boyfriend is the only person i wish to be with k!

I had done my part to contact u gals and asking you all out. But always i am rejected. What's the reason? Can u gals enlighten me!!! Nevermind complaining here, cause i believe i won't be heard. I Swear.

Shall i make it a point that this is my last blogging about my complains of your gals. and i shall just lead my life without you all anymore. No more sistershood i meant.

You mention that i am always bz with boyfriend, HELLLO ... i stress what about the periods when i am single. Never am i included in you gals activities!

Seriously, i guess this friendship is meant to be forgotten and i shall not interfere with you gals anymore. I shall be stranger to you all and just a "hi bye" friend would do.

My feelings now? Hurt ... really hurt... stop being nice infront of me only and exclude me in all activities and only include me to fill the head count. I'm off!

Back off ... bye!

I have other friends who are there for me and understand me better. Reason is simple, because they care. Not a bunch of sh*ts!

Enough is enough, so what if i'm tearing now. I will take it as fate does not allow me to enjoy sisterhood.

My birthday this year shall be special. Becas it would be the 1st time celebrating without you gals. ANYWAY, celebrating my birthday is just a chore to you all... nothing special.

Ignore my previous posts on these SISTERs. Because the feelings wasn't geninue at all! I'm feel more of an outsider being with them. If "partner" you claims that will is with me where-ever i go, reason is simple, i shan't hide here. It is because i know, if i join you gals for any activities alone, i would be left in my own world. You gals would be buzy chatting about the incidents which you all had and leaving me unknown and speechless, cas i can't add on to anything.

Stop all this bullsh*t saying what sisterhood. Neh, i'm just an "extra" who you gals pity. Will is ask to accompany me in these birthday celebration is becas i noe i would be left out and with him around i noe he would be able to accompany me and there to lend me a shoulder to cry on immediately any celebration.

Never will i ever forget my 19th celebration. Yes, i cried, jon was there to comfort me. He is the only person who noes why i cried on that very day. You gals didn't even make an effort to greet me a "happy birthday". dun even mention talking about celebrating with me.

That's all, i have enough, perhaps i should just make up my mind to delete all you gals contact to reframe myself from contacting you all.

2006-10-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

What am i doing now?

I'm missing you ~ mango. Hmmmm, ever since u started working, the time we spent is getting lesser. Sigh~ how i wish you are here now to hug me. Miss you lar. Stupid boi!

Anyway, finally managed to spent some time together yesterday. Thanks for always being there for me dear. =) Hate the feeling of waking up in the morning realise that you have left my place already.

To me, the most blissful moment in life would be waking up finding your love still asleep beside you. It's hard to describe the feeling. But really, i love the moment watching him sleeping so soundly. Haha, alright with little lucky in between us. Yah man, lucky hate it when he is staying over at my place, and he will try all his might to squeeze in between us to make sure that i am hugging him instead of mango. Haha~ looks how the man fight over a gal? keke

Buzy week would be starting soon. Have you guys completed your project? Submission on thursday yeah. The project is pretty easy this time. Hmm, not much of complains from me rite? Haha~ ok ok it's one of my fav. unit though. Yupz, wonder if i am able to get a job as a market researcher? or maybe event planner? hmmm

Anyway, according to my schedule, thursday would be Market Research Assignment 1 date due and also the questionaire for part 2 of the project. To add on, it is also our mid term paper. Yupz, and i have let time to just slip away like this - blogging over here. Haha~ Need time to relax too rite? Afterall, i've been working so hard over the weekdays. Time to give my body and mind of their own. I can't be selfish rite? They have been working so hard for me, they need to rest too.

So come to Saturday, would be project discussion for Networking - bluetooth secuity. Yupz, another pretty straight forward project. Hek hek hek

Thereafter, would be going mango's grandma's place for her birthday celebration. Kinda nervous. Yupz, have not met any of his relatives before. Er i mean his paternal side. Oh yah, i would be going back to my younger place - my late nanny's block. Perhaps i should just walk pass that corridor again. I miss her! Dear's grandma stay on the 14th floor while my nanny's on the 9th. It would definitely brought back some memories.

Since dear is bought up by his grandma, we have been talking if we actually met since young? Haha~ perhaps we had been making funnie faces to each other in lift before. Keke~ definitely we had i guessed. We were neighbours once afterall. Haha~ dear i really wonder did we actually play with each other when we were younger? Maybe at the playground downstairs? Or even sitting next to each other eating kway teow soup? Haha .. how about waiting for our turn to see doctor? Hmmm~ what about ... omg omg ... i really wonder who are you? Have we ever met before during our young days? I really hope so!!! It would be so fun discovering rite?

Next Sunday would be going tiong barhu market with mummy and dear. Yupz, mummy ask him to come along since today he didn't join us for Vivo city. Haha~ i think mummy miss him more than me. 1st thing she wake up was to ask where is Mr William! -_-"' always ask me where is he on a Sunday morning. Aiyo, he need to spend time with his parents also rite?

Ok dear ~ u got no choice but to stay over next saturday nite after ur grandma's celebration ok. Mummy wants you ... haha~ though lucky would not be happy. But nvm i will satisfy him. Haha~ why not u buy him some milk hmm no snacks for him k.

2006-10-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

Vivo city so DAMMMMMMN coooool! So big, so nice, so spacious!

Hur hur hur gonna visit it again when it is officially launched. Har~ mango n i lost our way inside, walking in circles. Keke, omg omg so many shops there. Topshop, Zara, Mango,Espirti,etc all there! Oh yah and my favourite Candy Empire! wahaha, now we need not go to Millenium Walk for the CHOCOLATES! Wahahaha, i can go to Vivo city get my chocolates! Yummy yummy ... nonetheless of cause, i had bought some chocolates lar. Bleah!

Looks like our focus group is getting somewhere, questions has been approved by our tutor and lecturer. Hence we gonna start the real thing tomorrow. Hope everything turn out well. Sigh~ no more playing till the final exam for this term. I pray~

Anyway, just a little caricartures (not sure how to spell it) done up during our visit to the Vivo city. Quite a rough work though, but still quite like it. =) it's the content that counts rite?

Erk... i look like a Man lor ... so er xin!

2006-10-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

Eve of Hari Raya Pusa!

True enough, there wasn't much phone calls. Yupz, the whole sales team was buzy with updating the fidelio. Sigh~ It is impossible for all of us to complete by Wednesday lar, lau zhong more time pleaseeee. Poor Wenndie doing alphabet "S" ... it's the killer alphabet!!! Hur hur hur her sales coordinator better help her leh.

Nvm, once i finish mine will definitely help Portia and Jess! Haha, Portia would be on course on both monday and wednesday. Sigh~ how would she be able to complete? Jia you jia you!

Yupz, project discussion is good today. Though there is only the three of us. But it was fruitful and everything goes smoothly. Shall complete the moderator guide by tomorrow morning and send to the lecturer. Hopefully this time round would get favourable respond yeah.

ALright, shall turn to bed early today. Need ample rest for tomorrow to work on my tutorial.

2006-10-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

A simple day - staying at home

Woopie! Finally a new blogskin! Finally can change my blogskin! Hek hek hek, this is simple yet cute. Hur hur hur ...

Yupz, after been sneezing since dunno which day, i am always enduring and telling myself not to fall sick. & Yesh! Finally, i manage to fall sick yesterday. Yupz, sleep the whole day, having difficulty to breath and enduring the menses cramp. So poor thing. Haha~ but then, i am still sleeping like a pig! Hwahaha .. too bad it's not raiing, otherwise it would be so much more shiok.

Monday - the eve of Hari Raya Puasa, hmm Boss say it should be quieted tomorrow, so we can start cleaning up our system and do more paper work. I hope so yah, so dun anyhow call Orchard Hotel Sales Dept tomorrow hor! haha ..

Hor hor hor ... i very good gal today, did 1/2 of my Market Research Tutorial. Shall continue on Tues on the rest. Monday would be discussing on our MR proj, and i guess we would be able to start on our Focus group on Thurs. Arghh~ we are so lag behind. Other groups have already started. Jia you jia you!

Yupz, what's the feeling of patching a friendship? ask me ak me! haha .. wee~ of cas good lar ...

Jo leng n yun, u all good, go Vivo city nv jio me! Hmph! but even if jio i also cannot go. Hahaha, i sleeping at home. Then today do tutorial.

Wahaha, seriously not hungry though i have not eaten for the whole day. Alright alright, got eat abit lar. Got "jian kueh" - the pink triangle kueh? haha .. then some mushroom tibits .. yupz that's all. Since mango offered to buy me dinner. Haha~ why not rite? Dun feel like eating though, but i wanna see him. Hek hek hek, the most make him finish up the food. Wahahaa

WoooHooo, i've drawn up my schedule for the next two months. Haha~ mainly are the studies schedule. Yuppy so much work. So happy. Yupz, i'm blessed that i got study and work. Yeah~ zhen kai xin.

Haha, siao!

But need to self psycho!

Ok ok ... time to rest lor .. yuppie

2006-10-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

It's our 4th month! haha ... tick tick tick .. the time passes, we had started our 1st project discussion for this term yesterday.

YES!! my exams just ended only .. well~ this is the life of getting an advance degree, what to do? Triple major somemore ... so those who are still considering studing .. please think carefully ah .. if can it is still the best being a full time student!

Anyway, went m'sia with mango yesterday. Bleah~ got cheated. Taxi driver say is 18ringgit to Jusco, end up i gave him 50ringgit and only got back the change of 22ringgit. Arghh~ anyway, just be blessed that we are safe in and out of m'sia lar.

Mango bought a pair of jeans while i got myself two tops from FOS. weee~ always got good bargaine there! Yupz, and mango stay over at my place .. hek hek .. so happy!

On the express coach ... woah~ the traffic was terrible yesterday! We took more than 2 hours to got in! Hell lor ... look at my swollen eyes .. really sleepy and tired from work, yet till got to wake up early to meet up for proj and accompany mango to m'sia. Whatever it is ... i enjoy the trip!

Our 4th month meal! hek hek, alright, maggie noodles, cheese susage, garlic and chilli susage, heart nuggets, ikan billis and campbell soup! hek hek hek .. a simple meal but filled with heartfelt and warm. Those who know me well, they will know that i really can't cook well ... yupz, a love dinner prepared by myself and mango!

While we are having our love meal ... lucky had his too! haha ... poor him got to put on diet control .. all thanks to mango who fed him 3 meals aday .. and now he is certified overweight again ...

