"Every flower must grow thru' dirt"
Yupz, went zouk last nite. Sigh~ tot it is all well planned but end up only me teddy bear, mel, lenz, alvin, myron, leon n some other pple went. Tot the whole dual will go together, but in the end becas of music preferences all separated. After work, went herren billy boomers to celebrate Donald's bdae with some other ex- citibankers, yeah~ hmmm then eat n chated for a while n start dazing. N this ber start taking photos of the food n his FINGERS!!!! which turn out to look some *e-hem* sex stuff?? haha.
We reached zouk at ard 11+. Yah, then tot kat will come along n dance with me. But she is down with flu, sigh~ Both zouk - house music n phuture wasn't as fantastic as i tot will be. Wasn't really in the mood to dance also. Yah~ then was dancing in the phuture that time, saw someone look like him, but just for a glance n disappear liaoz. Didn't manage to get a closer look at him. After phuture we went wine bar, erm at n they were actually standing at the same spot as the other time i went with kat. Hmmm, so much so memories flows back again. Played 5 10 with myron n mel. Haha, n this time i'm the one lossing. Yeah~ finally huh. *ehem* n think myron was really tipsy last nite, he was toking so much, LOL we make a comment that he is drunk, he said that he is not, n says that when he is drunk he will tok alot, n the fact HE IS TOKING alot!!! haha. So funnie. Hmm then tok abt some serious stuff with alvin. He told me that he was once like him, easily fall for gals n so on. OR rather he is indecisive of which gal to choose. Yeah~ n he is a tarus!! tot tarus is one faithful lover? hmmm... now i start to doubt. yeah~ or perhaps it is just the pass age, boys in their late teens are like that? Perhaps so~
Reached home ard 4+ n washed up n sleep. Getting tipsy already, n tired.
Well~ read her blog again. hmmm~ wth WAT HAD NRA BECOMUNG???? into grps?? tot it was still fine. Sigh~ i dunno am i to blame anot? Is like i've promise to guide her when she become pressie, but wat am i doing now??? leaving her alone!!! That's nt me!!! I am nt like that. I always wanted the best for the club. N is like becas of my break up with him n build a commercial n now i've lost one friend or rather 2 friends. Yah nv contact with them both. What am i doing? Arghhh~ i'm actually putting feelings into work. mixing both things together!
Helppppp ~~~~~~~~~~~ i dun wanna see my club to become like this. I'm feeling so useless now. My dream was once - going back to NRA for dance pract every week even after i grad, but now everything is holding back. Tot i can go back, but look at my work schedule, even wed i also need to OT just becomes i'm not bringing enuff nos. N having such a selfish leader, who commanded pple nt to go for classes when they nv hit their target. Oh come on~ if u can go for ur thai boxing n wat ever classes u are taking, i dun see why we can't just becas we are ROs? MCP! Say wat make u pple dun get MC on mon after coming back from diving. WTF are u talking abt, if we are really sick we NEED to take MC lor. N wat abt u??? After some drink of one of the nite, n the next few days get MC. PLEASE dun misuse ur authority k!
Another reason for holding me back, is yah~ every one do noes, i dunno how to face them both. I dunno how i will react when i see him or her. Will i break down again? I dunno, but i do noe i want to dance!!! I miss dance!!! sigh~
Perhaps, it is really time to move on to the next chapter of my life - DIVING??? water sports? Hmmm~ yesh i do love diving, allowing me to relax n have a peace of mind. But i love DANCE to, i miss those days during the trainings - yesh including times when train without air con in the studio or at the sports deck every where there's space to dance. Arghhhh ~~~~ n now i'm broke! one more week then get pay. Sianz ah .... sigh~ also dunno why jace nv ask me go club. Hai~ after attached with him, jace start drifting away from me le, or is it me who drift away from her? i also nt sure. But somehow, i become closer to my classmates. Well~ frankly speaking, i dun think i drift away from my friends. IF i really drift away from them so to be with him then i won;t be closer to my classmates. Yesh~ i have TONS n TONS of projects in yr3 n really spents 24/7 with my class k. So dun say i zhong se qing you cas i really bz with projects. SUnday also go back sch to do project k. But all these payoffs are worth it. I m closer to my classmates, our projects achieve high ends n i gain better knowledge of MARKERTING!
Hmmmm... will consider if to take up salsa class with alvin... but i still prefer hip hop leh ... alvin hip hop lar ... keke
yourstruly crapped @ Sunday, August 01, 2004