After dinner, that was about 9pm, we exchange our cards .. hek hek .. and look .. my pooh series again .. but this time the pooh look weird.. oh well~ this time dear did not use any picture to copy .. so yupz .. nevertheless i still love it!

and ta-da!!! specially drawn and design ... haha .. k lar .. dear say i always orh-pi-sai ... so this is me lar .. see my strawberry stut!

2006-10-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

Wat else? Buzy with work and school.... boyfriend start work, thus no time for me. Anyway, i'm too buzy to have time for him too.

Anway, "i will be nice if you know my limits. come on we are no little kids who need to tell on what to do ... some initiative plueeeaaaasssseee ..." duh ~ pissed, and thanks to Ms Cheng for ending my conversation with "pressing the B button" haha .. alright ... i noe i shall press on the buttons ALL the time and haunt them!

Yupz, no more playing, gotta start my engine for my projects. Exams are just a month a way ... that goes for 2 projects. Wee~ 2 exams n 2 projects to complete in 3 weeks time! hur hur hur ... GREAT huh! gotta work doubly fast work now so i can work on my convention group. Hmph!

Shall work on designing the card for my mango now ... buaiz

2006-09-30T09:19:00.000+08:00

Was dragging my feet to work this morning. Mind is full of thoughts. I'm lost, this feeling has been with me for quite some time, which i believed most have.

Sigh~ what would i really want to work as? Sigh~ what love life really is? Perhaps, one would only love one is lifetime. Others would just be a passerby.

Endless thoughts crawling all over me. Really affects my mood to work.

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yaps, there is why i look forward to working on saturday! haha .. food cheers my day!

yummyy....

2006-09-29T00:10:00.000+08:00

Finally one term is down. Yupz, left with another 2 more terms to grad. Sigh~

23.09.06 - Eric's Wedding!
Yupz, my ex colleague from Singapore Power had held his wedding at M Hotel. Hah~ our sister hotel. Well~ looking been to there i think Orchard Hotel is still better. In terms of the layout of our ballroom ... hmph! our is still much better. The most important thing is that our ballroom is pillarless, hence everyone can get a clear view of the stage and not be block by the stupid pillar. Below are some photos taken ...

Mango send me to the wedding dinner after Grandma's birthday celebration at uncle's place.

The gals ....

The Chmapage Fountain!!!

the four of us ...

The gals again ...

Our table ...

26.09.06 - Last day of Exam
Finally, it's the last paper - Advance E Commerce. Ask me how well have i fair? haha, simply i just hope for a pass. Really! This term is really a drag. Projects all the way and finally last proj is submitted on 23rd sept - we had our exams on 23rd sept, mind you! So much can we expect rite?

Groupie ... hek hek hek nice?

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Have you got their album 1? Yeah ... it's hot rite? Grab their album 2 at all HMV outlets now!

Afterwhich, we had our dinner at fish & co. And i got my New York Fish & Chip!!! Yummmilicious!

Ah car and Ah Joyce with her scissors pose

Jason with his Shakie Freeze .. haha rather the leftover shakie freeze for his punishment!

28.09.06 - Start of new term
Hmph! &#*&%)#(*% lost $50 yesterday. Sigh~ dunch wanna repeat the story. Anyway, that shall just teach myself a lesson for being so careless, leaving my wallet on the table, trusting that no one will be so dishonest.

First lecture was Market Research, the lecturer is good, but kinda strict. Well~ again Market Research is not a simple subject, hence he is just acting for our good, yeah. From what he had said, is giving me more urge to chase after my dream of working in the marketing line. Yupz, not sales, more of the research and planning which i am interested in. Events planning, i don't mind too.

Sigh~ i'm still in a delima of my routes ahead. Stay and get advance career path? Or chase after my dream to become a sucessor marketer?

Finally a photo of my bao bei ... my darling ... he is the only one ...

2006-09-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

Moody all day long ... no mood to revise for exam at all. Sigh~ it's AEC ... Ecommerce .. sigh~ dunch noe what am i thinking!!! Shanice wake up!!! .... stop dreaming and get back to reality! ...

Arghhh~ i hate this! i hate this! ... somemore i wish i can just go for a "brainwash" service? Hak~ i bet everyone would be willing to pay for such service if available rite? Some things are ought to be forgotten ... but it just stays .. why? Damn it!

they are memories afterall ... why am i so bothered by it? Why ??? Why???? Why??? ...

Going down at my emotional side .. i wish i am able to accept the reality ... and accept the fact ... and stop deceiving myself ... arghhh~ ..

Go away!

2006-09-16T14:20:00.000+08:00

16.09.06 ---- Project day!

Another weekend gonna burn by project! Yes~ finally we are in the last phrase of projects! Finally ... it's gonna be over soon. Next Saturday this time, i have step out of the exam hall ... shld be at our regular spot eating our handmade noddles! Hek hek .. n cath will be having one small bowl while eating.

Went shopping for a dress for Mr Eric's wedding! Omg! I'm feeling fat ... looks like i got no more waist .. my waist is like getting so rough? now .. er ... sucks ... anyway i got a red dress ... i like it! but have not gotten my shoe n accessories to match it. Should be going after proj tmr ba!

Yupz yupz, watched little man last nite too ... haha ... a funny show ... really ... but again .. i doze off on certain part of the movies ... yah .. tired tired tired .. i'm whacked! Screaaaaammmmm!

Look at the gigantic candy floss! ... a day out at excape theme part last month ...

Look!!!! who i got here ... It's Pooh pooh!!! .. Mango drew it! nice nice??? hek hek hek ... my great artist wat... of cas nice rite?

Pooh pooh on the tread! ... wee .. so nice .. he actually use a real tread for texture n 3D effect .. love it! love it!

Finally .. it's us again! Hmmm ... thanks for accomodating to our buzy schedule .. =)

2006-09-12T07:16:00.000+08:00

Finally ... this term is coming to an end.

One proj down yesterday.

2 more to go ...

2 exams on its way for its visits too ...

sigh~ i'm going to snap any moment

Argh~ my weekends are burnt ... n i can't get my rest at all ... i've working 24/7

My heart can't go at ease when i am asleep

I've thinking of what to do next

Sigh~ this is really getting tough

Results turn out to be sucky ... just a manage pass

Striving for a Distinction isn't my goal anymore i guess

I just pray i can pass peacefully for every term

Perhaps ... this is what makes part time degree so tough

We don't aim for good results but a pass

Yah ... we just hunger for the paper

Alright ... enough of boring sch work

Mango finally got a job and might be starting work next week

Which means ... i will get lesser attention from him

=( this current situtation of him waiting for me to go sleep everynite before going home would be ending very soon ....

Sigh~ well .. at least he got a job now we can start our saving plan.. yupz ...

Hmmm ... i wonder what would life be after graduating ...

My post is getting boring .. yah ... i got no life now! i need to enjoy

where is my mahjong game? where is my sun tanning schedule? where is my roller blading fun? where are all these man? Arghhhh~ i need my social life too ... i wanna meet up my gal pals! I'm feeling all guilt cas i always got no time to shop for present or even gathering but just chipping in money .. sigh~ i miss all these ..

2006-09-01T07:35:00.000+08:00

Thinking of making good money?

Thinking of making side-line?

Thinking of making easy money?

Thinking of what you can do during your free time for extra cash?

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2006-08-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

After lunch! Yummy yummy ... i got yumi yogurt after lunch!

Sigh~ forget about yesterday's presentation! Bish* At least we had did our best in understand and presenting the case. Well~ the case is not to our benefit anyway. I mean, the questions are set by him and therefore he knows well on what answer he wants for the presentation. Besides, the questions aren't any relevant to the case at all. Duh~ you are the best lar - happy?

Anyway, one down and 3 more projects to go! Jia you!

Hmph~ lesser work load now. Yah .. but i foresee more to come again. The groups are coming in again. Sigh~ but i will learn as much as i can over here! Hmmmm .. can't wait to grad.

Eric's wedding is drawing near, so what am i going to wear? Argh~ i hate this. Spending money to buy a dress, giving money for the wedding. Hai~ easily $100 is gone. So what else? Macy's wedding is in Oct, yah~ ... Mango's cousin wedding in Dec and Serene's wedding is in Dec too.

So many red bombs!

Alright back to work~

2006-08-22T12:42:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for quite some time.

Finally the ballroom launch is over. Finally the IMF letters have been sent out. Finally... finally ..

Now, it's the auditor check. Sigh~ so many filing and follow up to do.

BUT, i still wanna blog out my inner voice. I need to breath! I need to take a break. My plan to go M'sia on 19th August was runied. Projects, projects, projects ... sigh~

really hope, on the 1st Sep i'll be able to go M'sia for a nite stay. Get myself away from this familiar land for some time.

Well~ though i m happy with my current job, but still not satisfy. Hmmm, still want to try my dream job ever since i got into Dip in Marketing, wats more to say when i'm doing it for a degree now.

I want to event planning, brochures design, talking with people, etc. Yesh marketing, doing reserach and so on. Any lobang?

Hmmm, staying in this job does not mean bad as well. At least overhere, i know that the career path has been set for me. My bosses are trying to train us hard to cultivate us into one of the sales people. But is this really wat i want? Always stress about meeting sales quota?

I had it in CTB. The money is good. Satisifaction only comes when u meet the quota. Yupz, the time pass fast too. But what is the real meaning behind it? Sigh~

I really don't know what i really want to do in life. The path ahead seems so mist and foggy. Where am i actually heading to? I hate this feeling of lost.

In half a year time, i would graduate. So m i going to cont'd to stay or shld i start looking for another job?

Staying here i know i will get my promotion and i will get a raise in pay. But my degree will not come in handy and no point doing my degree rite?

Going elsewhere, my degree would come handy, i may get a marketing exec job, but the pay may be lesser. Is this wat i want?

Arghhh~ headache!

2006-08-09T12:27:00.000+08:00

Happy National Day, Singapore!

It's 41yr old le! Haha .... it's the maturity age only! We are still young .. still growing! Yeah~ come on people ... let's stand up for SINGAPORE! May our country be peace, harmony and prosperity! World peace!

Yups ... it's 12.25pm, we just finished our online discussion on 2 proj. Gonna work on the other 2 project now ... after this 2 gonna work on the presentation with boon n another which is Interational marketing 2! then exam le ... woah~ tough tough ... but i will edure on!

Some photos time ... my east coast trip with mango n sara ... hmmm quite some time back le ... almost a mth ago ... yupz ..

Sara n mango making funnie faces ~ hek hek ... i love this pic .. cute rite?

haha ... well they are trying to tickle each other .. bleah .. mango u loose lar ..

i love this pic too .. nice exposure of the light .. well taken ..

obviously sara doesn't like taking pic with me .. she prefer mango .. =/

Alright .. she love the sea ... hek hek .. mango u are wet! .. serve u right

Little sara on the ferry wheel with mango .. nice pic! It's using Sony ericsson for this shot .. hek hek .. good huh ..

So finally i got to meet up with my ctb colleagues! Yeah~ i've grown up. No longer small gal le, though they are still treating me as a young gal. Yupz, i love these people ... We had sumputous meal at si chua tou hua resturant at Plaza Parkroyal .. hmmm somehow i feel that their service std had dropped, compared to 2 yrs back. The food is still as tasty. Yummmy ... too bad lar, i nv take the pic of the food, too busy eating.

hmmm ... mango .. shld have sit nearer wat .. steff won't eat u .. bleah .. but still see everyone is so happy altogether! .. myron myron .. what's that twist sign? haha .. it's suppose to be my signature pose!

another table .. yupz ... see my team leader peggy came too! Hek hek .. everyone is happy together .. so nice feeling .. a good gathering ...

Hmmm ... this is sure a heart warming feeling .. seeing everyone together .. updating each other of our life ... so nice .. so sweet .. Serene has slim down so much .. hmmm no wonder pple say ... a gal becoming a bride is always the most beautiful moment of her life .. looking forward to her wedding in december!

Well~ everyone ... enjoy life k .. i will plan for more gathering if possible .. when i'm not so tight with project .. hek hek .. perhaps to somewhere cheaper liaoz ... we are no longer the times when we have higher pay le .. but most important is to enjoy ...

2006-08-06T02:59:00.000+08:00

Well well... i've been blogging for more than 2years and never did i expect i would be doing a project on blog. Gosh~ it's not easy yah ... there is so much more to learn about blog.

Hmmmm .. so how exactly does blog influence buisness processes? Can a business actually survive with just a blog? Do blog n e-commerce complement each other? hmmm i wonder ... still lots of research to go.

It's 2.57am now .. mango is alseep .. guess i should be joining him shortly. My vision is getting blur...

Work is still as busy or rather even more busy then ever. There's never ending to it. Just when i've thought i had completed 9 proposal in a day .. gosh my records so far ... i gonna prepare welcome letters for 3 groups coming in ... 3 damn groups!!! ard 100 welcome letters ... bleah ... finally completed these 3 groups .. comes another 2 next week! hmph! never ending ... and fidelio has not been cleaned yet .. . where's the time to do it? duh ~ n now .. got to clean the database? BBC invitation? Marina accounts? telemarketing training? banking letters? citibank presentation? 1 project down, 1 to be submitted by 12mn later .. and 4 more to go ... ooosh~ jia you!

Happy with my life now ... glad mango is treating me like a princess ... yupz ... glad time had healed me ... though mistakes had been committed .. but it's all in the past ... yah .. i've been weak .. n the experiences had caused me to be stronger .. yeah again .. thank you for hurting me and allowing me to be strong n be loved like now .. hek hek .. duh .. well~ not blaming u ... we were young then huh .... well~ there's sweet memories though ... but the hurt is never .. i repeat never ever to be forgotten .. i was left in the dark n cold .. i drew myself away from my friends ... myself from dance n etc. reason being .. i dun wanna get involved with things which involved u ... but the comments spread from u ... i'm weak ... yeah so wat if i'm weak ... bleah .. alright lar .. dunch noe why i'm feeling anger .. perhaps from reading something which reminds me of my pasts ... feel bad for her .. but nope .. not gonna get myself involved ... yeah ... be strong gal~ u will i noe~ ...

good luck pals for the upcoming projects! for those who saw mango's pic ... i noe he is cute lar ... thomas ... haha ... sorry he is not gay .. cannot lent to u lar .. haha ...

2006-07-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

Oooooohhhh ... my throat hurts ... everyone is sick~ arghhh ... going back to work .. tons of things awaiting me to clear. Wee~ yupz, i got it done in no time ... sigh~ however my fidelio is still a long way to go ... *dun disturb me on monday ah ... i wanna concentrate on my fidelio*

hek hek hek ... time to rest my eyes ... i'm seeing double vision despite having my spects on ... gooonnee .. to bed .. nitey pple

2006-07-25T07:26:00.000+08:00

Time hasn't been this rush before.

Gosh~ i've been staying late for work almost every day. Trying to do up the proposal, the confirmation contracts, the cleaning of fedelio? I haven't even cont'd my cleaning (last cleaned on friday) ... got losta to go ...

Arghh~ there's like so many many things to do this week ... my body would be malfuntioning very soon ... i gonna get depression soon ... gonna get nerve breakdown soon ... arghhh~ sometimes things which other can do and dun need to wait to come to me .. dunch understand pple must always wait ... hai~ initiative??

Alright~ assignments to be due ...

Advanced e-com project - next monday~ haven't start
Internation marketing project - next saturday - all members started their reserach except for me
Telemarketing training for my dept - haven't do up the training notes yet ...
Fedelio cleaning by this week - i need 2 full day to do it .. yes meaning for 9 to 9pm i guess ...
Mango's birthday next tues ... i doubt i have time to prepare anything ...

Arghhh~ i'm going crazy! i wanna scream! ...

2006-07-16T10:59:00.000+08:00

Alright ... finally a time to slowly update about my life. Hmmmm ... alright ... i've been more workaholic these days .. yah ... been doing OT to get my things done .. well~ at least i see where i am heading to which is a good sign. No longer that confuse of why the need to do this and that and i finally got my documents properly filed. Haa~ somehow i guess i would be better being a sales manger .. my admin skill isn't that strong i guess .. but i can say i would be able to sell better then trying to organize my mangers. Hah~ a joke huh .. a messy person like me trying to organize others.

It's been a long time since i last update my blog with pics ... it's time now ... so i won't u guys getting bored with my blog ... there u goes ...

Sis's 18th birthday at club momo ~

that's me n mango~

yeah~ my favourite pic so far .. shuai rite? look kinda ABC

haha .. trying to be funny huh ...

we look spastic ... hur hur hur

vic's 22nd birthday! .. the 5 flowers again

that's us during ... haha .. the day before SM paper? ... hek hek hek

Yupz, that's about all ... enjoy ya sunday!

2006-07-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

Sigh~ pimples growing on the side of my nose ... it's painful can!

Well well~ just as i said i kinda feel like backing out from the dance ... i received a msg from my junior telling me that i'll be in another item as well .. hmmm shall go for dance tmr n see how ba ...

Alright~ getting a hang of my work now ... at least i know wat's the nextstep after a proposal been done n so on ... yupz, seeing a flow of it.

Finally soccer fever is over. SO is ur guess correct? Well~ i'm not into soccer though ...

It's almost a mth since we are together ... really happy to be with him .. but somehow ... something still bothers me .. really hope he can get a job soon ... yah ... hai~ sometimes really dun wanna think about .. he may or may not be the one i'll be marrying to rite? ... arghh~ but why can't he see the urgency of planning for his career path? Well~ k ... perhaps i'm more career minded .. i seeing every step of my working experience to be impt. which will guide me to the place i will be in the future. I plan to achieve a managerial position in 5 yrs time. sigh~ just wanna quickly finish schooling n get my cert n start concentrating on my career .. perhaps .. i m the kiasu one ... my friends are still in their comfort zone of their current job ... not planning for advancement or anything ...

hmmm ... shall sleep early tonite ...

2006-07-10T01:45:00.000+08:00

i dun see myself getting enthu into dance like before. I tot i was and i will be happy dancing like before. Somehow, the feelings is drifting away from me each time i step into the studio. I dunno why ... i just can't concentrate like before. I will be thinking of other stuffs such as what am i suppose to do 1st when i step into the office, what project is due soon ... wat am i suppose to do .. etc. All these are occupying my head now ... i really hope i can just concentrate on my career n work towards it. I wanna at least own a Silver credit card. Yah .. at least a 30k per annum income rite? wat pathetic pay i am getting now? Sigh~

I m glad mango has been accompanying me these days .. being by my side really comforts me ...
though u've telling me that i look ok .. but i still feel fat .. really .. a flabby tummy ... n a jumbo size thighs ... arghhh~ it's irritating me ... hai~

Alright ... gonna sleep .. nites.

2006-06-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

My revision for tmr's exam, officially starts today. Yupz, haven't study a single bit. Work till ard 8.30pm last nite. Trying to complete my task so that Zinmar will have a lighter load. Yupz, i've yet have time to do a propoer handover to her. Hopefully she understands what i've written on the handover list.

Yupz, finally went for a facial on Wednesday. Thanks, mango for accompanying me there. Without ya, guess i'll be lost in Sembawang already. Thanks for waiting for me while i'm enjoying my facial treatment n massage. Really thanks for all your patience. Yupz, i can't deny that i falling deeper into u more each day.

Mango, i'm sorry about the news of ur grandma. Sigh~ it was too sudden i guessed. We were making on our way to Sembawang Mrt when the call came. Hope you are doing fine. Must remember to drink more water k. Dun fall sick again, especially at these times when ur mum need ur support most, n also i won't be able to stand by u everyday ~ though i wish i could have been there to take care of u. Sigh~ stupid exam comes at the wrong time.

Hmmm, the news of u telling me that u wanna try for air steward kinda trouble me. I'm afraid of loosing u. The world of air crew is so complicated. & there's so many gals out there who are so much better than i am. Will u leave me when u actually got in? Sigh~ however, no matter wat i will still repect ur decision. Behind u always.

Just a day of not seeing u ... really making me go mad.

I need my victamin that can only be found in mango...

2006-06-27T07:16:00.000+08:00

Start of Official break: 30th June 2006
End of Official break: 4th July 2006

Nope, i'm not going for a holiday, but to revise for my upcoming exams. This really sucks when come to Interenational Finance. Really~ 3/4 of our time was spent on the 3 projects for Strategic Marketing! Hell-ho ... our project just offically ended on sunday. There would be tutorial today. Tsk tsk tsk, we are left with 3 more days to study. Hur hur hur, not 3 full days yah ... Wed n Thurs i'll be working .. Soooooo do you we will have the energy to revise after work? Hahaa ... Superwomen!

Alright, i am really going crazy with this buzy schedule. Really wishing for a break in a small island somewhere. I wanna go batam for the spa / massage or definitely the watersports. Hmmm or maybe Redang for good tann! Then can go diving! Arghhh~ i'm holding my diving license for sooooo long, yet i've not got chance to dive after getting it. Hmph! ...

Need a break~ need a break from the city!!!! OOiii fellow classmates .. we shall make our dreams come thru ok ... remember we planned for a getting out event hor. Yupz!

Alright~ many of u are super concern on my love life now hur! haha .. well well~ dunch worry ... he has been treating me very nice .. very well. The only guy whom i've known to have treated me like a queen! Really a queen! Making sure that i fell asleep before he goes home everynite = this is one good example. SO lao pa... can let ur heart down le hor. Ok ok ... shant' blog further. Gonna take a shower now to work!

Good luck peeps!

2006-06-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

Dunno why but i am so careless for my work. Sigh~ i will strive harder n be more careful now. Anyway .. it's the sianzness of the month. Exam is just round the corner n i've yet prepare for it. Well~ my classmates as well i believed. Everyone is bz rushing the projects. Duh~ there's so many projects each term n yet we gotta cope it with our exams.

Fully drained i guess. Even rechargeable battery also have lifespan rite?

2006-06-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

Yupz, that's the rite feeling baby~

Well~ do we call these conincidence?
hmmm ... ur granny stay in blk 576 n that's where my nanny's house was. Urs on the 14 floor while mine on the 9th. You skate along the corridor, likewise i did too. We have the same weird shape looking hand. Been saying the same sentence all the time ... been wearing the same color clothing ... looking at the same stuff while shopping ... trying to take the same thing our of the shelves .. gosh~ we are just so alike! haha ..

I just love being with u... haven't gotten this feeling for a long long time and will definitely treasure ya. Will not use my lady temper on ya .. never i promise .. i dun wanna loose u ... thanks for always cheering me up n guiding me the way ...

Sigh~ just hate the feeling whenever we gonna call it a day ... exams is coming n i won't get to see ya often .. meanwhile, just hang ard with ur friends n la kopi at amk S11 k ...

*muacks n hugs*

2006-06-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

Seriously wore out!

Sigh~ today didn't start off well. Kinda get lectured for doings wrong. Sigh~ miscommunication causes it. Alright~ i've learnt my mistakes, shall emailed to everyone in the future.

Thanks mango for cheering me up. =) keke ... yupz yupz, Congrats to ya~ finally a certified lifeguard le.

Wee~ really enjoyed the times spent with ya ... shall cont'd this way k ... =) miss ya ..

2006-06-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh~ no tedious exercise for 1 mth! Sheesh~ n my stomach will become even more flabby! Oh NOOoooo!!!

Keke ~ well gonna bear with a flabby stomach for the time being i guess... a little wound on my navel shld be worth it! keke .. yupz, finally got my navel piercing!!! GOsh~ has always wanted it since 18! .. yeah~ yuppie~ Thanks mango .. keke .. thanks for coin huh! haha .. Alright that lady really freak me out ... anyway it's over! It's done! I can go grab all nice mid-driff top .. haha .. n this shall act as a motivation to train on my tummy!

Alright~ today 06.06.06 - a day of the satanic babies are born! wee~ another movie to watch .. but this time round .. u gotta lent me ur shoulder le .. haha .. i will scream like mad!

the omen~

2006-06-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

Delighted! Excited! Happy! Nervous!

Keke ... i thought it would turn out to be a horrible date. I'm afraid we will feel awkard ... but afterall .. it went on sweet .. shall we cont'd this way? Hmmm .. smsing each other? ... Really tempted to lie on your shoulder .. hai~

Thanks for accompanying me to the PC fair. Yeah~ keke ..

1st time eating Muthu's curry. Yummy .. the fish head curry, the chicken soak in speacial marinated sauce, the garlic hann, the karopok! Yummy .. keke .. too bad we didn't order mango ice cream n juice! haha .. Oh yah ... remember to find mango malt candy also ba! haha

Hmmm .. so now we noe Jesus has a wife and also descendent huh? So shall we go hunt for the treasure map? Duh~

hmmm ... thanks for sending me home .. keke .. love ya pinky cheeks ... keke ..

hopefully this momentum shall not fade ... good nite

2006-06-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

Arghh~ i'm feeling so guilty!

Was on my way back after proj, n i was on the phone. This old man came after me and ask me for $. My 1st impression of him was - A Cornner!

Then he keep tapping on the side of my arm as i walk *still on the phone* n i shove him off! Yah i did that ... n he is just merely asking me for some coins so he can take a bus!

WTH is with me! Why am i so easily irritated! Why am i so cold blooded! He is old and poor ... n just $2 doesn't mean much to me .. but it worth a thousand to him! hai~ after a min .. *still on the phone* feeling the guilt, i turn to find him but he is no where in sight ... really puts me into guilt. I really hope he is fine now. Really~

I must really control my short temper. Why am i always so short temper ??? hai~

Hope tmr trip would be smooth too ...

2006-05-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

Sob sob ~~~ we failed...

keke ... it's expected. Well~ we all failed .. haha .. bleah only 1 person passed but it's by 0.5marks. Hmmm~ Anyway ... we just make sure we have a normal distribution for our probabilty curve on our exam marks will do .. erm perhaps slightly skewed towards the left .. haha yupz .. and also to make sure that it is a narrow bell shaped curve yeah .. like this he won't be able to fail everyone in the final result. keke

Yuppie, dance dance dance .. tmr got dance!

2006-05-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

PISSED* %&*(*&(@#)(*&#(*

Hmph! I've sent ya the msg informing of ur task but u didn't reply, hence it's naturally to trust u to know wat to do and know when's the dateline!

Well~ there's seriously no such thing as u dunno! wat is the schedule for? Duh~ ok ok ... fine .. then if u dunno when is the dateline, why didn't u reply after receiving my msg? N not wait till the last min when i msg u if u had submitted, then u ask! So that means if i didn't ask u, it would not be submitted ...

Hey! U aren't like this in the past! Where's the responsibilities of urs? DUh~

Pissed off~

2006-05-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

*yawns*

International Finance paper is definitely a gone case.

Definition more than calculation? Or should i say it's mainly definition for finance for the exam? Things which has not been covered in the tutorial is something we shld be prepare for exam? Hmmm .. ok ...

Just moody .. sleepy ... tired ... really ...

2006-05-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

Mango Icecream

Mango Pudding

Mango yogurt

Mango cake

Mango .... Yummy yumm ... the sweetest ..

2006-05-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

Job scope for tai-tai:

1) mahjong knowledge

2) high-tea

3) spa

4) massage

5) medicure n pedicure

6) shopping

7) Accompany husband for business functions such as D & D nite.

Hmmm ... working towards my career path: yupz, tai-tai wanna be. Hmph~ maybe shld change to wat jeannette said, to be sociallite! Another form of tai-tai but with respectable career!

Jia you wor~ Sop n Car ... in 10 - 20 years time we will be there. Haha~ mahjong, high tea, shopping n so on. Guessed, the guys wouldn't be able to join us for mahjonging then. Haha ..~

Reached home at 10.30am .. can't bring myself to sleep. Loads of thoughts. IF exam is on thurs yet i'm having difficulties to bring myself in the conducive mood to study. Will be touring ard the Hotel next week n gonna make sure that i remember everything - esp prdt knoweldge!

I'm glad the bosses here are nice people. Macy told me that she will ask the managers not to exert me with too much load during my exam period. Hence, i gotta tell her when is my exams. Yupz. I'm happy here, vonny n jean =).

I guess i will cont'd to go back for dance for mon n wed. Though my paper is on thurs. Hmmm .. i just look forward to dance every week. Really enjoy myself n all the sweats is worth it.

Just finish watching "qi tian da sheng" on channel 8, hosted by Jacky. The hip hop segment was really bad. The gals dun even have the techiques there. N seriously i think NRA is much better! I like the salsa, cha-cha, etc. N definitely the pole dance! All of a sudden i feel like learning pole dancing! It's so SEXY n SEDUCTIVE! Gosh~ n the longtime definition of bitchy does not stand anymore!

Hmmm ... maybe can ask Ann to include pole dancing in the production ah. haha~ guess the gals would kill me. Keke~

Looking forward to the day i graduate. =)

2006-05-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

*stress* dunno if it really is...

I'll be taking over Cass for the time being n that means, i'm gonna assist the Asst. Dir? Well~ though it was being said that this if for the time being. But Cass is the only person who noes wat to do n now i'm understudy of hers hence, i'm the next person knowing wat to do. So the possibility of having another cooridinator taking over this position is merely zero.

I will Gambate! I will be super woman.

Went for lunch at lido today. Gosh~ there's so many nice show i wanna catch. Thinking of it, i guess the last show which i watched was with S.Jon ba. N it was like 2 mths ago?

Hmmm ... looking forward to finish SM projects (2 at the moment) n IF exam next thurs. Jia you! Yeah n thereafter i can play. I need the sun, i wanna go beach to tann, i wanna blade. Oh yuppies, mango doesn't noe how to blade .hek hek hek ... gonna be his instructor leh ... duh~ as if i can blade very well. At least i can bal n blade lar. Not to the extend of doing stunts n so on.

Good nite ...

2006-05-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

Just a short post.

I'm happy. I'm excited. I'm contented. I'm satisfied.

Dance is getting better as the days passes. Dun feel so much like a bear anymore. =)

Yupz, mango's replies n sms is faster now. At least the leap time improved. haha ..

Oh yah .. he is currently undergoing lifeguard training. Cool~ hek hek .. =) u noe wat i'm thinking?? haha ...

Good nite ..

2006-05-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

Mister, may i have my mango cake?

Hmph~ well wat i can say abt mango?

lolx, remembering mum used to buy those mini mango for me. Yupz, those kind with the skin easily to be peeled off? n it's definitely S-W-E-E-T! Bet u guys definitely had tried it before. Yummmy, thinking of it, really feel like eating some.

Seriously, if i have the ability, really hope dad n mum can stop working. It hurts seeing them working till so late, coming home to bath n back to the bed again. Communication at home is getting lesser each passing days. All of us had grown up and we are working and bz with our own social lifes. But still when we are in needs, our hearts are still bonded! We may seems to be talking lesser ... etc but i believe we are still there for each other thru the hard times. Tmr is mothers' day, the 3 of us bought our dearest mum the oto trimax which comes with the massager. Hmmm~ though mum was saying that we are wasting our $, but i noe she wants it. She isn't as spend-thift like this. When we are better doing times, she will always provide us with luxury needs. Kids envy us. We have piano, we go for swimming lessons, we each owned roller blades, we have computers at home, we have televisions in every room, air-condition in every rooms, ..etc. Yupz, i'm glad both dad n mum had provided us with the luxury life when we were young. Thanks dad! Thanks mum! We love u!

We'll be celebrating mothers' day over at grandma house. It would be the usual buffet and catching up with cousins, aunts and uncles. There'll be more people adding into our family. Cousins bringing their bf/gf here. Yah~ We are growing in both ages and numbers! I m proud to be part of the Choo-family. I m proud that we are so homonious compared to others. For i noe, many of my friends dun even noe who their cousins, aunts and uncles were. And even they noe, they have difficulties remembering their names and birthdays. Haha~ well~ i have no prob with names but not birthdays. Only noe a handful of them. Haha~

Enjoy this special day with your family and love ones!

2006-05-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

In an hr n half time, vonny would be turning 22! haha .. happy birthday gal!

Hmmm .. *toots* why am i always hoping there is a msg on my phone??? duh~ n this morning the 1st msg i saw was that ---- tmr got proj!!! duh~ shi fu u better go eat pig's brain~~~ Luckily tmr i got no plans, if got i will kill u for sure! Hmph!

2006-05-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

Hmmm ... think i prefer jazz funk more. However, i've still yet open myself to really dance. Anyway, i still enjoy it. Yah~

Yupz, he was late for class so he was dancing behind me. Erm, somehow i wasn't as excited as before. Yah~ think i gave quite a f*ck up look. Er, not on purpose lar. Was kinda tired n i always got the f*ck up face wat. Haha~

Anyway, heard from vonny that mango has been asking abt me. Har~ for the instance when vonny told me abt it, i was like ... hmmm who is mango, and did i actually give anyone this nick? haha ~

Oooooohhhhh ... so that was mango! haha .. well~ was excited abt this new happening .. hek who is not rite, esp when someone is trying to find out more about u? Hmmmm .. still waiting for the sms ... bleah .. kuai dian xing dong lar! =x

2006-05-07T15:08:00.000+08:00

Finally 4 terms has past, n this is my 5th terms with UWA. Yupz, n i actually missed the lecture on saturday, nope, definitely not becas i got to go for voting. Hek, i was too lazy and due to that i overslept.

After chatting with the rest, we conclude that wat we are paying for aren't value for money. The lecturers (most of them) can't make it and that includes the tutor too. Well~ Moon Jong Cha' is my favourite of all. Not becas he is a korean, but i think he really teaches well. Yupz, Beaver is good too.

Enough of school, let's present our Emirates gal who is back for her bdae!

when we were in year 1 ...

the 5 of us ...

the 3rd child sydrome ...

happy birthday rasidah ... we'll miss u ..

hek .. me - emirates gal wanna be .. bleah ..

them agian ..

phoebe n rasidah

finally it's my turn .. i'm tired ...

Hmmm .. i wann fly too .. but i'm too short. Sigh~ wat else can i do yet i can always travel? I love traveling. Hmmm be a tai-tai? haha .. or rather socialite as wat being described by jeannette.

Mahjong session was canceled. Sorry car. Sorry shifu. Think shifu is the most sianz one ba .. dui bu qi .. didn't mean to let u guys wait so long. Really took me an hr to wait for a cab lor . Stupid cabbers. Haha~ well~ but lao pa .. all ur fault lar .. go watch wat movie. Hmph!

Alright shall blog till now. Waiting for han to call ... yippeee ... blading blading blading ..

2006-05-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

It's my 2nd post for today but ... i really want to make this post.

Blissed~ Smile~ that's my feeling now. I feel like i'm in heaven now & even if u ask me to go end my life now, i m most willing to. It's like i've completed my "last wish" living in this world.

Ahhh~ geri n sarina was stuck in the office even at 7.30pm today. Tsk tsk tsk, i went alone for dance reluntantly. But i noe i need to be consistent with my dance n shan't stop it again. Yah .. n so .. i got my usual bus sickness ... my head is spinning n eyes feel swell. As i walk on, seeing the studio getting nearer, i feel even more stressed, i wonder wat would ann teaches us today, will be doing turns across the studio again? Sigh~

Walk, walk, walk. This familiar soul waved n mouthed a "hi" to me. My vision wasn't very clear, slowly as i get nearer i see him. Yupz, it's him. Wordless. It's so comforting. Really. He used to be so cold towards me after that day. N since then, i m always afraid to see him. I'm afraid to see his "unhappy" face ... heck wat happened in the past. I noe i m happy now. Seriously happy. =)

Fastward .. going home with jenny n catrina. Soon i alight n waited for 147 to arrive at the same bus stop. Images of our 1st sentosa trip appeared. I see myself smiling blissfully. I missed those days. U noe the kinda feeling going out as a grp with ur crush around. Wat's more, realizing he actually has such an amazing body line. Gosh~ well-defined abs n muscles. It's something which u nv expected. U just crushed on him becas he is really cute! Woah~ the moment he took of his shirt, woah~ u just feel like fainting on the spot. It's too perfect! Add points!

Blissed ... i smiled ... it's really a sweet memories spending with u... thanks ...

we were 18 then except for Jul .. the only one standing up. Yupz ... memories will stay in my heart.

2006-05-03T11:15:00.000+08:00

It wouldn't be easy if i hadn't had these 2 great pals by my side during this 1 year. Thanks, yvonne! Thanks, nette! Without you gals, i guessed i wouldn't have survive till yesterday. Sorry, that i left before you gals. Well~ it would be u gals soon too. We had went thru' the ups n downs, the thins n thicks together. Together we shared lots of gossips n complains. Especially those times when we had to serve counter and yet getting loads of cases. Yeah~ doing OT together.

Hereby, i would like to wish you gals bestest of all in everything u do. We shall go tea together k k. We shall meet up once a while after we gals go separate ways. Sigh~ i really miss u gals.

I love u gals. On my left -the tall bamboo!!! On my right - my partner / my buddy ... just remember the basic rule: nv provoke her early in the morning!

Woah~ so big!!! Well~ i'm not scared! He is the biggest woah i'm the smallest in the department but he always got bullied by me! Eric ... u will miss me rite? No one to irritates n disturb u liaoz.

Yupz, my 3 "mothers"... They are our clerk but they alway bring their motherly character in the office. Really, always giving me food n snacks to eat. From left to right: Ruth, Laychoo n Evelyn. Ruth!! I will miss ur mango desert!!!!

Look how fake my smile was? Haha .. who else is standing beside me. Ta-da~ the infamous A.M i've been blogging n complaining in the past. Yupz. Mr Ellex Ng.

She is the one who interviewed me. She is the one who i came in and had respected the most. Basically i find a cham in her. The carreer woman charm. Yupz, Selute to my Deputy Director! Ms Alice Tang.

Finally, i got so say goodbye. I've returned my IHP and access card. But i got the other 3 to keep. Yupz. These will be in my memory.

Enough of the sad stuff. Yupz, well~ i finally understand why a lady looks best in the bridal gown! Look below and u will find out why...

One of my favourite shots. I look happy isn't it? Haha~ well the truth is that i'm super drained. Got a mahjong game the day before n nv really gotta sleep. I got an interview at 11.30am when i got home at ard 8am that day. Sigh~

Han quan said this look like Loan shark ah lian!!! haha .. do i? Well~ basically i think i am quite turn off by this pic. It looks like those chatline mei-mei. Grosh~

Arhhhh Finally my bridal shots. Yupz, Now u understand why i say a woman looks best in her bridal gown? Hmmm i feel like getting married!!! haha~

Don't i look blissful in this pic? Haha .. wonder who i was really thinking of at the point of photoshoot. But i think i remembered portraying a seaside, running along the beach with my "spouse"... romantic ..

Yupz, my break offically starts today, gonna accompany my mum to the temple to pray, insurance agency to settle some documents and finally my shopping spree! Gonna get my shoes and pants!

2006-04-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

Yupz, getting a hand of mahjonging!!! Haha~ really trigger ur brain!! Thinking and planning strategies for the game and always got to anticipate what the other players are playing.

Finally another at Sentosa. It's defintely not easy playing 2 frisbees Hmph! N Yihan is really good at playing frisbees! Arghh~ I wanna play well like him! Yeah~ *bum bum bum* I am drained.

Thoughts of my mind: "maybe i have been too demanding ... perhaps i shld have just follow my heart n feelings n not concentrating on other stuffs when liking someone .. basically .. appearance, education, family background ... shld not be consider at all when liking him .. why penalize someone u like based on all these?"

Nites peeps

P/s : Jul n phoebe .. remember i'll be free for week 1st may yah .. shall meet up for afternoon tea k k .. n also some shopping leh .. need to get my heels n some other clothings as well ..

2006-04-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

PUI~

Score so badly for last term! Pui pui pui .. no Distinction ... hmph! Gonna work super hard this term! wats more .. i got dance to cope as well~ bish~

Lousy results!

2006-04-25T20:30:00.000+08:00

Neh ... the medicine is not really working well. I'm still feeling, uneasy, weak n discomfort with my stomach. Arghhh~ ..

Hmmm ... enough of qing qing ai ai .. relationship ... sigh~ another long tok with vonny. Well~ something to trigger ya mind. Do u actually love each other that's why u are together for like 5 over years or .. has it became a habit to be together??? It's like u are so used of having him by ur side during the down times .. hence soon this has turned out to be an habit ... bleah~ i m lazy to elaborate further .. anyway ..

For an instance, i feel sad after breaking the news to engracia n erna that i'm leaving .. i'm not renewing my contract.

Of cas i will miss this place, esp the pple here. Hmm nvm we shall meet up n go clubbing next time. hmmm ..

Actually, is not that i dun wanna do the cases. Just that i am left with those super f*uck cases which i really dunch feel like touch them. Anyway, just make sure that i cleared them by this week!

I m really looking forward to my new job working as a sales-coordinator with Gera!! keke ... so fun with her ard. Yup yup yup ...

2006-04-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

Weee~ i'm back from the beach! It's really fun today except for my diahreo n gastri pain.

Arghh~ guess i'm having gastric flu again ... flu + diahreo and now gastri pain .. got to be gastri flu!

Anyway, i enjoyed myself!! really, especially at the last part when we start playing the draw face game! haha .. when the pic is up, i will post it ya ..

Ok .. so tmr will be going back to dance. Looking forward to it! but ... oppps i haven't practice my steps! sheeshhh ...

ok .. i have dragonfruit, mango, durian ... haha .. let me add another one .. how about lemon? haha ... oh well~

ok ok .. in pain now .. gonna sleep now!

2006-04-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

New term has just started and I gonna be serious - coping with work, sch n dance. Yupz, i will be able to exceed well.

Well~ class size is smaller than last term. Class without Jason seems weird. Yah .. miss this dude. Won't be seeing him for the next 3mths!!!! Gosh~ will definitely miss him badly...

Hope Joyce is recovering ... she has been so sick since exams. Sigh~ take good care gal.

Yupz, Hanquan just mentioned that i was very serious in class today. Hmm i guess so too.

Ooohhh Woooo .. haha~ the table for Internation Finance class seems to be higher than normal while the chair seems to be "sank" in. So it feels so uncomfortable sitting on the chair. I feel so short!! haha .. so clever Adrian stack another chair for me... haha *opps* it's kinda embarrassing at 1st. But anyway, got comfortable of it n i have totally forgotten that i m sitting on 2 stack of chairs. Haha~ it's really funnie. =)

Oh yah... i shall end another fruit into my basket!!! keke .. here comes mango!

Hey pple, come meet MANGO! He is really cute n boish. But too bad, dunch really noe much abt him except that he is working in Singtel n stays in Serangoon. Kee .. shall try to dig more info. haha ..

Good nite mina .. finally i feel like sleeping n feeling tired ...

2006-04-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

Hmmm ..

Happy or Sad?

Well~ it all gonna depends on how to perceive things rite?

Oh well~ just gonna say ... Memories are flooding me ... it's suffocating me ... *shoooh shooh shooooh* go away those sweet memories that makes me sad ... peace off!!!

Yuppie back to dance. The feelings is so nice n warm yet stranger to me. Pple who i used to close to ... pple who i used to laugh with .. pple who i used to dance with .. pple who ... hmmm

Well~ can i say that i am regretting .. giving up dance for the past 2 yrs? only going back at this stage ... when all my peers are all high up above .. whoah look at the way they dance .. the way they shake .. everything is so good .. so gracious .. not like me always like a bear dancing.

But again .. looking at the other side of the coin ... having to work in ctb allows me to help to lighten my parents load during the hard times. Finally almost 2yrs have passed, n bro is now out working. Yupz, i can say my load is slightly lighter now. At least the finacial tight times seems to be going over soon... yah 1 more yr n i will finally graduate ... not sure if i wanna do my master ... hmmm get my experience 1st i guess ...

2006-04-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

HuiXin or Shanice?

Not sure if i am making the rite choice?

Sigh~ cross road delimma again ... well~ we are always making decision in life isn't it? Every second every min every hr every day ... we are making a decision. From wat we are eating to wat we going to wear .. etc. There's opportunity cost in everything we do. Why? Becas of the factor ------ TIME!

Sigh~ Time ...

Don't "TIME" reminds u of everything. "Last TIME .. we used to be ..." "That TIME ... we..."

Well~ i hope i can tok to her(s) like last TIME. But whenever i tot i m prepared for everything, REALITY just proved me wrong. I wish all those had nv happened. Well~ we always regret in most things we do isn't it? cognitive disnonace? Sigh~ well~ thinking that things might be better if we had chose the other path?

Now, i've make a choice. I've chose to go back to dance. Yup, i m really happy! I m happy that i can dance in the familiar environment again. Truely happy. But please ... please let those memories fade away. I mean those particular ones. Yah, though it's the sweetest moments of my life, n i do hope it will stay. But at this instances, it is really hurting. My heart aches whenever this memories float again in my mind.

Kinda lost now. Sigh~ please let me dance with no hurts ... no worries ... no pain ... i just wanna enjoy myself once again.

"dear" is such a sensitive word to me now. Arghhh~ didn't i just forget abt u!!! didn't i!!!

I'm going mad!!!

2006-04-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

Finally i m back to NRA to dance.

I'm feeling super nervous the whole day. Felt uneasy at work. Butterflies in my stomach since afternoon! Gosh~ i was really nervous and excited!!!

Well~ simply, i need lots of work to get it all rite. No Engery! No Sharpness! No Groove! Lines is everywhere. Messy! Arghh~ Yupz, i will try hard! I will make sure that i am doing better than b4. Really! I must really work extra hard!

Yupz, finally it has came. Sigh~ not sure if can make it to batam this saturday anot.

Anyway, NP has really changed alot. "the bus stop ressemble the airport" - quoted from allegra. Haha, woah ... it's really nice .. it's bigger n there's like water fountain leading u to NP! Gosh~ B-E-A-T-I-F-U-L!

Yupz.

Was on my way home on the bus. All of a sudden, i really hope prince charming would be there. Someone who i can called my guy to be there accompany me and cheering me up. Assuring me that i will soon catch up with rest, telling me that i did fine .. etc. Sigh~ though r/s is not my priority now. But sometimes i really hope a guy who i love n he loves me is there. really ... i need a shoulder to lean ... hai~ teach me to love again.

Hmmm .. alright! I'm really tired now. Gonna sleep. Though my mind is still wondering about ... thinking of stuffs .. sigh~

2006-04-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

Finally another term has ended. After exam, we (car, joyce, sop, n myself) went shopping while the guys (adrian, andy n jason) went e-gaming at cine.

Yup yup, the guys complains going shopping with us is boring ... hur hur hur ..

We met up at marche n have our dinner! Yummy! Below are the list of food we had!!!

1) Roties with cheese susage
2) Black pepper chicken crepes
3) Cesear salad
4) Soft shell crab
5) Calamari
6) Pasta
7) Pizza
8) Potato wedges
9) Chix drumstick with mash potato
10) Root beer n Snapple!

Haha .. this is actually we had!!! Gosh~ keke

After dinner, we met up with Hankuan and headed to Hark Music Cafe for some chill up. Hek hek hek, so the lazy few (HK, adrian, joyce and myself) took a cab down instead. Since we reached early, hek hek hek, we had flower beancurd!!! Yummmy!!! Rochor tou hua is the best!

We were really noisy at the cafe ... really noisy lar .. jason was super "high" lor. Yupz, as usual .. Adrian was ask to sing!!! Well~ forever love ... forever love ... Sigh~ anyway, sop didn't manage to stay long enough to hear it .. yupz ...

Pic pic time!!!

Yupz, that's all!

2006-04-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

Taking a short break from my revision.

Lolx! Wasn't really in the mood for my Biz Econs revision. N that's explain why i'm online blogging at this time. Omg! I'm actually slacking for the whole of Saturday after my MIS exam. Hur hur hur. Wasn't nervous at all!

Anyway, the mood slowly build on Sunday morning, but got slack off starting form late afternoon. So yupz, 7.00pm i watched the Miss Singapore 2006 n 8.40 i switched channel to watch Superband opening. Was having high expectation for the competition, but end up the contestants are just so-so. Not really impressive though. Well~ Soul is good. Wat else rite? Afterall, there are a couple of them are dance scholars. Erm or shld i say they are all dancers!!! Hahaha ... after the white rythm. Now we have the Soul. Alright, personally (erm not being bias or wat) i think that Soul would be more marketable for the rest.

1st point noted, we had our solo singers embark the asian entertainment industries. But we have not had our very own Boyband! So yupz, having a new boyband from singapore would be a fresh idea! N these guys need little packaging. They got the looks (at least they are presentable). Yupz, they have the heights n builds too! They are already certified dancers so u dun need to spend too much $$ on them for the dance n stage experience. So u just gotta train them to sing! Yupz!!!! & having Awi in the grp would make it even more appealing! Singapore afterall is a multi racial society. Having Awi in the grp would make the whole idea even fresher! Imagine marketing Soul in taiwan???? Woah, pple will be surprise! Yupz... a malay in the all boy band in the chinese singing industry... Oh man! this would be so cool rite! ...

Yupz, back to my mugging time!

2006-04-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

Tmr would be MIS paper. Not very confident though. Well~ wat to do, haven't been hardworking this term. Gosh~ monday would be BE. Arghh~ never did a single bit of tutorial for BE. Gonna be a hard time during the weekend.

Looks like my attention span has reached it's limit. Gonna really rest before start my revision for MIS before the paper starts at 9am tmr. Hmmm ... gonna destress abit by watching bleach now ...

Everyone .. good luck for exam. N lao pa good for u. Tmr would be ur last paper! ...

2006-04-06T19:30:00.000+08:00

Alright, done up my study schedule for next term. Looks like next term would be more compact than this term. Wahaha, tutorial gonna start b4 the lecture week! Gosh~ oh yah, n there gonna be a week where there will be both tutorial n lecture. Soooo, the schedule for the that week would be tues - tutorial, thurs/fri/sat - lecture n wed- dance. Hmmm .. so monday? haha .. looks like expenses will increase .. hur hur hur, travel increase, food increase, wat else? keke

Alright, i've said upteen times that i missed those days .. so look .. haha the very 1st public performance - Chingay!

Haha .. looking back, i hope i have look more mature now! Yupz, definitely thinking wise as well. That's when we are still young n innocent! haha, yupz, dunch even noe wat politics in the club is about. But anyway, really enjoyed those times ... jolene is there .. yupz think she really changed alot! haha

While flipping thru my album, i found this pic ..

This photo was taken outside dad's company when i was 4 or 5 yr old? Haha ... i'm chubby rite? haha .. my eyes still as small yah. From left to right (Edwin kor, my bro, cheng- cheng aka derrick kor. myself n eunice) haha i really wonder how we would like if we gonna pose the same again. Keke .. it would be fun. Maybe, when everyone gathers again, sure ask them to pose again. think Edwin, kor n myself will have difficulties posing the exactly the same!! haha .. cheng-cheng kor kor just need to smile n eunice just need to look at me will do! hmph! haha .. i noe lar .. i "bo giah" dun keep looking lar. Ohyah, that's kor very 1st BMX bike! which was stole when we moved to here (serangoon).

Oh yupz, i'm progessing well on my studies. Finally i understand wat is dataware house n datamart. Haha .. now then i understand hope isn't too late lar.

2006-04-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

Yuppie~ got a call from jolene, saying that Ann will be adding a segment for the alumni to dance! So happy~ I can go back to dance le. N yesh~ finally tutorial for next term would be on tues. So so that means won't crash with dance le! Oh yah, and also mean i got to really be consistent in my sch work. No more slack slack le! Hmph! Hopefully this dance training will bring the "old me" back! Yah~ like last time always got dance training yet there will still be time to do tutorials! Yupz, there's a will there's a way!

Finally~ another term gonna end soon. Next monday would be my last paper n will be a 2 weeks break! Yuppie! Hope menses dun come after exam ba. If want, then come now. I wanna go batam for cable ski! n suntanning! with adrian n marc! ... haha .. hmmm .. phoebe also .. maybe jason n kath! Really feel like staying over! Finally a time off from Singapore! A time for relaxation! Yupz ... haven't been sleeping over for a long time. It was during the NRA days when we stay over n play games... i miss those days ...

Alright so from tmr start i'll study hard for my last exams for this term. Especially with the news from jol! I m fully motivated now! Yuppie! Finally i found a meaning of living...

counting down .. 4 more terms left ... sigh~ kinda sad though ... i dun wanna loose this bunch of classmates .. i will miss u guys de .. esp for those who grad this yr ..

Oh yah, can start playing badminton n mahjonging soon .. hmmm but think dance will take up most of my time le ... nvm .. saturday nite or friday nite after my dance i join u all .. keke .. shifu gambate ba .. u will find a job soon le ... take care of ur health k ...

2006-04-03T07:35:00.000+08:00

Was it me or was it you?

Have i or have you changed? Perhaps .. we both had changed?

If only ... sigh~ if only we were as close as before ..

2006-04-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

Afraid .. i'm afraid that u will be taken away by someone. Sigh~ yet i dun have the courage to express my feelings towards u. Hmm .. or shld i say, i m still unsure. I can't decide. Is this feeling right? Sigh~ but the image of u being snatched away is freaking me out. No i dun want this to happen. I dun wan ..

I miss u .. really i do .. but wat's the point of blogging here? Sigh~ anyway at least i get to vent my feelings here instead of burying all this in me. At least i will be able to feel a load off me after i blog. Yes, i miss u. Good nite.

2006-04-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

It's april fool!

The death anniversary of this singer .. haha dunch remember his name though.

Sigh~ anyway, finally we got a conclusion for our MIS proj. Finally we all knew wat's going on (adrian, hope u are following so far).

Looks like the aggressive me is back. The one who argues. the one who is unreasonable, the one is heck-care on others, the one who is impatient. Sigh~ the one who is who she is before being the gf of Bj. Is this good or bad??? Hmmm .. defintely it is bad!

Yah .. there's definitely a reason for me to change to who i was during those days. Yupz ... think i just better got to control my temper. Yah~

Guys .. i'm sorry for being agressive in my part doing the proj. Yeah~ cas things aren't getting any where as u all can see. Everyone is at the lost track. Everyone is looking at different things n discussing everything about the proj. It's good that we all discuss but i just wanna get u guys to stop discussing n getting no where. We should at least know wat is the main purpose of the proj n everyone in the grp shld noe wat is going on. Yah~ sorry again. Just got to be firm to facilitate the discussion.

Shi fu .. hmmm hope u are fine ba ... dun be so quiet again k ... =)

2006-03-31T01:11:00.000+08:00

Do you remember your first kiss???

Hmmm .. well was discussing with vonny the other day on the above topic.

Haha ... well~ definitely most remembered rite?

Oh rite.. i gave my 1st kiss to J. Hahaha~ but come to think of it. I got disgust by it!!! Arghh~ that time was purely too young to understand r/s. & gosh~ haha ... i can't believe i gave it to someone like him. Arghhh~ while chatting with vonny, i feel a sudden need to brush my teeth n listerine! Yucks! Really yucks! Haha~I dun understand why i used to like him so much in the past. Luckily i met some other guys which make me grow up. Haha~ To be honest, I don't remember how the 1st kiss goes, but is the partner which makes me turned off! Bleah~

Kiss with MJ was ooookkkkieeee. Hahaha~ the feeling is ???? dunno. Dun remember when did we actually kiss though.

Next is BJ! Yupz. The most fantastic of all!!! Perhaps the longest r/s i ever had. Kissing him makes me the most blissful woman in the world. I just melt in his arm. And all these explains why i fall over head to toe for him. Really~ the feeling is just GREAT. The 1st french kiss we exchanged was outside NP backgate - the one which is facing the high way. He accompanied me to sch to return some forms to our dance advisor. Hmmm .. yah. I love the feeling! ... hur hur hur. *dreaming*...

4th person i had is ET. Hmmm .. well~ the one i like most is when we were at explanade. Yups, that one is not too bad too ... but perhaps the feeling wasn't as overwhelming, yah ..

So above all my 4 r/s. I guess BJ is the only serious one i had. & also the most passionate of all. Kekeke ...

Who shall be the next guy??? i wonder .. sigh~ sigh~ sigh~

Anyway, will blog about other events which took place this week. Tonite, i'm tired! Tmr still got proj. Sat still proj! I really dun like MIS. Really ... dun like!

Shi fu, Gambate ok! Cont'd to sing. Sing for your passion!

2006-03-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry to let u guys worry for me after reading my previous post.

Dunch ya worry k. I'm feeling much better after blogging. I'm glad i actually blog in the morning. Spilling out my inner feelings, inner thoughts. Tsk tsk tsk, did not let this "feel" to affect my doings at work.

Sorry Phoebe, sorry lao pa~

Feeling much better now.

Gosh~ having slight eyes infection now. Arghh~ n i m advised not to wear contact lense for 1 wk!!! How can? No contact lense for 1 wk??? Sheesh ... Engracia n the rest force me to go see doc. Then end up got scolded from doc. I was telling him, i dun feel any discomfort or pain in my eyes. Guess wat he said??? "then u want to wait till pain then come see me, izzit?" Arghhh~ i dun feel much better after saying that. So no choice, without my spect at work, i got to leave for home n rest my eyes. Gotten my nap n everything. Come to evening. Thought my eyes would be better, but .. opps .. looks like it is still red. Sheesh ..

2006-03-27T07:45:00.000+08:00

Too swiff so quickly ... sigh~ 2 yrs have pass.

I thought i had erased everything in my mind. I thought so ... But again i have this fear in me. 27.03.2004 .. that's the end of our story.

I was chatting with lao pa last nite. Telling him the fear i have in me whenever i see him in bad mood or angry. Yesh~ i dunno why, but i'm afraid. Thought all these fears had gone. Had disappear in the thin air. But .. ... that day at bugis, seeing his tensed up expression on his face, make me grasp the air. I got chocked by the air. Yah~ the familiar expression ... sigh~ i fear of.

2 years seems to past quickly. I wish i could stand up on my feet again. Somehow, i m still in search of love, i guess. Avoiding guys who have interest in me, that's what i've been doing. I dunno wat i'm thinking abt. Is it the phobia of love in me causing me to be like this. Being defencive of myself? Sigh~ i really wish to know the ans now!!! I dun wanna carry on like this forever, hiding forever! Please God, tell me wat is the next step??? ...

Dragonfruit, is someone i like now? sigh~ search me. I'm not to sure. Perhaps he do have some reseamblance of starfruit? Not actually though.

The reason for not facing my true feelings, is becas i noe i will loose one friend. That's not i want. Becas i regret. I regret even after the break up, i chose to avoid him. I m as stubborn as i was in the relationship. I rejected his offer taking a photo with him during our farewell party. I'm such a ... arghhh~ i wanna scream out loud! I wanna ... i wish i could be at the seaside now! Screaming out loud. perhaps i will feel better? I hope so... think i will go mad one of these days if the lock to my heart has not find the right key to it.

The ulitmate goal in life is ---- death, isn't it? So why are we trying to so hard to live, i wonder? I wish i could vanish now... i wish i could i vanish ...

2006-03-25T14:10:00.000+08:00

Shan't go into details on wat actually happen last nite. Sigh~

Anyway, went to watch movie with S.jon at cine after wat happened. Caught "The hills have eyes". Haaa, both of us was abt to fall asleep in the cinema, but caught "woken" up by the exciting scenes. Keke .. been spending quite alot lately. Better tone down ... yah.

Time to prepare for exams.

I'm so in love with David Tao's "jiu shi ai ni" song. Awww .. so sweet. Lao pa say he would like to use this song to his gf in future. So, i was telling him that it will become an oldies by then.

Anyway, wat happened last nite, really makes me feel that i am so blessed compared to others. I dun have bf taking me as a punching bag, or ATM, etc. I shld feel blessed that all my exs treat me like princess (at least for the time we are together). As least they truely love me yah. *smile*

Hai~ wondering wondering wondering .. thinking thinking thinking ... missing missing missing ...

D - Dragonfruit.

2006-03-24T00:56:00.000+08:00

EXCITED!!!!

That is an understatement describing my feelings now! Haha~ Oh yeah~ Shifu gonna compete next week again! Yupz! Yahhooo... So happy for him! Ahhhh~ the feelings when weijian got into superstar! Keke .. shifu aka superstar to be??? hmmmm

Shi fu on stage!!! U go man!

Posing?? Hhaa ... hiao lar

*twice* bleah .. kath n myself

Congrats!!! Shifu! U can do it de ... Gambate!

All was fine .. till i reached home, read hanquan's blog n went to this link ---> http://chinese.cari.com.my/myforum/viewthread.php?tid=495237

Arghh~ So super pissed now! Mother fucker! Using the word bitch to describe her is an insult to the femal dogs. Death penalty for her! Step her the way she step the kitty! Yesh. Use stillatos on her. Step into her left ear n poke thru it .. n exits thru the right ear! Hmph~ step right into her anus! then her virgina! Where got hole just step n dig lar! The nose .. go step right thru' it n into her throat! Hmph! .. her belly button too ... all the way till her shit all come out .. step her eyes .. dig it out! Hmph! I'm angry is also an understatement!

2006-03-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

D for Dragonfruit ~ ... hmmm been thinking alot lately ..

Feeling insecure of this feeling .. really .. i dun wan to actually fall in love again .. i fear~

Heck wat's going on .. got to stand firm! i will not want to be weakling .. nv i want! i remember the hurt i went true .. yesh i remember ..

Sigh~ anyway .. shifu will be competing this thursday! Gambate! But ... i gonna miss my show .. my dream chaser! sob sob sob .. junyang ...

Oh yah .. Junyang is the ambassador for KFC! .. hahaa .. will try to love KFC k .. though i'm not very fond of fastfood .. n even so .. KFC is 2nd last in my list ..

Fight-oh-fight-oh .. SHIFU fight! .. Fight-oh-fight-oh Shifu fight! haha

Watched too much POT liaoz .. keke ..

2006-03-20T19:26:00.000+08:00

Yuppie .. let me intro u to my new friend! Ok .. got to know this guy from kath. Haha~ actually nothing much to tok about also.

Went to watch V for Vendetta with S. Jon last nite. Hmmm .. a not too bad show. Yah~ new experience for me. Haha~ dunch really watch such show lar. It's a very political show. See the corruption in the government n how things run .. Hmm~ one scene of which the bishop actually hires teenagers for sex! Hell~ Anyway, kinda like the killing scene. Bleah~ i becoming violent! Duh~ my parts of the scene where the people got killed n blood splashing out .. arghh~ it's gross!

Ok .. here u goes .. pics update again!

kath n myself! k3k3 .. we both got big-small eyes! Hmph! my forehead look so high! .. bleah

lao pa n lao ma .. they are happy together again ..

lao ma aka shi fu on stage!

he loves me .. he wanna kiss me .. *muacks muacks*

Juicilious strawberry from Boey .. *slurp* really juicy!

2006-03-19T08:48:00.000+08:00

"hao xiang ba ni chang qi lai ..." this little voice has been in my head for the whole nite ..

Woohooo.. Hark music cafe is cool. Really a nice place to chill. Nice n cosy ambienece. Good, polite n friendly svc. Staff are hardworking. Very good... very good ... 2 thumbs up for that place.

The pianist from afar looks not bad .. he shld just sit there instead of standing up n walk ard! Spoilt it. Really spoilt the image him in me... haha .. nothing serious.. just that he is way too tall!!! n SKINNY too .. like bamboo. Keke .. after some time i realize he look like someone .. yupz SCC Sky. Haha ~

Ok .. the crowds are nice too .. yupz. I love the "feel" u get while sitting there listening to the love songs pple sing. Awww .. so sweet .. n with a cosy position .. hugging the cushion! Gosh~ so sososo MTV! haha

Oh yeah~ Applause for shifu! Gambate .. u sang well last nite so dun worry lar .. u alway sing well anyway. *winks*

Hmmmm .. gonna watch ya compete k k ... go for the 1-hr singer! then strive to be the 1-hr weekend singer! Jia you jia you! We will support u de. After wo men shi yi jia ren!

Ma ma .. wo ai ni! lolx

2006-03-18T18:08:00.000+08:00

I'm bored at home! Arghhh~ finally a weekend at home .. exams are drawing near .. thought of revising today. But .. i got seduced by my bed!

Maybe i just need some replenishment for the weekdays. It's though this week. Seeing my boss in his room everyday. Duh~ Like wat engracia said, i've become the boss's favourite.

-_-'''. As if wanna... the cases i got are sucky as ever. Maybe i should really go trim my hair n cut away the "bad lucks"? hmmm ..

Yupz, gonna blog abt this!!!

After dream chaser on thursday nite, n i said i gonna fall in love in my dream! Oh yes i did! haha ... but the him who appeared in my dream wasn't dragon fruit. It was someone else. Yeah .. haha .. but i nv thought of him for a long time n neither had i met or contacted him for almost a yr!! haha .. yupz, he's NIGEL - the Li Hom lookalike! Arghhh ...

haha .. i wanted Dragon fruit in my dream though .. but dunch noe why. Anyway, this dream realise that i have not contact him for a long time so i tried my luck to msg him on my way to work. Ta-da he replied! haha .. but asking who i am. Duh ... that's so typical of him ...

After knowing who was it! Gosh~ he replied saying that he misses me! haha .. n gave me a hug! I m really overjoyed k... really. Oh yah, 1 important thingy! He still calls me "xin". The feeling so so so .. hmmm how shld i put it .. er sweet??? haha .. yah .. miss him too!

Along our conversation .. bleah he calls me - silly gal. Haha~ very long nv had anyone calls me that. He used to call me that anyway. Haha~ just just just imagine .. dragon fruit gonna use that on me. Awwww it will be so sweet rite? Hek hek hek, having ur sweetheart calling u cute names .. heee *blush* *blush*

Emirates gal gonna fly back soon .. so i pushed away the "shopping appointment" with azlin n jean so to have dinner with the rest. Yupz, looking forward to it! n jul, u will get to see her soon .. dun worry ok!

2006-03-18T01:07:00.000+08:00

I can't stop thinking of Dragon Fruit today ... sigh~

Now i truely understand the feeling of missing someone yet that special someone does not know that u actually miss him/her ---> this feeling sucks.

2006-03-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

I dun noe why .. but i think i miss Dragon Fruit's presence ...

Sigh~ now i truely understand why they say the saddness thing is missing someone but that special does not noe that he/she is missed by u ..

Blog abt my day tmr ...

good nitez

2006-03-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

The reason i love thursday ---- Dream Chaser!

Awww ... i wanna fall in love again! Look at the sweet start of AJ n Lynn (JY n Kelly in the show)'s relationship. Awww ... it is just so sweet... Look at how AJ look at lynn!!! Arghh~ he is still so sweet lor .. be it in the competition or in the show. .. JY is just sweet k! He is my sweety pie! wahaha .. Erghhh .. i love his smile! Melt in his smile! arghh ... so pure n innocent. Gosh~ i wanna be in the show as well~ haha ..

Really~~~ pluuuuueeeeesssseeee ...

Yupz, finally got thru' this draggful week .. erm at least going to finish it, yah? It's FRIDAY tomorrow!! Wee .. can sleep more liaoz.

Oh yah oh yah! Not to forget wat i bought today! It's Orchard point 2nd anniversary n OG is having a private sales!

Went there during lunch break. keke~ so happy got myself 3 bras! cheap cheap leh. I love the blue one most .. so sweet~ haha .. n guess wat i got it for like only 39.90$ n it comes with a panty n a lingerin! Oh yah .. my 1st lingerin! haha .. very nice i have tried it but it's big lar .. free size - duh wat u expect rite? haha .,.. but it's really very sweet!

The white one is nice too .. yupz, sweet n demure .. haha very cath leh .. with some pink flowers emboidery on it.. wee

Finally got myself the stick on bra too! hhaa ..

I love my bras .. duh~

Shall go sleep n fall in love again~ ..

Thinking of u .. you yi zhen hao

2006-03-14T19:27:00.000+08:00

Thanks lau pa... had read ur post.

Haha .. u actually uploaded those pics of cath n shi fu .. kke cath really has many expression on her face when eating .. glup glup glup ..

hek hek sorry to have worried u so much .. sigh~

Work today wasn't happy at all .. everyone is having bad mood ..

It's easy to say not to bring emotion to work .. but sometimes it just can't help it .. especially doing something of which u are not keen in?

Anyway .. hope ah kee jie jie will bring me good news on the pay. .ke ke ..

Sheeshh i hate the feeling of missing someone .. DF ~

2006-03-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

Omg Omg Omg .. our Emirates gal is back! Yuppie Rasidah is back in town!!!

Celebrated geri's bdae at Fish n Co. Keke .. so nice seeing these gals again. There's gina, huiling, xiuling, geri e birthday gal, myself n our VIP -- dada dada dada *drum roll* Rasidah!

Weepee ... happy happy happy .. crapping with geri again .. keke .. i miss this gal company! haha .. remembering those good old days yeah .. bleah .. always kenna bullied by her .. now the same though .. haha

Yupz .. after fish n co .. we slacked at PS Mac .. yupz haha .. without buying any drinks .. keke .. anyway it's really a heart whelming session with the gals .. i miss them ..

Gosh~ i miss lotsa pple .. Sigh~ too little time too many things ...

Under paid .. Over deliver .. -_-'''

2006-03-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

Oh yes .. i did ask for an enlightenment in my previous post .. nv expect God to ans me this fast.

Met adrian, hanquan, lix, n cath for project today. Would like to apologise to everyone for my suky attitude today. Only lau pa knows why .. having too many things rumbling my head .. lau pa .. thanks for encouraging me to persuade my passion .. a passion which i have buried in me for a long time .. a passion which i chose to ignore .. a passion which i chose to hide from .. running away from ..

Definitely i am not in the mood of doing proj ... can't take any nonsense today .. sorry.

I have been thinking of the same things while on my trip to meet them. Was telling myself .. if only he was here to help me decide again .. to give me advise ... those were the days .. always supporting me when i'm leading .. waiting for me to finish my proj in sch till late nite .. till the library closes .. helping me to complete my proj till dawn while allowing me to sleep by his side .. why? i dun understand why are u treating me so nice in the past .. i m so stubborn .. so childish .. so petty .. why are u tolerating my nonsense in the past .. why ...

Just when i was staring out in the air .. a familar soul walk past .. yes it's him! finally i got to see him .. though it's from afar .. though not face to face .. but i'm happy to see him again .. though it's just a few sec .. but i'm happy .. NO i dunno if i really m .. all of a sudden my heart shatters once again .. time seems to pause for me .. everything seems to stop .. i dunno why .. but i m really shock when he walked past .. my heart seems to stop for a few sec .. it took me some time to wake up .. thinking i was dreaming .. yes it's him .. definitely it's him .. he is wearing the same outfit .. track pants n black shirt! .. nv did i tell him that i like to see him in black plain shirt .. it makes him look more shuai n man ..

I feel like hiding myself in a corner again .. i wanna cry .. but i gotta put on a strong front! yes i need to do my proj ..

Proj discussion soon ended but i have no idea wat we had actually discussed .. seriously .. though i've tok many things but i dun remember wat i had discussed ..

We went for dinner at billy bombers .. fighting away my tears .. so much so i wanna be a coward to run home to sob in my pillow ..

Went to the new shopping complex opp of bugis - Trendy Zone ... well~ not in the mood to shop either .. my mind is just wondering away .. hoping that he will be nearby once again .. my eyes is wondering every where .. inserach of him ..

dunno how to explain my feelin now .. i just dunno how to react to it ... serious .. i dun have the feel of missing him .. i dun have the feel of loving him .. i dun have the feel of wanting to be with him .. i dun have the feel of wanting to talk to him .. i dun have the feel of wanting to hug him ..

perhaps above are all false .. perhaps i am running away again .. i dunno wat i'm really thinking about ..

i m glad my stubborn tears has decided to flow down my cheeks once again ..

putting a smile everyday it's not easy ..

*shanice aka xin*

shanice aka xin